Thursday, September 1, 2011

Getting a hang of things

*My first translation went Ga-Ga so I just deleted it...heartbroken over it =((*

Hello! I'm back with my second attempt at translating. This is a song, which I knew for quite some time but only recently that I paid some serious attention to it. I enjoy singing and listening to it and I hope it does the same for you as well =). This song is basically about expressing the longing-ness towards someone that is important to you, be it family members, lovers, friends or maybe even to those who are not around anymore. As for the music video, it portraits a story between two lovers.

Note: A dear friend of a close friend of mine left this world last year, and I think a full 365 days just passed not long ago. Although I do not know her but I hope the other side is more forgiving the what we are having here..


(I'm)
*Most afraid of the sudden stillness in the air
Most afraid of a friend's sudden concern
Most afraid of an unexpected memory tossing about painfully
Most afraid of suddenly hearing about You

Should my longing has its voice
May it not be of a sorrowful cry
As it is,
I finally made myself owning myself
All that's left is tears, which I could never fool myself with

(chorus)
A sudden longing of You
Where could you be?
Are you happy or aggrieved?

A sudden longing of You
The pierce of an unexpected memory
The sudden blurring eyes

We were like the most stunning of songs
Turned into two sorrowful tales
Why did you,
Led me on my most unforgettable journey
And yet, left me with the most painful of souvenir

Our
Sweet,
Beautiful,
Trusting,
Crazy,
and such passionate 'past'

Why do we,
Still have to run towards our own separate happiness
Growing with our regrets

Repeat chorus

Repeat *

Most afraid of finally decided on living on my own
Without you and yet
Suddenly hearing of you, once more...

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Persona

I can't sleep and I can't wait until September to write my next post. Been burning with a desire to write nowadays. I am going to write something on an aspect of me which I mentioned a few times before but this time, I think I understand that side of me better with the help of the video below:



After watching it the first time, it's like getting slapped in the face and then only come into realisation that, what he is talking about is actually a big part of what and who I am. He talked about 'perfect people' and started off by saying who people under this category showcase their love which I kinda disagree as I do not think I am like that :P. Moving on..

Next, he touched on the point of the misconception between a control freak and a perfect person. I find some relevance in here as well, because looking back, I have been very particular with how certain things should be, be it with my friends or sometimes with my family or just how I arrange my laundry. Some may have cursed within themselves at me for being such a hard head or control freak but truth is, I am not and never even had the intention of being controlling, a better term used by the speaker was that people like me are always on the hunt of getting things 'right', but getting things right is very subjective and our 'right' may not be your 'right', so there you go.

The speaker then pointed out with an example of the furniture on the Titanic which I find a bit exaggerating but still funny nonetheless, an example of me being in such state would be when I am driving. I am nutter when it comes to the law, if I am given an option, I prefer not to make an illegal U-Turn and make an extra 5 minutes drive to make a legal one, call me dumb but that's how I am...and I will wait at traffic lights during the early hours of the day even when they are no one around...I do not stick to a certain manual nor do I have a religion, I just mainly stick to my principles as they give me a certain closure..which brings us to the next point.

Sensitivity, it is what really set us apart from being a total control maniac. After watching the video, I was able to answer some of the question that even I ask myself at times. This may drag on a while..

I have always see myself as an emotional guy, but now I find a better word for that, which is sensitive. I feel on a level, at times too strong for my own good. Tell me a thing once, if it strikes me hard enough, I will remember the excruciating detail of it until the day I die. Simple example? If you have ever been a passenger when I drive, you would realise that I will have some troubles determining whether or not I have lock the door of the car. Why is this? Because I forgot it once, just once, and my brother reminded me the next morning that the car was in the porch, unlocked. Just that once, even I am tired with myself at times that I have to check for numerous times to ensure that the car door is locked. Even with it lock right in front of my eyes, at times I would still question myself just to be sure of the already certain fact..

"What they want is people to be sensitive to their feelings'', is what he said and is what I would agree. Based on this sentence alone, memories flashed before me and now I see them from a differ perspective that helps me understand myself better.

I never seen it this way but for most of the things I have done for the people around me, especially for my friends is that I believe in karma and I hope that I can be treat the same as how I treat them..However, that is not to be most of the time, as I put my friends before me and without questions, should they need my help I will try to help. Why? I called myself an idiot many times before this, asking why am I constantly willing to help when they most probably would not be around should I am in need to help or just a simple companionship.

Another example would be why my primary persona is a quiet, shy and soft-spoken type of guy? In my primary school years, my mom always said that I resembles a tiger at home as I was loud and naughty but at school, I resembles a sick kitten instead. Many times have I tried to speak up, and many times I was either ignored or laughed at as kids can be quiet mean without them actually knowing it. I had trouble understanding my emotions but now I guess I was hurt back then. I think since then, I have been more of a listener rather than a speaker and only those whom I grew up with during my teenage years would really know the real me looks and acts =).

Sticking to my primary school years, although this is not related with the mentioned topic but it can help you to see how I function, the incident that I can remember was during an English class, if I may say this, I was a little better in the language as compared to my peers when I was young and the teacher knew me quite well. It was during one of those spelling exercises done in class, it was one of those words in plural where a 'Y' is replaced with an 'ies' sort of word like 'fly - flies'. I think I made a simple but stupid error of spelling it as 'flys' and as the teacher circled the class, she noticed what I wrote and gave me a hint that I made a mistake, try as I may but I just could not spot it. After realising that I did not manage to correct myself, the teacher asked the whole class to start spelling the word out, and when the first alphabet was spelled out only I realised my mistake but I think that further infuriated her and she lost it a little, scolded me a little and called me stupid with her index finger pointing at me. I was stunned and ashamed but all I did was just to change the word. The lesson after was history and was taught by the teacher in charged of my class, I do not know how but a classmate of mine actually told her what happened and she came over to me, I think my expression was so pitiful that she started to ask was I alright, but then, without a word, I cried and I was around 10 or 11 that year. It's just me, the more people cared about me, the more vulnerable I get.

I do not think many would realise this but I am not fond of insects, creepy crawlies or any sort of surprises by them. Why? I guess I must have upset something with my birth given how much I went through before the age of 7...hehe, I was hit in the eye my a flying beetle when I was playing with my neighbour. And why I dislike cats so much is that I was bit, jumped on plus being ticklish did not help as well XD.

But as I get older, I realise I do not take rejections, set backs or stuff along those lines very well. When rejected or facing set backs, I blame myself first before anything for not being up to par. Which is why I can never see myself and to approach a stranger and start talking, more so if the person is a girl. I have always envy those people who can just go up to anybody and get a friendly reception and I still envy them today...

This post is named persona because I recently just changed my profile information. A simple sentence that describes me quite well but to really know my true natural side is when I am doing something I am passionate about but the easiest to judge is when I am gaming or playing sports. It's not that I play every time to win but it is more to doing the best I can. When playing FIFA with my friends, miss a goal I'll go berserk :P. During futsal, I get loud and got commented once that they never realised I could shout that loud so I guess it must have been loud XD.

Glad to have came across this video, at least I have some part of myself figured out =)

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Life is...

Life is actually pretty decent should we not go mess around with it and life throws things at you that you once thought has already been a closed chapter, without warning and sometimes the realisation will just hit you straight in the face. Near and far one may search but at times the answer just lie right in front of the seeker.

I'd always find that one those singing competition sort of television shows where the judges would ask things like 'whether did the singer had any imagery in helping him to deliver a particular song' as utter rubbish as maybe just for me, being an ultra single-tasker, I can only try to sing or think at one particular time and they are called performers for a reason which is what I chose to believe. But all that change, in a space of a dream like hour where I truly understood what the whole thing to 'performing for someone' means. I managed to fully complete a song which I had constant troubles over the years that I'd played it.

Maybe the imagery is more of a motivator rather than anything else for me, or maybe it is one of those self-fulfilling prophecies? I experienced it once a long time ago but this time is a little different and I can't really put a finger down as to how is it different. The thought of actually trying to play for someone important made me happy and from that joy I experience, I felt motivated and as they say, the rest is history. I nailed it =D.

Maybe it is also part of how I function? I am one of those who are dependent on mood, I hate being asked let alone forced to do something against my will. For instant, when I really do not feel like doing something as simple as sweeping the floor, no matter how dirty my room appear to be, I would not even move a muscle. While on the other extreme, when motivation comes knocking, I would invest my time wholly on it. Like now, my fingers are almost at the point of having blisters from playing the guitar. I play the instrument in an on and off fashion, which is why my fingers cannot last very long each time I play it but having that drive to play kept me playing and playing and playing which led to the current situation where I need to stop for a day or two =(.

Above are what I need to have a good time expressing myself, the guitar which is almost half my age is camera shy, that's why it is not in the shot XD.

Came across this phrase that a friend of mine posted on Facebook, meant quite a bit to me:


"Even though you have a boy/girlfriend, there is always one person who you turn to. Whether it is due to a bad day or to share a problem or maybe even just after a fight with the other half. At times, that person would even be the special one, second only to family members. That person does not necessary be of any special relationship with you but will always be there for you. Appreciate that person for you can be yourself around that person, whom you call a
'best friend'."

Life ain't too bad after all, for as long as we don't go mess around with it, life is pretty decent =)

P/S - Finally caught up with the 'a post a month' standard I set for myself, next one will come in September =DD

Friday, August 26, 2011

What are words to me?

Chris Medina once sang a song about his life, telling a story of the legitimacy of words or that's how I interpret it anyway. For me, I won't go into that as this is own view.

Words to me images in their written form. To fully understand a word, I need the help of visuals. It's just part of me I guess, and it is not until recently that I realised this as a lecturer of mine commented on my writing, stating that I am a very 'visual' guy. I understand a word by knowing what they symbolises or what actions they bring about. Which is why at times, I can follow each and every word of a certain song but when ask what the song is trying to say, I couldn't say anything about that because words in that context to me is just one of the elements which complements the musical piece in becoming a finished work of art.

Talking about lyrics, part of the reason why I do not really look much into lyrics nowadays is because songs, particularly in mainstream is mainly about hitting the club or what to do on the dance floor or how to drink in a club, coupled with an eardrum pounding beat which stays about the same throughout the song..You tell me what is there to appreciate about? Which is also why, in my opinion that there is a lot less 'epic' sounding pieces going around nowadays as compared to our yesteryear's. Just to name a few, Celine Dion, Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston were great vocalist that truly deliver a story the way it should be delivered, and of course, the mood helps too. Was listening to some oldies and it is shocking to see how far the mainstream musical industry has plummeted since the good ol' days.

Just a simple comparison, take the word 'baby' for example, the way Klaus Meine (Scorpions) delivered it was miles if not light years away from how JB can even dream of delivering (yea, it's not even worth my time typing out his name). In addition to the existence of the technology of auto-tuning, it's interesting to see how far can the industry falls.

Monday, August 22, 2011

One of those moments..

Sorry for the absence, the ship sunk but was recovered =).

This happens to me, most of the time if not ALL the time and was further backed by another friend of mine whom I just had the conversation with. It's regarding my musical taste....

For those who knows me, I listen to a wide range of music and the main stumbling block when people ask what is listen to is also at 'Metal'. As my friend, who is a Christian, would point out that the moment he mentioned metal, a girl friend of his immediately thought he was a Satan worshiper or some sort and asked for clarification that he is indeed a Christian.

Its like WTF?!?! There is a lot of different genre of metal, from black to power, folk, speed, progressive, trash and the list goes on and on. The term Metal, for most, is often associated with the trash or black Metal genre where they just look and sound angry. I agree, as I do not listen to trash metal as they really sometimes can be defined as 'noise'. Same goes to other type of genre of music as well in my opinion, there is punk (Green Day/Blink 182), alternative (Maroon 5) or pop (A LOT!) under Rock and there is good singers and bad singers (JB and RB...ring a bell).

One of the more common of reaction that I get from none Metal followers goes a little something like this 'You don't look like someone that likes Metal'. My reaction? =.=...As for other Metal followers, happens more among the girl(s) is that they find it as a pleasant surprise. I mean, what's wrong with liking a certain genre, field of interest or brand? If everyone liked the same thing then the world would be very dull, won't it? The more messed up reaction would have to be that they start to (jokingly) tease and stuff like that until another person who also has the same interest pops up, especially if that person is a girl, the comments just stop there and then..

I am a guitar player myself, and I appreciate good guitar players and they are mostly found among the metal bands. As for their choice of presentation of their vocals, screaming or growling doesn't necessarily mean all negative but from how I see it just complements the music nicely. Some may say that they don't understand what they are singing about and lyrics comes first and what not. But let me ask you this, the easiest example would be a certain Jay Chou, can you honestly tell me that you understand the whole song the first time listening to it? What sticks in your mind most? His words or melody? Another point would be I like and appreciate live performances, rather than those lip syncing or auto-tuned 'artists'. I do beg to differ to those who say Metal bands can't sing. Here is a few, try them out and then let me know if they can sing or not:-

Kamelot
Nightwish (during Tarja's time with the band)
Dream Theater
Galneryus (both new and previous vocalist)

A fitting ending note to this post, taken from 9gag.com:

(sorry the image's resolution is small, for better quality do visit the website =))


Thursday, May 26, 2011

I miss...

THIS


Feeling a bit nostalgic looking back, when I was still active in the competitive sports of tracks and field. I just miss everything about it, the ups, the downs, the thrills, the came from behind wins, the joy, the roar from the crowd, the wind blowing against your face so hard that its the only thing your ears can hear, the sheer out of body experience when I recall what was happening during the race. Now I'm just badly out of shape, two bad knees (one totally busted) and can actually feel I am not as fast as I was used to be. Well, back in the days, I wasn't really into the net thus not knowing there is so much I can learn from youtube...another 'what if's in my life...

"What if I knew how to better train myself to go faster?"

Guess I'll never know..

Saturday, April 30, 2011

The end of April

The boat stays afloat for another month running. Had a long post previously so gonna keep it short and sweet this time.

Well, over the period between the last post and this post, some things have changed while others remained the same. Like it or not, life goes on and so do I..I guess??

Sunday, March 27, 2011

I have my moments as well

For some reason, a memory came across my mind and I feel like sharing it here. Its about my childhood..Some events I remember while some is told by my mom, for instance getting into countless of fits, got inflected with the Hand Foot Mouth Disease and finally falling into a collection of durians on the floor (if not mistaken pushed by my brother when we were young XD). While there is always the mystery to how did I learn my English?? As for the ones that I do remember, are that my whole palm got burnt by grabbing onto a red hot metal bar (maybe will share that story some other time) and the most memorable for me is to walk for approximately 8 hours from school back to my house in Brunei when I was around 6, as I clearly remember I was still in kindergarten then.

When I was that age, I was very small, skinny, relatively short although taller that most of my peers, why do I mention these, you'll see in a moment. The way I travel to school is by some sort of a 'school bus' which had been fetching me for quite some time already, but this does not have the classic black and yellow paint, just how a normal Toyota Unser would look like back in the days, it was called 'Kijang' back then. Due to my size, I was always placed in the small area, right behind the hand-brake, facing backward so at most I could see was some knees in front of me. I was always the last to come on-board, last to get home as well as my house was the nearest to school compared to the others on the same ride.

I was also in the morning session, so class ends around noon. It seemed like another fine day, I waited at the same spot I'd waited every single day and I do not remember being late as well. I place my back down but just seem to locate a fellow member of the same ride home. I waited a little while longer then decided to walk towards where the car is normally parked at (we were told to wait for the driver to come get us as we were still young then) but could not seem to find the car as well. I did not quite remember the part that followed but I think I went back to my waiting spot, waited for some time till I was literally the only one left. Out of the blues, I was on my way, to one of the most memorable walk of my life. **Looking back now, It would have been so much easier to go look for a teacher for help....but hey, I was 6 :p**

Remember I said my house was pretty near to school? Imagine this, make a right turn from the main entrance follow along the road and less than a 10 minutes drive and I'll be home but instead, I took a left turn. Why? Well, it is because that was how the driver went about dropping each and one of us every-single-day. **My mom asked me some years after the incident how did I manage to find my way home, I could not answer her until today** The way I walked, it's quite funny now but got to remind you that I was 6 then, was literally by-the-books if I may, just in this case, by-each-and-every-single-turn-stops-etc-made-by-the-driver-. If the driver ever made a U-turn somewhere, I would walk to the exact spot, make the U-turn and continue on. **No short cuts ya'll XDD**

That was roughly how I got started, I even saw some of the ones on the same car along the way in their homes and they saw me too, but it never crossed my mind to ask them for help :p. It was not until I made my way up a flyover, the first car that stopped for me happened then. I guess it quite a sight to see a kid, carrying a bag larger that himself walking on a flyover in the middle of the day. I remember it was a Malay couple, would like to believe they were married as they looked to be around their 30s. They pulled up in front of me, the lady opened the door, but instead of waiting for them, I walked towards the driver's side, walked passed the car then continued on, the car never stopped for a second time. I guess the advice to not speak to stranger was really stuck in my mind.

Obviously I carried on, I cannot remember all the details but just some moments left in my mind. It was somewhere about 3-ish maybe 4 some sort of a mid-point of the journey. Cars were just zooming past my right and none stopped for me since the first couple. I remember that I began to cry and was mumbling to myself that "I wanna go home" repeatedly. Was it fear, or fatigue or maybe it was something else completely, I would not know as I cannot remember how I felt at that that, just remembered I started crying then.

Maybe another hour passed, I reached the symbolic mosque in Brunei where the roof is made from gold which also means I was near to my home (the mosque area was at best 20 minutes away from the previous area that I mentioned given the speed that I walk now). It was during this time, a policeman, in a private car slowed down and just crawl right beside me. He was showing his badge and stuff from the driver seat and I paid no attention to him as well, partly because that I did not understand the Malay Language well, even until today. Things then got a bit hairy as he got out of his car and grab me by the arm and I did struggled but just could not do anything, and I never spoken a word to anybody.

Then out of nowhere, a Chinese man arrived along with his son from secondary school, I guess just finished the afternoon session so it should be around 6 or 7 then. I do not remember when or how the man appeared, but it seems as if he struck an agreement with the Malay policeman to just let me walk and they follow me along **Thinking back now, I sort of got some kind of an escort :D** The man's son was asking me on where is my house and all I did was point, not a word came out of my mouth.

Eventually, I made the final turn and began walking to my house, and just like in Hollywood XD, there was a light approaching me, I looked up and it turned out to be my dad. Even until this day, I still remember his reaction vividly. He jumped in his seat while jamming on his brakes. I do not remember what happened next, I cannot even remember how I got into my house! But, what was clear to me was the time in which I arrived at home, it was 9 p.m. Why of all things I remember was the time, its because "Popeye the Sailor Man" was showing at 8.30 p.m on Cartoon Network back then and I only managed to catch a glimpse of the ending. I also remember what I had for dinner, just some plain rice with soup. What happened after that, of the next day, I do not remember. Ever since that incident, my dad always fetches me home until I got a little older =).

After talking about it with my mom during my teenage years, I guess I am lucky just to be alive today as during that time in Brunei, there were many cases of missing child, mainly believed to be kidnapped or stuff like that. So yea, definitely counting my lucky stars. This is one memory that I would never forget, know after writing it down, I guess I never will forget it =).

Monday, February 28, 2011

Life just have to go on...

A couple of weeks ago, we beat Barcelona 2-1, we were all ecstatic, all was good.


We just lost the Carling Cup final to Birmingham City, also 2-1....Gutted...yes. Just not meant to be...

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Just for fun

Well, just to keep my blog a little bit more active, since it has been like me, passive for well over a month now. Yea, holidays is coming to an end, and finally something else to do besides staying at home playing...Well, another sign of me needing more outdoor time is that my thighs and lower back are killing me because I went for a jogging yesterday, signs are not good for me it seems..Oh well, for this post, just wanna share some pictures *I do not own any of the pictures below*


Bahamut, the legendary dragon, has always been my favourite mainly thanks to its cool design that games producers associate it with, and it always packs quite a strong punch which further add to its value.


*An example of Bahamut, not too sure from which game


*Another example of Bahamut, this is my personal favourite, from Final Fantasy VIII.


However, disaster can also be linked to it...

This piece of crap of a guitar above that a certain artist calls it his Bahamut...I was beyond words when I first found out that years ago that this existed. Well, don't get me wrong, I admire the artist but is this guitar all the nice until it gets his fan drooling and screaming over it??? Not that I know how good of the tone of the guitar is, but on it design alone...Please rename it!!! (well, I know that's not gonna happen anyways)

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Its November

A new month, but happenings around me are still pretty much the same. A few things to talk about this coming month though =)

First and foremost, guess most that knows me already know is that its the month that I was brought to this world. Most people would say I have a sad childhood, mainly because I don't celebrate my birthday unless someone ask me out. This is mainly because in my family, whenever there is a birthday of any of the family member, my parents will just take my brother and I out for a meal, no fancy stuff like presents or a cake. So yea, I guess that would kinda explain why I would normally just see it as another day. One of my friend once said this actually, "Why need to celebrate? Getting a year older, you want me to die faster is it?"..Make some sense actually XD. Well, not sounding so sad, I do like my birthday. I like the number combination =DD. Born in 1990, makes it easier for me to count how old am I since I can use it as year 0, works for me every time when I was younger. As for November, I just like the sound of the month and the number 11. Lastly, its 14, which is another number I like, divided by 2 is 7...you guessed it, another number I like XD.

Ok, enough of myself. Now, to a club I love, Arsenal Football Club, sadly November is a ULTRA bad month for the club, proven over the past few seasons. Last season, we were on a high but Robin van Persie, on top form was injured during a useless international friendly game on...November 14th...=(((((. The season pretty much stuttered from then on till the end. This season, we're gonna play 5 games in the league, and 2 in the Champion League. 3 big games while another 2 is which we are expected to win but there isn't any games where a team will definitely win anymore is there? The good thing this time around is that, we have big players coming back from injury or hitting some sort of form from the recovery. So, above all else, I just hope this November won't continue to curse the club like it has been doing over the past few years. We play Everton away on the 14th, I just hope for a good game and we enter December in a good shape...worst case scenario is having enough players to play..XD

Till then, signing out =)

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Practice Practice

As a starter, this has nothing to do with my studies at all XD. Well, I had a kareoke session with my classmates yesterday, had a great time and happen to stumble upon some Fish Leong's songs. Got hooked on instantly and went to a rampage in obtaining the songs and see whether can I manage her songs or not. Luckily for me, her keys are too high so I could still manage. Just that, for me, going to sing in a kareoke, many would find me weird, because I can only sing with the songs' audio on, if not i'll feel lost :P. Gotta share a video of her song here. What I meant by working on, is memorizing the lyrics, not the singing techniques, I only sing for my own leisure =D

梁靜茹 - 没有如果


如果我說 愛我沒有如果
錯過就過 你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當借口
那愛是不是有一點弱

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什么 還怕什么
快牽起我的手

有人說
世界上最遙遠的距離不是生與死
而是我就站在你面前
你卻不知道我愛你

我常說
如果人類連愛一個人都被自己綁住
那世界末日已來到
不需要等到地球毀滅掉的那天

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
錯過就過你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當借口
那愛是不是有一點弱

如果我說愛沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什么 還怕什么
快牽起我的手

*translation*
What if I said, there's no 'if' in loving me?
If you let the chance pass you by, then you won't have another. Would you be sad?
What if we were together for this reason? Would that be good enough?

What if I said, there's no 'if' in loving me? If you really love me, then take the risk and seize the chance.
What are you waiting for? Come and take my hand.

Someone once said, the greatest distance in the world is not life and death,
it's my standing in front of you, and your not knowing that I love you.

I always say, if mankind is held back by itself even in loving somebody,
then the world has already ended. No need to wait for the earth's destruction.

What if I said, there's no 'if' in loving me?
If you let the chance pass, you won't have another. Would that make you sad?
What if we were together for this reason? Would that be good enough?

What if I said, there's no 'if' in loving me? If you really love me, then take the risk and seize the chance.
What are you waiting for? Come and take my hand.

Don't be afraid to be happy.
Don't be afraid to lose me.
*Credit to www.jpopasia.com

Enjoy the video, its kinda cute XD

Sunday, September 19, 2010

*screaming out at the top of my lungs*

I think even doing what the title of this post for me actually helps much..How do you know nothing is going to happen in your favour? Well, allow me to share a bit of my experience over these few days.

- my personal life sucks and is messed up
- it started to rain heavily as soon as I wanted to head out to watch The Arsenal
- its a thunder storm and I hate lightning
- arrived to watch, but is surrounded by chimneys, my chest literally hurts now
- the start of the game, my team sucked
- we scored a freak goal but the process injured our captain (3 main attacking threats gone now)
- started to play better in the second half, until our all important anchor got sent off early
- finally got a penalty, but missed
- we lost 2 points as they equalized with literally the last kick of the game after a lucky break for them
- we drew, 4 points behind Chelsea now (since their opponents is Blackpool later which we trashed 6-0)
- add all these up....It really really hurts.

The only thing that I would be happy about is Nadal winning the U.S Open, he now has won all 4 grand slams, the youngest ever to complete such feat.

I am almost at my lowest point, so not going to write much. As for Sunday, I have a futsal game, with almost all around seems to be going against me, I just hope I come back the way I leave for the game.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Arsenal again

Hello! Been a while since I last wrote a football post, been getting the sticks that my blog is all about football but since now that I can't sleep, who cares, I write what I want.

So after 4 rounds of matches, we sitting behind a very strong looking Chelsea while having a little bit of space from 3rd place, MU. Ain't too bad and I hope it just gets better. Pretty much enjoyed the Bolton game which we won just now, and a thank here to Leni, along with Indra and Franklin who were there to not make me watch the game alone.

The new comers are doing pretty well but our more seniors players, as expected are already on the treatment table. The usual, Robin van Persie 4-6 weeks out, the one in good form Theo Walcott 4-6 weeks out as well and just now Diaby, a bad and high tackle just now and he ain't in good shape according to le Boss. So yea, a bitter sweet some may argue, and I don't think we'll have two of our more important players ready for Chelsea which will turn out to be a big loss because Chelsea just look so good that we'll need all our best 11 to compete with them. *fingers cross*

Well, the good thing from the game is that, the players who are fit are starting to find some sort of a rhythm which is good. Players like Cesc and especially Vela, scoring goals and getting assists. For now, my wish is to have big players injury free for major part of the season, the previous few that I mentioned, just get back fit and prevent from getting injured again, that's all I asked of you.

On a different note, Rafael Nadal is in the finals of the U.S Open for the first time, if he manage to go all the way, he'll become the youngest ever to complete the Grand Slam collections. U.S, not his strongest while its R-Fed's better courts, will be a major battle for Rafa if he is to come up against R-Fed. Come on Rafa!!!!

Friday, September 10, 2010

The tale of the three dances

What can I say, one of my all time favourite bands and my favourite song performed live by them. It just couldn't get any better than that. Please, this is not noise, very far from it in fact, this is how music should be defined as.

I love the music,
and I love the words as well,
enjoy =).

Dream Theater - Metropolis - Part I (The Miracle And The Sleeper)
Live, Score.

The smile of dawn arrived early May
She carried a gift from her home
The night shed a tear to tell her of fear
And of sorrow and pain
She'll never outgrow
Death is the first dance, eternal

There's no more freedom
The both of you will be
confined to this mind
I was told there's a miracle for each day that I try
I was told there's a new love
that's born for each one that has died
I was told there'd be no one to
call on when I feel alone and afraid
I was told if you dream of the next world
You'll find yourself swimming in a lake of fire

As a child, I thought I could
live without pain without sorrow
As a man I've found it's all caught up with me
I'm asleep yet I'm so afraid

Somewhere like a scene from a memory
There's a picture worth a thousand words
Eluding stares from faces before me
It hides away and will never be heard of again
Deceit is the second without end

The city's cold blood teaches us to survive
Just keep my heart in your eyes and we'll stay alive
The third arrives...

Before the leaves have fallen
Before we lock the doors
There must be the third and last dance
This one will last forever
Metropolis watches and thoughtfully smiles
She's taken you to your home

It can only take place
When the struggle between
our children has ended
Now the Miracle and the
Sleeper know that the third is love
Love is the Dance of Eternity


Saturday, September 4, 2010

My 70th

I broke a promise...Was supposed to dedicate this particular post to Michelle during our anniversary but I guess its better to keep the memory in our mind =). As you can see, I am about 2 months overdue on this particular post. Haven't been able to find the motivation to write, and when the motivation does come, I got nothing to write about. Irony huh...

Well, now I am here writing, nothing much happened and now I am a 2nd year student and assignments are pilling up already. Although the subjects this time around are not as heavy as the previous semester's but the workload is almost like double compared to the previous semester...Oh well, just need to get them my all and hope what I have given is enough to make me a happier guy in the future as I barely made it through last semester in one piece, a weeee bit too close for comfort there *phew*.

Life has been alright, nothing big happened. Just been to a few movies here and there, gained weight and my knee, or rather knees are kinda busted =(. So, futsal has been quite rarely for me nowadays BUT...hehe, yea there is a but here. I am at the process of forming a team of my own, with a few of my friends to play on a more regular basis because I am kinda tired playing in teams made from scratch and get our asses whooped by some other more regular teams. So yea, planning to make that happen and hope it does come true =).

During the past few days, have been talking with Michelle about our birthday this year. Our birthdays are just 4 days apart, and this year we can't celebrate on any of the exact days because of her exams schedule so we came up with a new date where we both are going to celebrate together. Just yesterday, Michelle already gotten me a very early birthday gift and I am loving it =). Won't be using it anytime soon yet I guess but you never know XD.

Till here this time, ain't too bad after so long out of the business don't you think ;). Will be back soon next time I hope...


Sunday, May 30, 2010

Selamat Ari Gawai

Back in my hometown, its a festive season now, thus they are having their holidays now while I am stuck here, facing my assignments...Oh well, just wanna have a shout out to all my friends who are celebrating, Selamat Ari Gawai!! Don't drink and drive yea XD.

A short one this time and I am at my 69th post, wanna save the 70th for a special occasion. Till next time ;).

Sunday, May 2, 2010

gLee


Thanks to a certain classmate of mine, Felicia, I got hooked onto the 'gLee' series. Well, the series appeals to me in the sense that I love music and a huge part of the story is about the music, the way the lyrics can seamlessly be incorporated into the story line or just a cool, innovation mashup of different songs. The downside however, although this can be expected, which is the songs performed in the series are pre-recorded however, it's amazing how fast the choreograph of each song is being made and performed. All in all, I would recommend to anyone who is willing to give it a shot. =)

On a different note, the series strikes me in another way which is that it help me realize how much I love music and sing. I am not a born singer, do not have appealing looks and do not possess a good voice to win the hearts of others...unlike a certain Justin Bieber (urgh!). I sing for my own leisure and for those who are close to me or just appreciate my effort, so yea, in a sense I do not sing for free XD.

Well, maybe its the environment that we Asians are brought up in comparison to the Westerners. Over there, they are very direct and open, helping each other along the way through constructive critics as for the situation here, its very different. It happens almost every time to almost everyone, as soon as someone starts to sing or perform in public, friends around would start to say things like 'My Grandma can dance better than you' or 'My dog sounds better than you'. So, I find the environment is kinda hard for an individual to grow, well how is one going to improve when his or her confidence and self-esteem hits rock bottom thanks to the people around them before they even start? For me, Michelle was always there, she encourages (forces) me to sing for her and I think she got the full package of what my voice can do. I can hit the high notes in Whitney Houstan's 'I Will Always Love You' during one of the visits to the kareoke. Maybe that's a one off, who knows? Just a thought of mine...

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Give her a break

Hmm, since I have not write anything regarding my 3rd semester being a university student, and now I do not really have anything to do so yea, I am writing it now ; ).

Well, there is only one place to begin, 5 subjects and all are killer subjects. To make matters worst, there is a year 2 subject brought forward to this semester (well, only years 2 subjects onward are taken into account in determining which class of honors I graduate with) and that particular subject is none other than Business Law...Heard all I could from my ACCA friends about how hard it can be, so not actually looking forward to it and more so when it is in a semester this packed. Well, as for now, I think the subject is not that bad...YET, with assignments coming thick and fast, doubt I can stay sane for much longer unless I ditch my older self and start getting some work done.

The other 4 consist of Management, Accounting, Economics and Statistics. Well, I gotta say that I am faring quite well with these 4 subjects after the struggles I had back in CIMP especially with Accounting and Economics. As for accounting, I think I am doing pretty well at the moment, because I got my CIMP lecturer teaching us this time around, so doing pretty much the same thing but the second half would be a different ball game as it requires more analytical skills, which is not my strongest. For economics, I struggled the most during CIMP but now I guessed its worth it as now, the lecturer may not possess the best of pronunciation in the English language, which I think kinda affected how she wants to explain her points. Understanding may be tough, but I always say this to myself 'Give her a break', which is what I hope the few hundreds would also try as its not easy to stand up front, while the audience just can't wait to laugh at you, I had that experience so I guess I can understand how she would feel. Well, I do my part for paying attention...well, my parents pay for me to learn, not laugh at lecturers...

Statistics, what can I say..I think my batch did not get the best of starts with this subject with our Computing lecturer casting a daunting shadow over it during my first semester. Turns out that, it is still quite manageable and this would really required A LOT of practice to do well in it. Lastly, my favourite Management. Back in CIMP, same in Lancaster. Taught by Mr.Shannon, our philosophy lecturer last semester and I enjoy his classes and hope I can do well as it would be a tough paper to write during the exams...

Well, that was how my 3 weeks into my 3rd semester appear to be, hope the better stuff are yet to come and looking forward in getting through with this semester, not failing any papers...HORRAH!!! ; )

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Looking Ahead

Well, council is coming up. I am placed in a position I am not familiar with but I'll try my best to cope while giving my all. Just hope all things go well for this term.

A short one this time, ending with a quote.

“My country did not send me 7,000 miles to start the race. They sent me 7,000 miles to finish it.” [Wes Thompson]

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