*blowing and sweeping off the dust*
Ahh~, Its been quite some time since I last visited and post something here...Well, I am back! Quite a number of things happened while I was away, I graduated, I shifted, I went to the Karaoke for the time, I started work and I'd return to write =D!hehe...Not gonna write about what I mentioned earlier, I got something on my mind which I would like to share. So, here goes!
Currently listening to :- GLAY - Missing You (random...I know)
Well, I came across a word recently, which initiated my mind to think and do a little self-searching and also a bit of reference to my past. The word I came across is 'Success'. Well, from what I read is that success is based on one's destiny, whether are you born being talented or just another average Joe like me here. The path to success or failure is already pre-determined and there is no other way but to go with the flow. Well, I disagree because of a simple fact, that's not how I see it ;p.
Without a shadow of a doubt that some people are just born being talented. Well, what can I do? That's just not for me I guess? But having that privilidge does not necessary mean a ticket towards success, I believe through hard work, we can go somewhere and be a someone who actually can do or good in something.
Well, I have a talent, at least that is what I think. I learn and grab new things easilly. For example, introduce me to a new sports, within that period of time, I can actually start playing a proper game, although being sucky at it, but hey, I PLAYED a proper game. Besides, on my musical side, I can play the whole structure of the song after a few trials, for piano its more obvious compared to my guitar skills =p. So, being 'talented', why am I still an average Joe? Simple, because I am lazy, having the ability or talent (in this case) of being a fast learner, I lack the hardworking side for success, I just can't bring myself to further upgrade myself into becoming a someone good in something. So, how can success be pre-determined and we're just plainly following the flow?
Well, that was for a bit of self-searching and I came to realize that I hardly succeed in most of the things that I am involved, well maybe I did had my fair share of accomplishments but those are most than capable of being even better. So, blame myself for not working hard...hehe
Moving on, about my past, about success. I can further prove, besides hard work being the major key to it, one's state of mind is also very important. I'd been telling people to believe themselves in times of hardship or crisis...did that even more back when I was House Captain, trying to win the elusive Inter-House Cup back in High School...The most memorable times were my final two years, Form 4 and 5.
Back in Form 4, I was sort of in my prime, after being 2nd and 3rd in the previous two years respectively, I gained some recognition and was called up for the school team's tryout and training (I made my own luck as well since some of the other better runners transfered). I trained and work hard, maybe this is the only one that I really worked hard for...Ohya, adding to the fact that, I had a mild asthma when I was young, so my stamina was never good and that was my major weakness. I threw up a couple of time due to my incompetence, but I kept it together, pushed myself through. The moment of the inter-school track & field was approaching, it was CNY so I watched my diet, won't wanna gain extra weight before the event and my family and I went to Penang, I rememeber a lot of my family members had food poisoning due to some indian food that we all consumed, yes, WE...I also had it, it was during my time in Penang, that year being my cousin's Uni graduation and the time in Penang wasn't very enjoyable, this period of time just became even more unforgettable...I recovered in time, worked on my limited amount of fitness, getting ready for the event. Until...I got struck down by a very heavy flu, my nose was literally blocked 24/7...no need to elaborate further, painful to just recall it. So yea, having not being 100% fit, I got sick, adding fuel to the fire no? I got a respectable 3 in both my 100m and 200m heats, but it could had been much more better, because, I didn't make it to the finals and the guy ended up 2nd in my 200m heat, was the eventual 3rd place in the finals...need I say more?
Nonetheless, the school's Sports Day arrived, I was in, with a taste for redemption, making my debut in the Boy's A category, where the Form 4, 5 and 6 compete. The favourite was definately from another house while my own teammate was also more than capable of beating me. Like I cared, well that's me, even knowing how slim were my chance, I'll at least give it a try before saying its impossible, at least I tried. Guess what, I made it, I crossed the finishing line 1st in my 100m sprint, albeit by being just ahead by 0.02 second. I won, the joy was overwhelming, as my trademark was to win coming from behind, I did it again! Well, there was a bit of a let down, because I came up short, by 0.1 seconds to break the record...my time was 11.71 while the record was 11.6. Oh well...As for my 200m, it was much more comfortable being 1st, still beating the favourite. Since then, people did not see me the way they used to. I earned the respect I'd got in the field of track & field. Was I talented? Nope, I gained it through hard work and a positive mind.
So, in Form 5, you would guess that I would be an automatic choice for the school team? Sadly, would be believe it? NO!!! They didn't even bother to send...when we're made up for a bunch of last minute recruits, they send a team, when we actually have an established team, having a shout of being in the finals, they did not even bother. My dreams were shattered, my shape was better than it was in Form 4, hey, I jogged almost everyday since the Sports Day, and this is what I get? I lost hope and slacked, until I finally picked myself up, it was a bit too late with Sports Day, my final one approaching fast. So, I diverted into winning as overall champion, I focused on building up the whole team with seasoned atheletes overlooking the whole training process. Well, in the end, we lifted the cup. As for me, I got 2nd in 100m but maintained an unbeaten record in 200m, albeit only for 2 years.hehe...Ohya, I was in the relay team as well, we won the 4x100m for the 2nd year running, but the main story was the 4x400m. My house's Boy's A 4x400m team have never lost for 5 years straight, my year winning would make it 6th. I was pulled into the team as my vice-captain injured himself...I was made anchor (4th runner) as, well, my style is coming from behind...I was sort of like a last resort. Our 1st runner was made for this distance, but he was at a major disadvantage as he just won his 800m moments ago, so he was tired, he ended up 4th or 5th when he passed his baton, 2nd and 3rd runner managed to cut and maintain at 2nd place. Until its up to me....yea, I sound like a hero? Tell you this, it ain't fun. The one in front of me, a seasoned long distance runner and had a 50-60m lead...as for me, you already know about my stamina right? History repeated itself for the 6th time! We won, and I came from behind again.hehe. How did I do it? I blocked out my mind over my fear of running out gas halfway through while motivating myself by saying 'the 6th year running'. I did that until I finally caught up and overtook him at the finishing 100m stretch (my territory...keke). The moment I caught up, my team (up at the stance) help their breathe as they were cheering, when I overtook, the roar that came, I can still remember until today. The rest was just to hold the lead, I did that =D. Both my thighs, shins and calfs, were crying their hearts out and I was in pain, who cares anyway, we'd won!
So yea, was that pre-determined? Was that destiny? If so, then destiny can be altered so easilly, if I had not motivated myself, I would had lost, like in 100m, I wasn't even motivated knowing my own form at the moment. So yea, there is more to being successful. It takes more than one ingredient to reaching that ultimate goal. So, let's all work hard for it yea?
Hmm, I wanted to talk about my personality as well. Remember I mentioned about DISC (a damn accurate personality test) and I am a 'C' type person? Well, basically, a 'C' type person, is being a perfectionist, a person who pays a lot of attention to little details, a person normally in the background, one who relates to the past alot and one that is quite reluctant to changes...Well, those are some of the characteristics, in which I am seeing more clearly in myself. As you can see, the above are all my past, besides that I do alot of referring to my past in other cases as well. So, proven.
Being a perfectionist, it differs in my humble point-of-view, as I would like things to go my way, as how I planned it...kinda like a perfectionist. So, in a way, proven.
Paying attention to details, I think I can categorize myself as being obsessive with this, well, its just me so its definately proven. Besides, I am always more comfortable with the security of being early. For example, when I pack my bag for anything, albeit it being a school day, a trip or even an outing, I'd go the extend of 'double' checking my bag, time after time after time...Besides, if you ever have the chance to see how I manage my playlist...some would say I have too much free time. I can go to the extend of making sure, all spellings, capital letters and spacing of each word is how it should be...That's just me =p
Reluctant to changes, in the real life I am still ok, but when I am gaming, that's where you can see. I prefer an ordered and my style of organization, if you ever played Final Fantasy, you'll understand this. The main character must be the strongest character, if he/she died in battle and did not received any experience points, causing him/her to be behing, then I'll go the distance of making sure he/she gets back in front...Go wonder how I do it...hehe. So, proven.
Well, what I actually wanna write about here is that, I do not know whether understanding my own personality through the test was a good thing or a bad one. Cause, sometimes I find myself, living the way to suit what the definition says....yea, I am scaring myself when I actually realized it. Well, hope its not like that, although some of the things I am doing now had already started way before I took the test. So, hope I am still normal =p
Hehe, wrote a lot this time around, gotta stop here =D. Hope it did not bored you to death upon reading (if you get this far that is...hehe). Peace people! Signing off~
Ahh~, Its been quite some time since I last visited and post something here...Well, I am back! Quite a number of things happened while I was away, I graduated, I shifted, I went to the Karaoke for the time, I started work and I'd return to write =D!hehe...Not gonna write about what I mentioned earlier, I got something on my mind which I would like to share. So, here goes!
Currently listening to :- GLAY - Missing You (random...I know)
Well, I came across a word recently, which initiated my mind to think and do a little self-searching and also a bit of reference to my past. The word I came across is 'Success'. Well, from what I read is that success is based on one's destiny, whether are you born being talented or just another average Joe like me here. The path to success or failure is already pre-determined and there is no other way but to go with the flow. Well, I disagree because of a simple fact, that's not how I see it ;p.
Without a shadow of a doubt that some people are just born being talented. Well, what can I do? That's just not for me I guess? But having that privilidge does not necessary mean a ticket towards success, I believe through hard work, we can go somewhere and be a someone who actually can do or good in something.
Well, I have a talent, at least that is what I think. I learn and grab new things easilly. For example, introduce me to a new sports, within that period of time, I can actually start playing a proper game, although being sucky at it, but hey, I PLAYED a proper game. Besides, on my musical side, I can play the whole structure of the song after a few trials, for piano its more obvious compared to my guitar skills =p. So, being 'talented', why am I still an average Joe? Simple, because I am lazy, having the ability or talent (in this case) of being a fast learner, I lack the hardworking side for success, I just can't bring myself to further upgrade myself into becoming a someone good in something. So, how can success be pre-determined and we're just plainly following the flow?
Well, that was for a bit of self-searching and I came to realize that I hardly succeed in most of the things that I am involved, well maybe I did had my fair share of accomplishments but those are most than capable of being even better. So, blame myself for not working hard...hehe
Moving on, about my past, about success. I can further prove, besides hard work being the major key to it, one's state of mind is also very important. I'd been telling people to believe themselves in times of hardship or crisis...did that even more back when I was House Captain, trying to win the elusive Inter-House Cup back in High School...The most memorable times were my final two years, Form 4 and 5.
Back in Form 4, I was sort of in my prime, after being 2nd and 3rd in the previous two years respectively, I gained some recognition and was called up for the school team's tryout and training (I made my own luck as well since some of the other better runners transfered). I trained and work hard, maybe this is the only one that I really worked hard for...Ohya, adding to the fact that, I had a mild asthma when I was young, so my stamina was never good and that was my major weakness. I threw up a couple of time due to my incompetence, but I kept it together, pushed myself through. The moment of the inter-school track & field was approaching, it was CNY so I watched my diet, won't wanna gain extra weight before the event and my family and I went to Penang, I rememeber a lot of my family members had food poisoning due to some indian food that we all consumed, yes, WE...I also had it, it was during my time in Penang, that year being my cousin's Uni graduation and the time in Penang wasn't very enjoyable, this period of time just became even more unforgettable...I recovered in time, worked on my limited amount of fitness, getting ready for the event. Until...I got struck down by a very heavy flu, my nose was literally blocked 24/7...no need to elaborate further, painful to just recall it. So yea, having not being 100% fit, I got sick, adding fuel to the fire no? I got a respectable 3 in both my 100m and 200m heats, but it could had been much more better, because, I didn't make it to the finals and the guy ended up 2nd in my 200m heat, was the eventual 3rd place in the finals...need I say more?
Nonetheless, the school's Sports Day arrived, I was in, with a taste for redemption, making my debut in the Boy's A category, where the Form 4, 5 and 6 compete. The favourite was definately from another house while my own teammate was also more than capable of beating me. Like I cared, well that's me, even knowing how slim were my chance, I'll at least give it a try before saying its impossible, at least I tried. Guess what, I made it, I crossed the finishing line 1st in my 100m sprint, albeit by being just ahead by 0.02 second. I won, the joy was overwhelming, as my trademark was to win coming from behind, I did it again! Well, there was a bit of a let down, because I came up short, by 0.1 seconds to break the record...my time was 11.71 while the record was 11.6. Oh well...As for my 200m, it was much more comfortable being 1st, still beating the favourite. Since then, people did not see me the way they used to. I earned the respect I'd got in the field of track & field. Was I talented? Nope, I gained it through hard work and a positive mind.
So, in Form 5, you would guess that I would be an automatic choice for the school team? Sadly, would be believe it? NO!!! They didn't even bother to send...when we're made up for a bunch of last minute recruits, they send a team, when we actually have an established team, having a shout of being in the finals, they did not even bother. My dreams were shattered, my shape was better than it was in Form 4, hey, I jogged almost everyday since the Sports Day, and this is what I get? I lost hope and slacked, until I finally picked myself up, it was a bit too late with Sports Day, my final one approaching fast. So, I diverted into winning as overall champion, I focused on building up the whole team with seasoned atheletes overlooking the whole training process. Well, in the end, we lifted the cup. As for me, I got 2nd in 100m but maintained an unbeaten record in 200m, albeit only for 2 years.hehe...Ohya, I was in the relay team as well, we won the 4x100m for the 2nd year running, but the main story was the 4x400m. My house's Boy's A 4x400m team have never lost for 5 years straight, my year winning would make it 6th. I was pulled into the team as my vice-captain injured himself...I was made anchor (4th runner) as, well, my style is coming from behind...I was sort of like a last resort. Our 1st runner was made for this distance, but he was at a major disadvantage as he just won his 800m moments ago, so he was tired, he ended up 4th or 5th when he passed his baton, 2nd and 3rd runner managed to cut and maintain at 2nd place. Until its up to me....yea, I sound like a hero? Tell you this, it ain't fun. The one in front of me, a seasoned long distance runner and had a 50-60m lead...as for me, you already know about my stamina right? History repeated itself for the 6th time! We won, and I came from behind again.hehe. How did I do it? I blocked out my mind over my fear of running out gas halfway through while motivating myself by saying 'the 6th year running'. I did that until I finally caught up and overtook him at the finishing 100m stretch (my territory...keke). The moment I caught up, my team (up at the stance) help their breathe as they were cheering, when I overtook, the roar that came, I can still remember until today. The rest was just to hold the lead, I did that =D. Both my thighs, shins and calfs, were crying their hearts out and I was in pain, who cares anyway, we'd won!
So yea, was that pre-determined? Was that destiny? If so, then destiny can be altered so easilly, if I had not motivated myself, I would had lost, like in 100m, I wasn't even motivated knowing my own form at the moment. So yea, there is more to being successful. It takes more than one ingredient to reaching that ultimate goal. So, let's all work hard for it yea?
Hmm, I wanted to talk about my personality as well. Remember I mentioned about DISC (a damn accurate personality test) and I am a 'C' type person? Well, basically, a 'C' type person, is being a perfectionist, a person who pays a lot of attention to little details, a person normally in the background, one who relates to the past alot and one that is quite reluctant to changes...Well, those are some of the characteristics, in which I am seeing more clearly in myself. As you can see, the above are all my past, besides that I do alot of referring to my past in other cases as well. So, proven.
Being a perfectionist, it differs in my humble point-of-view, as I would like things to go my way, as how I planned it...kinda like a perfectionist. So, in a way, proven.
Paying attention to details, I think I can categorize myself as being obsessive with this, well, its just me so its definately proven. Besides, I am always more comfortable with the security of being early. For example, when I pack my bag for anything, albeit it being a school day, a trip or even an outing, I'd go the extend of 'double' checking my bag, time after time after time...Besides, if you ever have the chance to see how I manage my playlist...some would say I have too much free time. I can go to the extend of making sure, all spellings, capital letters and spacing of each word is how it should be...That's just me =p
Reluctant to changes, in the real life I am still ok, but when I am gaming, that's where you can see. I prefer an ordered and my style of organization, if you ever played Final Fantasy, you'll understand this. The main character must be the strongest character, if he/she died in battle and did not received any experience points, causing him/her to be behing, then I'll go the distance of making sure he/she gets back in front...Go wonder how I do it...hehe. So, proven.
Well, what I actually wanna write about here is that, I do not know whether understanding my own personality through the test was a good thing or a bad one. Cause, sometimes I find myself, living the way to suit what the definition says....yea, I am scaring myself when I actually realized it. Well, hope its not like that, although some of the things I am doing now had already started way before I took the test. So, hope I am still normal =p
Hehe, wrote a lot this time around, gotta stop here =D. Hope it did not bored you to death upon reading (if you get this far that is...hehe). Peace people! Signing off~
