My Little Complilation

*blowing and sweeping off the dust*
Ahh~, Its been quite some time since I last visited and post something here...Well, I am back! Quite a number of things happened while I was away, I graduated, I shifted, I went to the Karaoke for the time, I started work and I'd return to write =D!hehe...Not gonna write about what I mentioned earlier, I got something on my mind which I would like to share. So, here goes!

Currently listening to :- GLAY - Missing You (random...I know)

Well, I came across a word recently, which initiated my mind to think and do a little self-searching and also a bit of reference to my past. The word I came across is 'Success'. Well, from what I read is that success is based on one's destiny, whether are you born being talented or just another average Joe like me here. The path to success or failure is already pre-determined and there is no other way but to go with the flow. Well, I disagree because of a simple fact, that's not how I see it ;p.

Without a shadow of a doubt that some people are just born being talented. Well, what can I do? That's just not for me I guess? But having that privilidge does not necessary mean a ticket towards success, I believe through hard work, we can go somewhere and be a someone who actually can do or good in something.

Well, I have a talent, at least that is what I think. I learn and grab new things easilly. For example, introduce me to a new sports, within that period of time, I can actually start playing a proper game, although being sucky at it, but hey, I PLAYED a proper game. Besides, on my musical side, I can play the whole structure of the song after a few trials, for piano its more obvious compared to my guitar skills =p. So, being 'talented', why am I still an average Joe? Simple, because I am lazy, having the ability or talent (in this case) of being a fast learner, I lack the hardworking side for success, I just can't bring myself to further upgrade myself into becoming a someone good in something. So, how can success be pre-determined and we're just plainly following the flow?

Well, that was for a bit of self-searching and I came to realize that I hardly succeed in most of the things that I am involved, well maybe I did had my fair share of accomplishments but those are most than capable of being even better. So, blame myself for not working hard...hehe

Moving on, about my past, about success. I can further prove, besides hard work being the major key to it, one's state of mind is also very important. I'd been telling people to believe themselves in times of hardship or crisis...did that even more back when I was House Captain, trying to win the elusive Inter-House Cup back in High School...The most memorable times were my final two years, Form 4 and 5.

Back in Form 4, I was sort of in my prime, after being 2nd and 3rd in the previous two years respectively, I gained some recognition and was called up for the school team's tryout and training (I made my own luck as well since some of the other better runners transfered). I trained and work hard, maybe this is the only one that I really worked hard for...Ohya, adding to the fact that, I had a mild asthma when I was young, so my stamina was never good and that was my major weakness. I threw up a couple of time due to my incompetence, but I kept it together, pushed myself through. The moment of the inter-school track & field was approaching, it was CNY so I watched my diet, won't wanna gain extra weight before the event and my family and I went to Penang, I rememeber a lot of my family members had food poisoning due to some indian food that we all consumed, yes, WE...I also had it, it was during my time in Penang, that year being my cousin's Uni graduation and the time in Penang wasn't very enjoyable, this period of time just became even more unforgettable...I recovered in time, worked on my limited amount of fitness, getting ready for the event. Until...I got struck down by a very heavy flu, my nose was literally blocked 24/7...no need to elaborate further, painful to just recall it. So yea, having not being 100% fit, I got sick, adding fuel to the fire no? I got a respectable 3 in both my 100m and 200m heats, but it could had been much more better, because, I didn't make it to the finals and the guy ended up 2nd in my 200m heat, was the eventual 3rd place in the finals...need I say more?

Nonetheless, the school's Sports Day arrived, I was in, with a taste for redemption, making my debut in the Boy's A category, where the Form 4, 5 and 6 compete. The favourite was definately from another house while my own teammate was also more than capable of beating me. Like I cared, well that's me, even knowing how slim were my chance, I'll at least give it a try before saying its impossible, at least I tried. Guess what, I made it, I crossed the finishing line 1st in my 100m sprint, albeit by being just ahead by 0.02 second. I won, the joy was overwhelming, as my trademark was to win coming from behind, I did it again! Well, there was a bit of a let down, because I came up short, by 0.1 seconds to break the record...my time was 11.71 while the record was 11.6. Oh well...As for my 200m, it was much more comfortable being 1st, still beating the favourite. Since then, people did not see me the way they used to. I earned the respect I'd got in the field of track & field. Was I talented? Nope, I gained it through hard work and a positive mind.

So, in Form 5, you would guess that I would be an automatic choice for the school team? Sadly, would be believe it? NO!!! They didn't even bother to send...when we're made up for a bunch of last minute recruits, they send a team, when we actually have an established team, having a shout of being in the finals, they did not even bother. My dreams were shattered, my shape was better than it was in Form 4, hey, I jogged almost everyday since the Sports Day, and this is what I get? I lost hope and slacked, until I finally picked myself up, it was a bit too late with Sports Day, my final one approaching fast. So, I diverted into winning as overall champion, I focused on building up the whole team with seasoned atheletes overlooking the whole training process. Well, in the end, we lifted the cup. As for me, I got 2nd in 100m but maintained an unbeaten record in 200m, albeit only for 2 years.hehe...Ohya, I was in the relay team as well, we won the 4x100m for the 2nd year running, but the main story was the 4x400m. My house's Boy's A 4x400m team have never lost for 5 years straight, my year winning would make it 6th. I was pulled into the team as my vice-captain injured himself...I was made anchor (4th runner) as, well, my style is coming from behind...I was sort of like a last resort. Our 1st runner was made for this distance, but he was at a major disadvantage as he just won his 800m moments ago, so he was tired, he ended up 4th or 5th when he passed his baton, 2nd and 3rd runner managed to cut and maintain at 2nd place. Until its up to me....yea, I sound like a hero? Tell you this, it ain't fun. The one in front of me, a seasoned long distance runner and had a 50-60m lead...as for me, you already know about my stamina right? History repeated itself for the 6th time! We won, and I came from behind again.hehe. How did I do it? I blocked out my mind over my fear of running out gas halfway through while motivating myself by saying 'the 6th year running'. I did that until I finally caught up and overtook him at the finishing 100m stretch (my territory...keke). The moment I caught up, my team (up at the stance) help their breathe as they were cheering, when I overtook, the roar that came, I can still remember until today. The rest was just to hold the lead, I did that =D. Both my thighs, shins and calfs, were crying their hearts out and I was in pain, who cares anyway, we'd won!

So yea, was that pre-determined? Was that destiny? If so, then destiny can be altered so easilly, if I had not motivated myself, I would had lost, like in 100m, I wasn't even motivated knowing my own form at the moment. So yea, there is more to being successful. It takes more than one ingredient to reaching that ultimate goal. So, let's all work hard for it yea?

Hmm, I wanted to talk about my personality as well. Remember I mentioned about DISC (a damn accurate personality test) and I am a 'C' type person? Well, basically, a 'C' type person, is being a perfectionist, a person who pays a lot of attention to little details, a person normally in the background, one who relates to the past alot and one that is quite reluctant to changes...Well, those are some of the characteristics, in which I am seeing more clearly in myself. As you can see, the above are all my past, besides that I do alot of referring to my past in other cases as well. So, proven.

Being a perfectionist, it differs in my humble point-of-view, as I would like things to go my way, as how I planned it...kinda like a perfectionist. So, in a way, proven.

Paying attention to details, I think I can categorize myself as being obsessive with this, well, its just me so its definately proven. Besides, I am always more comfortable with the security of being early. For example, when I pack my bag for anything, albeit it being a school day, a trip or even an outing, I'd go the extend of 'double' checking my bag, time after time after time...Besides, if you ever have the chance to see how I manage my playlist...some would say I have too much free time. I can go to the extend of making sure, all spellings, capital letters and spacing of each word is how it should be...That's just me =p

Reluctant to changes, in the real life I am still ok, but when I am gaming, that's where you can see. I prefer an ordered and my style of organization, if you ever played Final Fantasy, you'll understand this. The main character must be the strongest character, if he/she died in battle and did not received any experience points, causing him/her to be behing, then I'll go the distance of making sure he/she gets back in front...Go wonder how I do it...hehe. So, proven.

Well, what I actually wanna write about here is that, I do not know whether understanding my own personality through the test was a good thing or a bad one. Cause, sometimes I find myself, living the way to suit what the definition says....yea, I am scaring myself when I actually realized it. Well, hope its not like that, although some of the things I am doing now had already started way before I took the test. So, hope I am still normal =p

Hehe, wrote a lot this time around, gotta stop here =D. Hope it did not bored you to death upon reading (if you get this far that is...hehe). Peace people! Signing off~

My little box of thought

Had a pretty interesting day, given the fact that classes have ended and I'd got nothing to do. But, I had a pretty good time, going on an outing with Veron and her classmates - Yvonne, Michelle and Alex, not forgetting Yip (I think that's how his name is spelled)...my bad.

So, this is how my day unfold. I went back to college, to study, to just get out of my room, to just see some faces and just like the feeling of being back in college I guess. So, it started a bit bad I if i would put it, as I had to wait a long and painful 40 minutes just for the bus to start loading and eventually leave the station =.=...Wastes a lot of my time there. Then, as I was walking to college, i received a message from Veron so I slightly increased my pace, with a bad ankle and a not so comfortable shoulder, carrying a laptop, that's a bit hard, honestly. As I reached, I woke Veron up and she did not look happy (sensed something was up), so I cut the intro and just opened the door. Soon, I found out what happened then just played some songs that she liked to hopefully cool her down a bit...

Soon, she left for class which is also when my intensive study period begins, gonna really push for my management!!! Ultimate goal is to be the top scorer but I am currently third among my lecturer's classes,which haven't include another group of students yet, so yea, the obstacle is high, but I made my own bed when I slacked of by quite a bit. So, gonna work hard for it and hope things would just turn out to be right for me this time (yea, things aren't quite going my way since the start of this year).

I for one, am quite a restless person, I can't sit down for too long doing one thing (except gaming =p). So, occasionally I move about and some trips to the wash room are also inevitable, in one of the trips, I bumped into Kelly, I was still blur then, as I slept late and really wanted to take a nap (which I did...later). I heard someone calling me, this happens to me a lot, when I THINK someone is calling me but in fact, they aren't, but this time, Kelly did called out my name. I was actually surprised to see that she is somewhat dressed in semi-formal, given that her normal 'dress code' is just sporty or casual, that's my image of her at least...So, something new to go about. She looked more feminine, a bit contradicting to her usual self which will whack and talk crap. *hehe, don't come whacking me the next time you see me yea?* Just joking lar, truth is that, she is still an active and out-going type of girl, so seeing her clad in formal clothes...really an eye opener.

As to Nat, I saw Mr.Sarno just now in campus as well *evil grin*. =D

Ohya, Its also Eugene Birthday today, so Happy Birthday to the big shot! He received an iPhone from his wife, lucky man ;p. Nothing much happening in the SSD, besides the Scholarship Ceremony, which I am not taking part in, wanted to but I decided to give myself a break and concentrate on my finals next week. Well, Ronald was on duty, so the inevitable happened, I helped him out with his stuffs...again.hehe

Wei-Ni came over for a bit, gave me some company which I needed in the SLO, but she only stayed for a while until she is really hungry and gotta eat. So, I waited for Veron, it was kinda late so I texted her which didn't went through, me being me, I started to imagine stuffs out of the blues, thought that she might had left...hehe. That's just me ^^, which is also why I chose not to read or watch any horror or violent movies...my own imagination will kill me =p.

Soon after that, as I was helping out Ronald, Veron came and on we went, to Asia Cafe for lunch and some entertainment, along with Yvonne, Michelle and Alex. Bunch of lively people, fun and comfortable to be with. This is the second official time meeting them, first being Veron's birthday, so, talked a bit and I played a game of pool with Michelle, I lost though =p...hehe. After that, time to go home lu~~~

So, after all these, you might start to think why did I name this post the way I did? Well, its actually based on the conversation which we shared at AC. So, it initiated my mind and it went racing with thoughts, well, that's me too, I may not talk a lot but I think too much. We talked about relationship in general, we got our leading male and female character of course, but I am not gonna disclose it here, basic human rights.hehe

So yea, I started to think, what do I actually want in a girl. To start things off, I am a quiet person by nature, well its just my personal views, I think I would need someone, whom I can relate to, or maybe even initiate some of the topics, well at least my mom thinks the same too. However, based on what I heard just now, such girls are those who prefer someone that can talk as well...Hmm, conflict of interest maybe? Well, my first ex was those who can really talk. So, I think that its still very subjective and more of a case by case basis lor. But hey, the most important factor, to even initiate, the feeling should be there, not just feeling, the right feeling as well. As some would say, one can never have too many crushes, but the bottom line is still that a relationship takes two to make it complete. No point clapping with one hand.

So, having said that, we'd gotta work for what we want as well and also knowing the limits and boundaries that we should never cross. Hey, if things doesn't work out in the beginning, at least can still maintain as friends right? I guess, this would be the biggest obstacle to overcome, at least for me, which is the fear of losing a friend if things get awkward. Haiz, if we do nothing, nothing would happen also, but even if we do, might make the matter worse...What to do? Hmm, about this topic, I do not really have much of a view about it lor, most of the time I would just follow the flow, I take risks, I would venture for something or someone I really think its worth the risk, sometimes calculated while some, maybe not...I let go of my latest crush, a simple way of putting it, just that as time passes on, things would start to get clearer and I realized that might not be the best interest. So~, just leave it as that...

Think I wrote enough this time, gonna go listen and sing 'Drowning' again ^^. I just love this song, gonna try it when the time comes.hehe

Just some updates

Phew~ The month of May, its just not only a month of my finals, but also a month of birthday celebrations...wallet suffered a bit but that matters not, its the thought that matters! So, once again, Happy Birthday to all those May babies, namely Nat, Veron, Elaine and Nicole!

Aside from that, M.U got crowned champions of the English Premier League for the third straight season...Well, congrats to them and work harder next season Gunners. Rumours had already been spreading that Arsene Wenger might leave Arsenal for Real Madrid....NNNNOOOOO!!!!!

Hmm, I donno why, but recently I had been listening to songs in which I listened back in the days. I took some Disney's songs from Wei-Ni. The last time I really watched the cartoons was when I was still young, so I did not understood the whole meaning of the story and of course, the songs. Now, bearing some battle scars along and hopefully a bit wiser =p, I listened to the lyrics and tried to understand it. I actually found it very meaningful, kids are really encouraged to watch and listen to such songs, can really broaden their minds (at least for me).

Besides, sticking with music, I have been listening back to boy bands once again =p...hehe...Clearly, my all time favourite being the Backstreet Boys =D! Then I would think followed by N'Sync since I do not really listen to any other boy bands...Well, been listening to "This I Promise You" from N'Sync, and still find it a touching song, although last time I just liked the whole complextion of the song, without really knowing the words, but know I do =D. I also polished up "Drowning" by the BSB, some that ever heard me singing the whole song would tell you that, I am very 'busy' when attempting this song...mainly cause, I can cover all 5 vocalist's part, although not ALL, but those more significant parts...keke. Now, planning a little trip to the kareoke, gonna pratice it and then show off...hopefully would be greeted by cheers then laughters =p.

Anyway, gotta leave my dear readers with this lyrics, hope you would enjoy it as much as I do =D

"This I Promise You"
N'Sync

When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surrounds you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
When standing here all alone

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Til' the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)each loving day (each loving day)
And know this feeling won't go away (no)
Til' the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I thought
When I hear you call
Without you in my life, baby
I just wouldn't be living at all

And I will take you in my arms (I will take you in my arms)
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Til' the day my life is through
This I promise you, babe

Just close your eyes each loving day (each loving day)
And know this feeling won't go away (no)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you

Veron's 20th, Elaine's 19th

On the 16th May, it was Veronica's birthday while on the 17th May, its Elaine's birthday. A bit of a back to back celebration for my case since I am one of those who cares about such stuffs. So yea, my wallet suffered a bit but that does not matter a bit to me as every cents that I spent is worth every bit of it. So Veron, don't worry about it yea?hehe. This post is dedicated to you both

So, on the 15th of May, Sue and I actually had a plan to have an early celebration for the two of them, Sue made it happened so all credits to her! I managed to got the two of them a present each, with help from my two good friends or nemesis =p. So, only thing left to do is to make sure they show up. Indeed they do, although Veron already knew what's going to happen, Elaine doesn't at that time so we went on with the initial plan. We pulled it off, albeit it being a very small celebration, but its the heart that matters the most. So yea, hope you two enjoyed it.

*Veron and Elaine, on 15th of May

Hmm, this is my first time trying to write this, so yea, bear with me.hehe. I wanna try writing about the whole journey of know each of them thus far.

Firstly, Elaine. Hmm, took notice of her back in the Council 09's first camp, she was known as the girl with the plastic surgery face...So yea, don't really know much about her until the official forming of the Council, in which she ended up as the department's secretary. A very gentle and sentimental girl and often reacts kinda slow to jokes...especially the lame ones =D. Hmm, all in all, really don't really know much of her but its only the beginning, still got alot of chances as we're in the same department. Happy 19th Birthday! Good luck in your exams as well!!! All the best!

Next up, saving the best for the last, Veron. Where do I start? Where else besides the very memorable Junior Leaders? She was the first girl that I met back in Juniors. Back then, I was still very quiet, not out of my own shell yet and there she was, being Veron. So, I was finding my way around until suddenly, the slow pressure cooker (as Sue would normally put it), finally cooked the rice. I, out of the blues, can actually be myself in front of the Council, which I hope is a good thing as I just wanna be myself in front of people, but It takes time to get myself really open to poeple, a bit too long I must admit. Now, her and Sue just can't get me to stop talking, ironic eh?

Now, albeit a bit slow, I am starting to get to know more of her and knowing her better as well. As the common link is via the council, I normally get to meet her and Sue during Council's activities or just during some time in the SLO. People in general, would naturally be in good or bad mood at times, as for Veron, I am starting to get used to it and knowing how much I can do, which is providing a pair of ears whenever needed. People might find her hard to deal with, but I just think that she is very honest with her emotions. So, do not ever try to piss her off... She also sends me back home quite frequently as my place is just located nicely on the way back to her place, along the way I'd just listen to all her stories, whichever that makes her happy or sad or just any other stories that she wanna share. Besides, she also can pack quite a punch in singing. Ohya, not forgetting that she is actually quite easy to be satisfied, simple stuffs can make her go over the moon. AND, she gets high on sugar and she'll start to get hyper and red which is also when the surrounding would not be quiet anymore.hehe

To me, Veron is just like a 'Big Sister' to me, as proclaimed by herself, she got the 'Da Jie' (big sister) aura, which is quite true as she can be quite commanding, in a good way that is. I donno why, I can also relate most of the stuffs happening around me to both her and Sue. Both of them would just come into my mind first if I got anything new or another problem, although most of the time I'll get teased and bullied by them =.=. *shrugs* So, stay true to yourself! Stay happy, cheerful....many more down the line so in short, stay Veron!hehe.

Thanks again for the invitation to your birthday party. Enjoyed myself and I know you did as well which is good to hear. Once again, Happy Belated 20th Birthday! Love ya lotz =D

*giving her speech, with a gigantic 'mic'

*birthday girl, Veron and I in T.G.I Friday's

Hope I did not miss anything, will maybe just edit some once I recall anything...Its 3 in the morning, so bear with me...hehe

1-4!

Well, just because you asked for it doesn't mean I'll give you the title you asked for Nat. Yea, Arsenal got trashed yet again at home...How to even dream of winning the league when we're conceding goals for fun against big teams. 4 against Liverpool, 3 against M.U and now another 4 against Chelsea. Not gonna comment much as the score line says it all, the old Arsenal with all the possession but no end product is back it seems.

Don't wanna talk about it anymore, got economics test coming up and yet to really study for it. Gonna read through again and fight! Good luck to the others who are sitting for this test as well.

Calling upon the best performance

Well, another outing, another win. How I just hope the Arsenal would perform just like this since the beginning of the season. Overall, a good performance, given the fact that most of the players are made up of the reserves. Good job Gunners. Next up, Manchester United at the Emirates, Stadium. Well, we're a goal down but Man U had never won at our stadium before so we still got every chance of making the final!!! Which is why this title is called calling upon the best performance. May the best team wins the semi, but I would hope that we can pull through.

It was Natalie's birthday yesterday (2nd of May), celebrated her birthday for her in college then off we went to Sunway Pyramid. Had dinner there, crap a bit and laughed quite a bit as well. Just that we didn't managed to go to Amp Square, as the idea of going there has been up since the beginning of the trip, well we didn't go because not all agreed to go. When we did eventually, the rates shot up like crazy so we ended up not going. Well, will just go with the council then. Happy Birthday Natalie!

Ohya, yesterday, 2nd of May, was the council's first welfare trip! Organized by the Department of Special Task, headed by Wei-Ni with support from Nicole and Siew Lee. Good job girls!!! Although only 9 of us ended up going, but the trip was enjoyable and actually 9 of us, was just nice given that we had our problems on the way to the orphanage located in Puchong, will tell you why later.

Well, I arrived at college a few minutes before eight and Wei-Ni had just arrived as well. So, we walked to the SSD just to know that the sliding door is locked. So, I went to the security and asked them to kindly open the door for us. They did but who knows, they only allow me to go in and take the stuffs out...WTH!? We're leaving at 8.30 and you expect me to carry everything out and wait at the cafeteria? Why can't you just leave the bloody door open...Stupid. Moving on, people started to arrive as well, they were namely Jovan, Sarah, Brenda, Kelly, Azryn, Nicole and Siew Lee. When we were loading the stuffs onto Azyrn's car, the alarm of the CIMB atm machine rang like nobody's business, with two technicians there working...My eardrums were literally vibrating with the noise...

Ah, just to think that we can finally depart peacefully, another thing happened... Siew Lee's car's tyre got punctured...Oh..just great huh. So, Jovan and I went to work, changing the tyre on the spot, no choice what. First time ever changing a tyre and it was a success! Thanks to the tips by my dad all this while.hehe. So, Siew Lee said "it seemed that we're not destined to go there". Quite true considering the fact that, I had a long trip trying to find the place, they had another long trip just to find the spot again the day before and not this puncture tyre...BUT, we pulled through and on we went. Now, do you see why 9 people is just nice? Because, from the initial 3 cars driving, we only had 2 in the end with the rear packed with our stuffs for the orphanage...Blessing in disguise.

We had fun at the orphanage, played games and learnt origami along with the kids. The kids are quite nice, easy to get along. But all good things must come to an end. It was soon time to leave. We exhanged thanks and goodbyes. We left, with a smile on our faces, back to college, already looking forward for the next trip. Once again, good job girls!

Back to winning ways

Yep, Arsenal won just now, a 2-0 win over Boro after the breathe taking but disappointing draw at Anfield, we're back among the 3 points club.hehe. Arshavin scoring all 4 goals in that match, received a standing ovation wherever he went around the pitch. Well, I would too. Well, today he din't score any but after the 4 goals, who would blame him? But, he looked jaded or maybe even lazy towards the end as he just did not run much...hmm, injured? Well, not much to write about, just that happy with the results. Keep building a good and strong foundation to beat MU!!! Go Gunners!

Well, the 'Amazing G-Race 2009' has come to an end, another chapter written and closed. Alot happened, some good ones, quite a number of bad ones. Gonna write about in another post, not really in the mood to write about it yet, digesting what happened before I let it all out. Well, hope this can act as a good lesson to not only me, but also my team. Well, I accept all the critics as I think we deserved it. Oh well, we all have low times, I felt down, now still trying to pick myself up. I'll be back and fight for another day. Feeling a bit demotivated, but I wont quit, I'll be putting down a lot of good times ahead if I do. So, still digesting...