Teh's Tales

Getting a hang of things

2011-09-01T17:00:00.003+08:00

*My first translation went Ga-Ga so I just deleted it...heartbroken over it =((*

Hello! I'm back with my second attempt at translating. This is a song, which I knew for quite some time but only recently that I paid some serious attention to it. I enjoy singing and listening to it and I hope it does the same for you as well =). This song is basically about expressing the longing-ness towards someone that is important to you, be it family members, lovers, friends or maybe even to those who are not around anymore. As for the music video, it portraits a story between two lovers.

Note: A dear friend of a close friend of mine left this world last year, and I think a full 365 days just passed not long ago. Although I do not know her but I hope the other side is more forgiving the what we are having here..

(I'm)

*Most afraid of the sudden stillness in the air

Most afraid of a friend's sudden concern

Most afraid of an unexpected memory tossing about painfully

Most afraid of suddenly hearing about You

Should my longing has its voice

May it not be of a sorrowful cry

As it is,

I finally made myself owning myself

All that's left is tears, which I could never fool myself with

(chorus)

A sudden longing of You

Where could you be?

Are you happy or aggrieved?

A sudden longing of You

The pierce of an unexpected memory

The sudden blurring eyes

We were like the most stunning of songs

Turned into two sorrowful tales

Why did you,

Led me on my most unforgettable journey

And yet, left me with the most painful of souvenir

Our

Sweet,

Beautiful,

Trusting,

Crazy,

and such passionate 'past'

Why do we,

Still have to run towards our own separate happiness

Growing with our regrets

Repeat chorus

Repeat *

Most afraid of finally decided on living on my own

Without you and yet

Suddenly hearing of you, once more...

Persona

2011-08-30T05:12:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep and I can't wait until September to write my next post. Been burning with a desire to write nowadays. I am going to write something on an aspect of me which I mentioned a few times before but this time, I think I understand that side of me better with the help of the video below:

After watching it the first time, it's like getting slapped in the face and then only come into realisation that, what he is talking about is actually a big part of what and who I am. He talked about 'perfect people' and started off by saying who people under this category showcase their love which I kinda disagree as I do not think I am like that :P. Moving on..

Next, he touched on the point of the misconception between a control freak and a perfect person. I find some relevance in here as well, because looking back, I have been very particular with how certain things should be, be it with my friends or sometimes with my family or just how I arrange my laundry. Some may have cursed within themselves at me for being such a hard head or control freak but truth is, I am not and never even had the intention of being controlling, a better term used by the speaker was that people like me are always on the hunt of getting things 'right', but getting things right is very subjective and our 'right' may not be your 'right', so there you go.

The speaker then pointed out with an example of the furniture on the Titanic which I find a bit exaggerating but still funny nonetheless, an example of me being in such state would be when I am driving. I am nutter when it comes to the law, if I am given an option, I prefer not to make an illegal U-Turn and make an extra 5 minutes drive to make a legal one, call me dumb but that's how I am...and I will wait at traffic lights during the early hours of the day even when they are no one around...I do not stick to a certain manual nor do I have a religion, I just mainly stick to my principles as they give me a certain closure..which brings us to the next point.

Sensitivity, it is what really set us apart from being a total control maniac. After watching the video, I was able to answer some of the question that even I ask myself at times. This may drag on a while..

I have always see myself as an emotional guy, but now I find a better word for that, which is sensitive. I feel on a level, at times too strong for my own good. Tell me a thing once, if it strikes me hard enough, I will remember the excruciating detail of it until the day I die. Simple example? If you have ever been a passenger when I drive, you would realise that I will have some troubles determining whether or not I have lock the door of the car. Why is this? Because I forgot it once, just once, and my brother reminded me the next morning that the car was in the porch, unlocked. Just that once, even I am tired with myself at times that I have to check for numerous times to ensure that the car door is locked. Even with it lock right in front of my eyes, at times I would still question myself just to be sure of the already certain fact..

"What they want is people to be sensitive to their feelings'', is what he said and is what I would agree. Based on this sentence alone, memories flashed before me and now I see them from a differ perspective that helps me understand myself better.

I never seen it this way but for most of the things I have done for the people around me, especially for my friends is that I believe in karma and I hope that I can be treat the same as how I treat them..However, that is not to be most of the time, as I put my friends before me and without questions, should they need my help I will try to help. Why? I called myself an idiot many times before this, asking why am I constantly willing to help when they most probably would not be around should I am in need to help or just a simple companionship.

Another example would be why my primary persona is a quiet, shy and soft-spoken type of guy? In my primary school years, my mom always said that I resembles a tiger at home as I was loud and naughty but at school, I resembles a sick kitten instead. Many times have I tried to speak up, and many times I was either ignored or laughed at as kids can be quiet mean without them actually knowing it. I had trouble understanding my emotions but now I guess I was hurt back then. I think since then, I have been more of a listener rather than a speaker and only those whom I grew up with during my teenage years would really know the real me looks and acts =).

Sticking to my primary school years, although this is not related with the mentioned topic but it can help you to see how I function, the incident that I can remember was during an English class, if I may say this, I was a little better in the language as compared to my peers when I was young and the teacher knew me quite well. It was during one of those spelling exercises done in class, it was one of those words in plural where a 'Y' is replaced with an 'ies' sort of word like 'fly - flies'. I think I made a simple but stupid error of spelling it as 'flys' and as the teacher circled the class, she noticed what I wrote and gave me a hint that I made a mistake, try as I may but I just could not spot it. After realising that I did not manage to correct myself, the teacher asked the whole class to start spelling the word out, and when the first alphabet was spelled out only I realised my mistake but I think that further infuriated her and she lost it a little, scolded me a little and called me stupid with her index finger pointing at me. I was stunned and ashamed but all I did was just to change the word. The lesson after was history and was taught by the teacher in charged of my class, I do not know how but a classmate of mine actually told her what happened and she came over to me, I think my expression was so pitiful that she started to ask was I alright, but then, without a word, I cried and I was around 10 or 11 that year. It's just me, the more people cared about me, the more vulnerable I get.

I do not think many would realise this but I am not fond of insects, creepy crawlies or any sort of surprises by them. Why? I guess I must have upset something with my birth given how much I went through before the age of 7...hehe, I was hit in the eye my a flying beetle when I was playing with my neighbour. And why I dislike cats so much is that I was bit, jumped on plus being ticklish did not help as well XD.

But as I get older, I realise I do not take rejections, set backs or stuff along those lines very well. When rejected or facing set backs, I blame myself first before anything for not being up to par. Which is why I can never see myself and to approach a stranger and start talking, more so if the person is a girl. I have always envy those people who can just go up to anybody and get a friendly reception and I still envy them today...

This post is named persona because I recently just changed my profile information. A simple sentence that describes me quite well but to really know my true natural side is when I am doing something I am passionate about but the easiest to judge is when I am gaming or playing sports. It's not that I play every time to win but it is more to doing the best I can. When playing FIFA with my friends, miss a goal I'll go berserk :P. During futsal, I get loud and got commented once that they never realised I could shout that loud so I guess it must have been loud XD.

Glad to have came across this video, at least I have some part of myself figured out =)

Life is...

2011-08-27T13:38:00.002+08:00

Life is actually pretty decent should we not go mess around with it and life throws things at you that you once thought has already been a closed chapter, without warning and sometimes the realisation will just hit you straight in the face. Near and far one may search but at times the answer just lie right in front of the seeker.

I'd always find that one those singing competition sort of television shows where the judges would ask things like 'whether did the singer had any imagery in helping him to deliver a particular song' as utter rubbish as maybe just for me, being an ultra single-tasker, I can only try to sing or think at one particular time and they are called performers for a reason which is what I chose to believe. But all that change, in a space of a dream like hour where I truly understood what the whole thing to 'performing for someone' means. I managed to fully complete a song which I had constant troubles over the years that I'd played it.

Maybe the imagery is more of a motivator rather than anything else for me, or maybe it is one of those self-fulfilling prophecies? I experienced it once a long time ago but this time is a little different and I can't really put a finger down as to how is it different. The thought of actually trying to play for someone important made me happy and from that joy I experience, I felt motivated and as they say, the rest is history. I nailed it =D.

Maybe it is also part of how I function? I am one of those who are dependent on mood, I hate being asked let alone forced to do something against my will. For instant, when I really do not feel like doing something as simple as sweeping the floor, no matter how dirty my room appear to be, I would not even move a muscle. While on the other extreme, when motivation comes knocking, I would invest my time wholly on it. Like now, my fingers are almost at the point of having blisters from playing the guitar. I play the instrument in an on and off fashion, which is why my fingers cannot last very long each time I play it but having that drive to play kept me playing and playing and playing which led to the current situation where I need to stop for a day or two =(.

Above are what I need to have a good time expressing myself, the guitar which is almost half my age is camera shy, that's why it is not in the shot XD.

Came across this phrase that a friend of mine posted on Facebook, meant quite a bit to me:

"Even though you have a boy/girlfriend, there is always one person who you turn to. Whether it is due to a bad day or to share a problem or maybe even just after a fight with the other half. At times, that person would even be the special one, second only to family members. That person does not necessary be of any special relationship with you but will always be there for you. Appreciate that person for you can be yourself around that person, whom you call a

'best friend'."

Life ain't too bad after all, for as long as we don't go mess around with it, life is pretty decent =)

P/S - Finally caught up with the 'a post a month' standard I set for myself, next one will come in September =DD

What are words to me?

2011-08-26T14:35:00.002+08:00

Chris Medina once sang a song about his life, telling a story of the legitimacy of words or that's how I interpret it anyway. For me, I won't go into that as this is own view.

Words to me images in their written form. To fully understand a word, I need the help of visuals. It's just part of me I guess, and it is not until recently that I realised this as a lecturer of mine commented on my writing, stating that I am a very 'visual' guy. I understand a word by knowing what they symbolises or what actions they bring about. Which is why at times, I can follow each and every word of a certain song but when ask what the song is trying to say, I couldn't say anything about that because words in that context to me is just one of the elements which complements the musical piece in becoming a finished work of art.

Talking about lyrics, part of the reason why I do not really look much into lyrics nowadays is because songs, particularly in mainstream is mainly about hitting the club or what to do on the dance floor or how to drink in a club, coupled with an eardrum pounding beat which stays about the same throughout the song..You tell me what is there to appreciate about? Which is also why, in my opinion that there is a lot less 'epic' sounding pieces going around nowadays as compared to our yesteryear's. Just to name a few, Celine Dion, Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston were great vocalist that truly deliver a story the way it should be delivered, and of course, the mood helps too. Was listening to some oldies and it is shocking to see how far the mainstream musical industry has plummeted since the good ol' days.

Just a simple comparison, take the word 'baby' for example, the way Klaus Meine (Scorpions) delivered it was miles if not light years away from how JB can even dream of delivering (yea, it's not even worth my time typing out his name). In addition to the existence of the technology of auto-tuning, it's interesting to see how far can the industry falls.

One of those moments..

2011-08-22T00:56:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the absence, the ship sunk but was recovered =).

This happens to me, most of the time if not ALL the time and was further backed by another friend of mine whom I just had the conversation with. It's regarding my musical taste....

For those who knows me, I listen to a wide range of music and the main stumbling block when people ask what is listen to is also at 'Metal'. As my friend, who is a Christian, would point out that the moment he mentioned metal, a girl friend of his immediately thought he was a Satan worshiper or some sort and asked for clarification that he is indeed a Christian.

Its like WTF?!?! There is a lot of different genre of metal, from black to power, folk, speed, progressive, trash and the list goes on and on. The term Metal, for most, is often associated with the trash or black Metal genre where they just look and sound angry. I agree, as I do not listen to trash metal as they really sometimes can be defined as 'noise'. Same goes to other type of genre of music as well in my opinion, there is punk (Green Day/Blink 182), alternative (Maroon 5) or pop (A LOT!) under Rock and there is good singers and bad singers (JB and RB...ring a bell).

One of the more common of reaction that I get from none Metal followers goes a little something like this 'You don't look like someone that likes Metal'. My reaction? =.=...As for other Metal followers, happens more among the girl(s) is that they find it as a pleasant surprise. I mean, what's wrong with liking a certain genre, field of interest or brand? If everyone liked the same thing then the world would be very dull, won't it? The more messed up reaction would have to be that they start to (jokingly) tease and stuff like that until another person who also has the same interest pops up, especially if that person is a girl, the comments just stop there and then..

I am a guitar player myself, and I appreciate good guitar players and they are mostly found among the metal bands. As for their choice of presentation of their vocals, screaming or growling doesn't necessarily mean all negative but from how I see it just complements the music nicely. Some may say that they don't understand what they are singing about and lyrics comes first and what not. But let me ask you this, the easiest example would be a certain Jay Chou, can you honestly tell me that you understand the whole song the first time listening to it? What sticks in your mind most? His words or melody? Another point would be I like and appreciate live performances, rather than those lip syncing or auto-tuned 'artists'. I do beg to differ to those who say Metal bands can't sing. Here is a few, try them out and then let me know if they can sing or not:-

Kamelot

Nightwish (during Tarja's time with the band)

Dream Theater

Galneryus (both new and previous vocalist)

A fitting ending note to this post, taken from 9gag.com:

(sorry the image's resolution is small, for better quality do visit the website =))

I miss...

2011-05-26T00:08:00.006+08:00

THIS

Feeling a bit nostalgic looking back, when I was still active in the competitive sports of tracks and field. I just miss everything about it, the ups, the downs, the thrills, the came from behind wins, the joy, the roar from the crowd, the wind blowing against your face so hard that its the only thing your ears can hear, the sheer out of body experience when I recall what was happening during the race. Now I'm just badly out of shape, two bad knees (one totally busted) and can actually feel I am not as fast as I was used to be. Well, back in the days, I wasn't really into the net thus not knowing there is so much I can learn from youtube...another 'what if's in my life...

"What if I knew how to better train myself to go faster?"

Guess I'll never know..

The end of April

2011-04-30T23:37:00.001+08:00

The boat stays afloat for another month running. Had a long post previously so gonna keep it short and sweet this time.

Well, over the period between the last post and this post, some things have changed while others remained the same. Like it or not, life goes on and so do I..I guess??

I have my moments as well

2011-03-27T06:24:00.002+08:00

For some reason, a memory came across my mind and I feel like sharing it here. Its about my childhood..Some events I remember while some is told by my mom, for instance getting into countless of fits, got inflected with the Hand Foot Mouth Disease and finally falling into a collection of durians on the floor (if not mistaken pushed by my brother when we were young XD). While there is always the mystery to how did I learn my English?? As for the ones that I do remember, are that my whole palm got burnt by grabbing onto a red hot metal bar (maybe will share that story some other time) and the most memorable for me is to walk for approximately 8 hours from school back to my house in Brunei when I was around 6, as I clearly remember I was still in kindergarten then.

When I was that age, I was very small, skinny, relatively short although taller that most of my peers, why do I mention these, you'll see in a moment. The way I travel to school is by some sort of a 'school bus' which had been fetching me for quite some time already, but this does not have the classic black and yellow paint, just how a normal Toyota Unser would look like back in the days, it was called 'Kijang' back then. Due to my size, I was always placed in the small area, right behind the hand-brake, facing backward so at most I could see was some knees in front of me. I was always the last to come on-board, last to get home as well as my house was the nearest to school compared to the others on the same ride.

I was also in the morning session, so class ends around noon. It seemed like another fine day, I waited at the same spot I'd waited every single day and I do not remember being late as well. I place my back down but just seem to locate a fellow member of the same ride home. I waited a little while longer then decided to walk towards where the car is normally parked at (we were told to wait for the driver to come get us as we were still young then) but could not seem to find the car as well. I did not quite remember the part that followed but I think I went back to my waiting spot, waited for some time till I was literally the only one left. Out of the blues, I was on my way, to one of the most memorable walk of my life. **Looking back now, It would have been so much easier to go look for a teacher for help....but hey, I was 6 :p**

Remember I said my house was pretty near to school? Imagine this, make a right turn from the main entrance follow along the road and less than a 10 minutes drive and I'll be home but instead, I took a left turn. Why? Well, it is because that was how the driver went about dropping each and one of us every-single-day. **My mom asked me some years after the incident how did I manage to find my way home, I could not answer her until today** The way I walked, it's quite funny now but got to remind you that I was 6 then, was literally by-the-books if I may, just in this case, by-each-and-every-single-turn-stops-etc-made-by-the-driver-. If the driver ever made a U-turn somewhere, I would walk to the exact spot, make the U-turn and continue on. **No short cuts ya'll XDD**

That was roughly how I got started, I even saw some of the ones on the same car along the way in their homes and they saw me too, but it never crossed my mind to ask them for help :p. It was not until I made my way up a flyover, the first car that stopped for me happened then. I guess it quite a sight to see a kid, carrying a bag larger that himself walking on a flyover in the middle of the day. I remember it was a Malay couple, would like to believe they were married as they looked to be around their 30s. They pulled up in front of me, the lady opened the door, but instead of waiting for them, I walked towards the driver's side, walked passed the car then continued on, the car never stopped for a second time. I guess the advice to not speak to stranger was really stuck in my mind.

Obviously I carried on, I cannot remember all the details but just some moments left in my mind. It was somewhere about 3-ish maybe 4 some sort of a mid-point of the journey. Cars were just zooming past my right and none stopped for me since the first couple. I remember that I began to cry and was mumbling to myself that "I wanna go home" repeatedly. Was it fear, or fatigue or maybe it was something else completely, I would not know as I cannot remember how I felt at that that, just remembered I started crying then.

Maybe another hour passed, I reached the symbolic mosque in Brunei where the roof is made from gold which also means I was near to my home (the mosque area was at best 20 minutes away from the previous area that I mentioned given the speed that I walk now). It was during this time, a policeman, in a private car slowed down and just crawl right beside me. He was showing his badge and stuff from the driver seat and I paid no attention to him as well, partly because that I did not understand the Malay Language well, even until today. Things then got a bit hairy as he got out of his car and grab me by the arm and I did struggled but just could not do anything, and I never spoken a word to anybody.

Then out of nowhere, a Chinese man arrived along with his son from secondary school, I guess just finished the afternoon session so it should be around 6 or 7 then. I do not remember when or how the man appeared, but it seems as if he struck an agreement with the Malay policeman to just let me walk and they follow me along **Thinking back now, I sort of got some kind of an escort :D** The man's son was asking me on where is my house and all I did was point, not a word came out of my mouth.

Eventually, I made the final turn and began walking to my house, and just like in Hollywood XD, there was a light approaching me, I looked up and it turned out to be my dad. Even until this day, I still remember his reaction vividly. He jumped in his seat while jamming on his brakes. I do not remember what happened next, I cannot even remember how I got into my house! But, what was clear to me was the time in which I arrived at home, it was 9 p.m. Why of all things I remember was the time, its because "Popeye the Sailor Man" was showing at 8.30 p.m on Cartoon Network back then and I only managed to catch a glimpse of the ending. I also remember what I had for dinner, just some plain rice with soup. What happened after that, of the next day, I do not remember. Ever since that incident, my dad always fetches me home until I got a little older =).

After talking about it with my mom during my teenage years, I guess I am lucky just to be alive today as during that time in Brunei, there were many cases of missing child, mainly believed to be kidnapped or stuff like that. So yea, definitely counting my lucky stars. This is one memory that I would never forget, know after writing it down, I guess I never will forget it =).

Life just have to go on...

2011-02-28T02:49:00.002+08:00

A couple of weeks ago, we beat Barcelona 2-1, we were all ecstatic, all was good.

We just lost the Carling Cup final to Birmingham City, also 2-1....Gutted...yes. Just not meant to be...

Just for fun

2011-01-16T21:02:00.007+08:00

Well, just to keep my blog a little bit more active, since it has been like me, passive for well over a month now. Yea, holidays is coming to an end, and finally something else to do besides staying at home playing...Well, another sign of me needing more outdoor time is that my thighs and lower back are killing me because I went for a jogging yesterday, signs are not good for me it seems..Oh well, for this post, just wanna share some pictures *I do not own any of the pictures below*

Bahamut, the legendary dragon, has always been my favourite mainly thanks to its cool design that games producers associate it with, and it always packs quite a strong punch which further add to its value.

*An example of Bahamut, not too sure from which game

*Another example of Bahamut, this is my personal favourite, from Final Fantasy VIII.

However, disaster can also be linked to it...

This piece of crap of a guitar above that a certain artist calls it his Bahamut...I was beyond words when I first found out that years ago that this existed. Well, don't get me wrong, I admire the artist but is this guitar all the nice until it gets his fan drooling and screaming over it??? Not that I know how good of the tone of the guitar is, but on it design alone...Please rename it!!! (well, I know that's not gonna happen anyways)

Its November

2010-11-02T16:38:00.003+08:00

A new month, but happenings around me are still pretty much the same. A few things to talk about this coming month though =)

First and foremost, guess most that knows me already know is that its the month that I was brought to this world. Most people would say I have a sad childhood, mainly because I don't celebrate my birthday unless someone ask me out. This is mainly because in my family, whenever there is a birthday of any of the family member, my parents will just take my brother and I out for a meal, no fancy stuff like presents or a cake. So yea, I guess that would kinda explain why I would normally just see it as another day. One of my friend once said this actually, "Why need to celebrate? Getting a year older, you want me to die faster is it?"..Make some sense actually XD. Well, not sounding so sad, I do like my birthday. I like the number combination =DD. Born in 1990, makes it easier for me to count how old am I since I can use it as year 0, works for me every time when I was younger. As for November, I just like the sound of the month and the number 11. Lastly, its 14, which is another number I like, divided by 2 is 7...you guessed it, another number I like XD.

Ok, enough of myself. Now, to a club I love, Arsenal Football Club, sadly November is a ULTRA bad month for the club, proven over the past few seasons. Last season, we were on a high but Robin van Persie, on top form was injured during a useless international friendly game on...November 14th...=(((((. The season pretty much stuttered from then on till the end. This season, we're gonna play 5 games in the league, and 2 in the Champion League. 3 big games while another 2 is which we are expected to win but there isn't any games where a team will definitely win anymore is there? The good thing this time around is that, we have big players coming back from injury or hitting some sort of form from the recovery. So, above all else, I just hope this November won't continue to curse the club like it has been doing over the past few years. We play Everton away on the 14th, I just hope for a good game and we enter December in a good shape...worst case scenario is having enough players to play..XD

Till then, signing out =)

Practice Practice

2010-10-16T16:17:00.001+08:00

As a starter, this has nothing to do with my studies at all XD. Well, I had a kareoke session with my classmates yesterday, had a great time and happen to stumble upon some Fish Leong's songs. Got hooked on instantly and went to a rampage in obtaining the songs and see whether can I manage her songs or not. Luckily for me, her keys are too high so I could still manage. Just that, for me, going to sing in a kareoke, many would find me weird, because I can only sing with the songs' audio on, if not i'll feel lost :P. Gotta share a video of her song here. What I meant by working on, is memorizing the lyrics, not the singing techniques, I only sing for my own leisure =D

梁靜茹 - 没有如果

如果我說愛我沒有如果

錯過就過你是不是會難過

若如果拿來當借口

那愛是不是有一點弱

如果我說愛我沒有如果

真的愛我就放手一搏

還想什么還怕什么

快牽起我的手

有人說

世界上最遙遠的距離不是生與死

而是我就站在你面前

你卻不知道我愛你

我常說

如果人類連愛一個人都被自己綁住

那世界末日已來到

不需要等到地球毀滅掉的那天

如果我說愛我沒有如果

錯過就過你是不是會難過

若如果拿來當借口

那愛是不是有一點弱

如果我說愛沒有如果

真的愛我就放手一搏

還想什么還怕什么

快牽起我的手

*translation*

What if I said, there's no 'if' in loving me?
If you let the chance pass you by, then you won't have another. Would you be sad?
What if we were together for this reason? Would that be good enough?

What if I said, there's no 'if' in loving me? If you really love me, then take the risk and seize the chance.
What are you waiting for? Come and take my hand.

Someone once said, the greatest distance in the world is not life and death,
it's my standing in front of you, and your not knowing that I love you.

I always say, if mankind is held back by itself even in loving somebody,
then the world has already ended. No need to wait for the earth's destruction.

What if I said, there's no 'if' in loving me?
If you let the chance pass, you won't have another. Would that make you sad?
What if we were together for this reason? Would that be good enough?

What if I said, there's no 'if' in loving me? If you really love me, then take the risk and seize the chance.
What are you waiting for? Come and take my hand.

Don't be afraid to be happy.
Don't be afraid to lose me.

*Credit to www.jpopasia.com

Enjoy the video, its kinda cute XD

screaming out at the top of my lungs

2010-09-19T02:48:00.003+08:00

I think even doing what the title of this post for me actually helps much..How do you know nothing is going to happen in your favour? Well, allow me to share a bit of my experience over these few days.

- my personal life sucks and is messed up

- it started to rain heavily as soon as I wanted to head out to watch The Arsenal

- its a thunder storm and I hate lightning

- arrived to watch, but is surrounded by chimneys, my chest literally hurts now

- the start of the game, my team sucked

- we scored a freak goal but the process injured our captain (3 main attacking threats gone now)

- started to play better in the second half, until our all important anchor got sent off early

- finally got a penalty, but missed

- we lost 2 points as they equalized with literally the last kick of the game after a lucky break for them

- we drew, 4 points behind Chelsea now (since their opponents is Blackpool later which we trashed 6-0)

- add all these up....It really really hurts.

The only thing that I would be happy about is Nadal winning the U.S Open, he now has won all 4 grand slams, the youngest ever to complete such feat.

I am almost at my lowest point, so not going to write much. As for Sunday, I have a futsal game, with almost all around seems to be going against me, I just hope I come back the way I leave for the game.

Arsenal again

2010-09-12T04:43:00.003+08:00

Hello! Been a while since I last wrote a football post, been getting the sticks that my blog is all about football but since now that I can't sleep, who cares, I write what I want.

So after 4 rounds of matches, we sitting behind a very strong looking Chelsea while having a little bit of space from 3rd place, MU. Ain't too bad and I hope it just gets better. Pretty much enjoyed the Bolton game which we won just now, and a thank here to Leni, along with Indra and Franklin who were there to not make me watch the game alone.

The new comers are doing pretty well but our more seniors players, as expected are already on the treatment table. The usual, Robin van Persie 4-6 weeks out, the one in good form Theo Walcott 4-6 weeks out as well and just now Diaby, a bad and high tackle just now and he ain't in good shape according to le Boss. So yea, a bitter sweet some may argue, and I don't think we'll have two of our more important players ready for Chelsea which will turn out to be a big loss because Chelsea just look so good that we'll need all our best 11 to compete with them. *fingers cross*

Well, the good thing from the game is that, the players who are fit are starting to find some sort of a rhythm which is good. Players like Cesc and especially Vela, scoring goals and getting assists. For now, my wish is to have big players injury free for major part of the season, the previous few that I mentioned, just get back fit and prevent from getting injured again, that's all I asked of you.

On a different note, Rafael Nadal is in the finals of the U.S Open for the first time, if he manage to go all the way, he'll become the youngest ever to complete the Grand Slam collections. U.S, not his strongest while its R-Fed's better courts, will be a major battle for Rafa if he is to come up against R-Fed. Come on Rafa!!!!

The tale of the three dances

2010-09-10T17:55:00.001+08:00

What can I say, one of my all time favourite bands and my favourite song performed live by them. It just couldn't get any better than that. Please, this is not noise, very far from it in fact, this is how music should be defined as.

I love the music,

and I love the words as well,

enjoy =).

Dream Theater - Metropolis - Part I (The Miracle And The Sleeper)

Live, Score.

The smile of dawn arrived early May

She carried a gift from her home

The night shed a tear to tell her of fear

And of sorrow and pain

She'll never outgrow

Death is the first dance, eternal

There's no more freedom

The both of you will be

confined to this mind

I was told there's a miracle for each day that I try

I was told there's a new love

that's born for each one that has died

I was told there'd be no one to

call on when I feel alone and afraid

I was told if you dream of the next world

You'll find yourself swimming in a lake of fire

As a child, I thought I could

live without pain without sorrow

As a man I've found it's all caught up with me

I'm asleep yet I'm so afraid

Somewhere like a scene from a memory

There's a picture worth a thousand words

Eluding stares from faces before me

It hides away and will never be heard of again

Deceit is the second without end

The city's cold blood teaches us to survive

Just keep my heart in your eyes and we'll stay alive

The third arrives...

Before the leaves have fallen

Before we lock the doors

There must be the third and last dance

This one will last forever

Metropolis watches and thoughtfully smiles

She's taken you to your home

It can only take place

When the struggle between

our children has ended

Now the Miracle and the

Sleeper know that the third is love

Love is the Dance of Eternity

My 70th

2010-09-04T17:49:00.003+08:00

I broke a promise...Was supposed to dedicate this particular post to Michelle during our anniversary but I guess its better to keep the memory in our mind =). As you can see, I am about 2 months overdue on this particular post. Haven't been able to find the motivation to write, and when the motivation does come, I got nothing to write about. Irony huh...

Well, now I am here writing, nothing much happened and now I am a 2nd year student and assignments are pilling up already. Although the subjects this time around are not as heavy as the previous semester's but the workload is almost like double compared to the previous semester...Oh well, just need to get them my all and hope what I have given is enough to make me a happier guy in the future as I barely made it through last semester in one piece, a weeee bit too close for comfort there *phew*.

Life has been alright, nothing big happened. Just been to a few movies here and there, gained weight and my knee, or rather knees are kinda busted =(. So, futsal has been quite rarely for me nowadays BUT...hehe, yea there is a but here. I am at the process of forming a team of my own, with a few of my friends to play on a more regular basis because I am kinda tired playing in teams made from scratch and get our asses whooped by some other more regular teams. So yea, planning to make that happen and hope it does come true =).

During the past few days, have been talking with Michelle about our birthday this year. Our birthdays are just 4 days apart, and this year we can't celebrate on any of the exact days because of her exams schedule so we came up with a new date where we both are going to celebrate together. Just yesterday, Michelle already gotten me a very early birthday gift and I am loving it =). Won't be using it anytime soon yet I guess but you never know XD.

Till here this time, ain't too bad after so long out of the business don't you think ;). Will be back soon next time I hope...

Selamat Ari Gawai

2010-05-30T15:02:00.002+08:00

Back in my hometown, its a festive season now, thus they are having their holidays now while I am stuck here, facing my assignments...Oh well, just wanna have a shout out to all my friends who are celebrating, Selamat Ari Gawai!! Don't drink and drive yea XD.

A short one this time and I am at my 69th post, wanna save the 70th for a special occasion. Till next time ;).

gLee

2010-05-02T02:11:00.003+08:00

Thanks to a certain classmate of mine, Felicia, I got hooked onto the 'gLee' series. Well, the series appeals to me in the sense that I love music and a huge part of the story is about the music, the way the lyrics can seamlessly be incorporated into the story line or just a cool, innovation mashup of different songs. The downside however, although this can be expected, which is the songs performed in the series are pre-recorded however, it's amazing how fast the choreograph of each song is being made and performed. All in all, I would recommend to anyone who is willing to give it a shot. =)

On a different note, the series strikes me in another way which is that it help me realize how much I love music and sing. I am not a born singer, do not have appealing looks and do not possess a good voice to win the hearts of others...unlike a certain Justin Bieber (urgh!). I sing for my own leisure and for those who are close to me or just appreciate my effort, so yea, in a sense I do not sing for free XD.

Well, maybe its the environment that we Asians are brought up in comparison to the Westerners. Over there, they are very direct and open, helping each other along the way through constructive critics as for the situation here, its very different. It happens almost every time to almost everyone, as soon as someone starts to sing or perform in public, friends around would start to say things like 'My Grandma can dance better than you' or 'My dog sounds better than you'. So, I find the environment is kinda hard for an individual to grow, well how is one going to improve when his or her confidence and self-esteem hits rock bottom thanks to the people around them before they even start? For me, Michelle was always there, she encourages (forces) me to sing for her and I think she got the full package of what my voice can do. I can hit the high notes in Whitney Houstan's 'I Will Always Love You' during one of the visits to the kareoke. Maybe that's a one off, who knows? Just a thought of mine...

Give her a break

2010-04-08T19:41:00.003+08:00

Hmm, since I have not write anything regarding my 3rd semester being a university student, and now I do not really have anything to do so yea, I am writing it now ; ).

Well, there is only one place to begin, 5 subjects and all are killer subjects. To make matters worst, there is a year 2 subject brought forward to this semester (well, only years 2 subjects onward are taken into account in determining which class of honors I graduate with) and that particular subject is none other than Business Law...Heard all I could from my ACCA friends about how hard it can be, so not actually looking forward to it and more so when it is in a semester this packed. Well, as for now, I think the subject is not that bad...YET, with assignments coming thick and fast, doubt I can stay sane for much longer unless I ditch my older self and start getting some work done.

The other 4 consist of Management, Accounting, Economics and Statistics. Well, I gotta say that I am faring quite well with these 4 subjects after the struggles I had back in CIMP especially with Accounting and Economics. As for accounting, I think I am doing pretty well at the moment, because I got my CIMP lecturer teaching us this time around, so doing pretty much the same thing but the second half would be a different ball game as it requires more analytical skills, which is not my strongest. For economics, I struggled the most during CIMP but now I guessed its worth it as now, the lecturer may not possess the best of pronunciation in the English language, which I think kinda affected how she wants to explain her points. Understanding may be tough, but I always say this to myself 'Give her a break', which is what I hope the few hundreds would also try as its not easy to stand up front, while the audience just can't wait to laugh at you, I had that experience so I guess I can understand how she would feel. Well, I do my part for paying attention...well, my parents pay for me to learn, not laugh at lecturers...

Statistics, what can I say..I think my batch did not get the best of starts with this subject with our Computing lecturer casting a daunting shadow over it during my first semester. Turns out that, it is still quite manageable and this would really required A LOT of practice to do well in it. Lastly, my favourite Management. Back in CIMP, same in Lancaster. Taught by Mr.Shannon, our philosophy lecturer last semester and I enjoy his classes and hope I can do well as it would be a tough paper to write during the exams...

Well, that was how my 3 weeks into my 3rd semester appear to be, hope the better stuff are yet to come and looking forward in getting through with this semester, not failing any papers...HORRAH!!! ; )

Looking Ahead

2010-03-28T22:54:00.001+08:00

Well, council is coming up. I am placed in a position I am not familiar with but I'll try my best to cope while giving my all. Just hope all things go well for this term.

A short one this time, ending with a quote.

“My country did not send me 7,000 miles to start the race. They sent me 7,000 miles to finish it.” [Wes Thompson]

All I wanna say is.....Thank You

2010-03-23T19:52:00.002+08:00

It may seem to be a just a simple word, where normally would be used by most if not all across the globe. A simple word of 'Thanks' regardless of what language it may be spoken in, but for this post, my thanks is given to 3 special person in my life aside from my immediate family members. Guess I wont need to name anyone, as you read on I think you'll know who I am referring to.

If you had been reading what I'd written so far, I do not think that you'll ever miss a post where I would mention about the life being in the 'Junior Leadership Program' a.k.a Juniors/Shits/Sluts. We started off by being 10 total strangers, ended up being closer than friends but the catch is this, although 9 of us was left standing in the end, we clicked almost instantly and the whole process is beyond any words or phrases that can explain. The simplest way to put it, in to words of John New would be "Its MAGIC!". I believe all 9 of us came out from it being extremely thankful of actually signing up for it and being accepted to be one of the pioneer leadership program, credit to Jason and Jack Shen, our beloved Dads.

The reward we got from it, its not just the lesson and experience gained by working together, being through the ups and downs but I would think its something we all share, which is friendship. In my opinion, a friendship so pure that I would say,on any given day and time, we would stand up for each other of us and fight. Well, that is what I'll do at least.

Being in a group, like it or not, little clicks then would be formed as maybe we just found it more comfortable being around each other. I was with two, who described me as a 'pressure cooker that finally got the rice cooked'. I was E-X-T-R-E-M-E-L-Y quiet, back then even I know that and the irony is that it only happens to me when I was around them. Not a good sign I know but how wrong could I be. Not only when the rice is cooked, they accepted me back with open arms rather than cold shoulders for being so anti-social all those while. I was a person, reborn and walking down a new path with them still by my side. If I would not have broke the shell, then I would not even meet Michelle, which is the third person that I mentioned above. She is important without a shadow of a doubt but now I would not be focusing on her.

The other two that I had mentioned, one is a friend, closer than most of the others that I got and one - although we may not look like one another, nor have the same parents - that I call my sister. They were the ones who accepted the once again functioning pressure rice cooker and also led me to the light which the product is the me of today. Although still shy, timid and not really talking a lot its already a few light years' distance away from how I was back then.

What I can take from the experience that I had in Juniors, aside from the fond memories we all share together, is this. The brand new me but I do not think I would ever reach a point that I would say I found myself as I think no one would be able to say that. I believe that the whole Juniors experience would mean more to me than to anyone else, not saying its not important to them but yea....you get the point. Which is why, my passion for the Student Council and the new batch-es of such Juniors programs is burning ever so strong. People may think that I am lifeless, being so committed to the Council just to get a piece of paper at the end of it. But trust me, I know what changes it can bring to an individual and lucky for me, its all the right changes.

Well, I think I am running around in circles with this post trying to say one simple thing but as how I started this post, its beyond any words or phrases but I tried. Hope it make some sense to you if you are reading this. Lastly, to the 3 of you, I do not know what else to say but for the simple word, which is..

....................
...................
..................
.................
................
...............
..............
.............
............
...........
..........
.........
........
.......
......
.....
...
..
.

THANKS!

Follow up on the previous post

2010-02-28T19:11:00.003+08:00

This is good to see. Thank you Fabregas:
- for setting up the first goal
- for having the nerves and step up to score the penalty after all that has happened
- for setting up the third goal
- for kicking players that kicked you
- for sssshhhh-ing Tony Pulis
- for rallying the players together

Lastly,
- for being an Arsenal player and captain

For Ramsey!

2010-02-28T03:58:00.005+08:00

Guess what, we traveled to Stoke, expected to have a tough match, we got one and dug deep to beat them. But, it came at an extremely heavy price, an injury to young Aaron Ramsey. It's not just a normal injury, it involved his lower shin left hanging. Can't imagine? Look up on Eduardo's injury on Google or any other sources on the net and you should have a better picture of what happened. Is it dejavu all over? Edu was injured in this fashion, we went on scoring twice but got a completely wrong penalty call against us which caused our season to go downhill until recently when we got going again. This time, we got the win as we're more mature, but what effect is it going to bring to the team? More so to the promising Aaron Ramsey?

The tackle was not as bad as the one on Edu, but the outcome was the same. The plus on this, it that the team got a player with similar experience so he could guide the young man. Ironic right? Such a horror experience can actually be a plus for the team. That speaks volume on how the team is being treated by other teams. 'Kick Arsenal to stop them' has to stop!!

On the league table, we cut the gap on the top to just 3, remember my previous post? See what I meant now? Its just a bitter sweet day, but Man City was the key this week, they tire Stoke in midweek, and beat Chelsea. It would be better if Ramsey did not get injured. Come on you Gunners, if there wasn't enough reasons to win the league, here is one more. For Ramsey!!!

UPDATED

I just decided to add a few images to this post, just to tell how the Arsenal players are being treated by other players and the media. The media even blame ourselves for getting injured as we play too fast and with quick feet...WTF!?!?!

*First, Diaby. Ankle injury, out for 9 months.

*Two years ago. Taylor on Edu, 9 months out. The contact, high, no attempts in playing the ball what-so-ever, pure assault.The tackle that cost us the title. For the outcome of this tackle, check it out yourself in both images and videos alike but prepare a strong tummy.

Lastly, as for Aaron Ramsey, I decided to upload the picture. Be prepare as it might be disturbing to some:-

*Just now. The aftermath of the tackle....Horrible. Full marks to Gleen Whelan (no.6), unlike other Stoke players and fans.

Hope you can recover and lay your grace on the pitch in the future. Go Gunners!!!

Here is a link to an article that I find sums up everything for the Arsenal. Click here.
As for the blog itself for previous and future post, click here.

Being random

2010-02-09T16:00:00.003+08:00

Came across this site, the oatmeal, at Leni's blog and decided to share a joke I came across, well if you want more just visit the site and her blog (once again, echo-ing from my previous post, click on the ads if they appear yea)

Here goes :-

What did the elder chimney say to the younger chimney?

..........

.........

........

.......

......

.....
....
...
..
.

You're too young to smoke!

..., I know. But hope you find it as lame and interesting as I did.

-out-

Shitty feeling

2010-02-09T15:33:00.002+08:00

Just got back from college, and the title of this tale is just how I am feeling at the moment. Although there had been good and bad things that happened today, the good happened and finished, the bad is still lingering around me.

Ok, I am suffering from insomnia, not everyday, but its still quite frequent so its really messing with me both physically and mentally. I can't stay awake in class for more than 20 minutes, not that the class is bored, I enjoy class but I just could not stay up! GET SOME SLEEP TAT YANG!...So, I spent the whole night of Sunday and Monday morning, awake, on my bed flipping around trying to fall asleep but failed miserably. So, I went to college on Monday, feeling like a walking corpse. Surprisingly, given how tired I was, I wasn't sleepy which was good for me as I managed to get myself through the day. That afternoon, went shopping (I didn't buy anything) with my classmates, all girls by the way at Sunway Pyramid. Well, all I can say is that its a good training of patience when shopping with girls as they can take almost forever in an outlet...Girls and shopping, what more is needed to be said? Well, perhaps what caused my shitty feeling is that I went futsal on Monday night. Turned out to be a very bad idea, I enjoyed the night but the aftermath is painful.

Today, Tuesday, I got to experience the aftermath at its nastiest. Although I managed to sleep last night (If I still couldn't then something must be very wrong with me), I woke up feeling as tired as I never felt before, not wanting to get up is an understatement I think. But, still needed to drag myself out of bed as Michelle was coming to fetch me so I got ready and the whole day, even until now, my eyes are burning and head is spinning. Class came and went as usual, struggled to stay awake as usual but today was the hardest. Then had a nice lunch outing with my awesome classmates Anty, Nanda, Indri, Trace, Leni and Feli (I am the only guy again XD) then I met up with Michelle as she prepared for her Taxation paper. Well, those two are pretty much what happened right for me today. But, the story ain't over yet.

I am totally drenched, why? Well, our all too kind sun, plus its a very clear day, decided to shine at its brightest and hottest when I am walking under it and I just got information that it was near 50 degree? Well, the aftermath of futsal was quite simple, from chest down, not much is free from pain, my lower back hurts, my thigh hurt a bit, my busted knee is still busted, and both my ankle hurt...Well, maybe I have stopped being under the sun for such a long time, that I couldn't really stand very long under its glare, my already spinning head spun just a little faster...Just great right? My head, back and lower body plus the weather, just glad that it was over, the moment I got into my living room, even without the fan, it was C-O-L-D for goodness sake.

Done nagging for now. If you managed to finish reading this post, and thinks I nag too much..Well, I never really asked any of you to finish reading every post I write although I appreciates a lot for any support given to my blog, but hey, Its my blog, I post what I want ok? Peace!

P/S : Click on the ads if it appears alright? Thanks!!! XD

Where do we go from here?

2010-02-08T02:20:00.002+08:00

Another game played, another lost. The 'Awesome Foursome' is coming to an end, with in-form Liverpool visiting us in mid-week, which is not good for us. However, despite the lost, I still, somehow, believe it not all lost yet. Wanna know why? I'll try to explain.

As you can see, all is gone for Arsenal it seems, but what made us think that when the season is not even over yet? Well, who else than the media? Their job is to make the winning team look unbeatable and make the losing team feel as if its end of the world. The whole world knows the media loves and favors MU so no doubt, the season is 'lost' for Arsenal in the papers, but I say no. Mainly because the season is not over yet and our performance this time around was better than last week's albeit coming after shipping two goals. The current season is one where any team can take points off any team on any given day. MU may traditionally have a very strong second half of the season but we shall see about that. The top 2 team, Chelsea and MU still have to play each other, plus both of them still need to play Liverpool and Aston Villa, points may still be dropped between them. We had them all, just that we had them all in a row.

All is dead and buried for Arsenal on paper, but what they have to do now, is to dig deep, dig deeper than they ever dug before. We are in a position where after this extremely difficult period, provided we still do our thing and score as many points as we can, we can still salvage something for ourselves. Self-belief is need, character and nerves of steel are required, just take one game at a time and we shall see what we get. Well, I may sound overly optimistic, but hey, I love the club, and I hope they can do themselves justice after a promising start, only to have our spear-head taken out for nearly three quarter of the season in an international friendly, on my birthday...Come on you Gunners!!! Don't give in now.

As for Robin van Persie, if you happen to read this, please get back as soon as possible. There are reports saying you may be back earliest by mid-march, and I really hope that ankle of yours can fully recover by then and drag us across the finish line in a position better than the current one. Get well soon Robin as Bendtner is not our answer, seeing him running as though avoiding the million of nails on the floor is less than convincing.

Lack motivation

2010-02-07T17:44:00.002+08:00

My assignment!!!! AARRRGGHHHHHHHHH!!! Still procrastinating until today...The due date is creeping closer and closer with every passing seconds. Another week, another wasted as I made no progress with it what-so-ever. I'll be really screwed if this continues on as I would have my mid-term to save my ass this time around, only this assignment. Buck up!!!

Having said that, the game is still happening tonight. Hope I'll have a good night to kick start my week so I can get some directions and complete them during the week. Good luck to me and of course to Arsenal!!!

We're heading to the Bridge

2010-02-06T21:14:00.003+08:00

After last week's shambolic performance, this week we travel to Stamford Bridge, home of Chelsea, where in anytime of the year, never an easy place to visit. More so with the table being so tight, plus our self belief may be shattered after being hammered at home by MU...

To add fuel to the raging fire, last year we won with two pieces of master class by Robin van Persie, which is injured this time around. Well, if we win, it would truly be a miracle, a draw would be the most realistic 'good' result for us when a lost, if pretty much expected with our performance. Hope for the best tomorrow night. Come on you GUNNERS!!!!!!!!!!!

* We miss you badly on the pitch...T_T

We Lost

2010-02-01T02:06:00.002+08:00

Final score 1-3. We lost, had been a very good host to Chelsea and MU this season, shipping 3 goals in each match with only 1 reply.

After a quite a bright start, we faded off and MU took full advantage. First goal, our keeper Almunia, with nerves of jelly, palm a chip into his own net..What a start right? The the next two goals came from United's counter. Purely our own fault as we lack the willingness to chase back and again, our keeper is our weak link. Our goal came a bit too late but it did came and should had a second if Gallas knew where he was. Final score, 1-3. Better team won, congratulations.

I do like to point out that, the night on a whole, we were very wasteful. Which cost us even more dearly with a nervy keeper. What to do? Let's just pick ourselves up and keep going. Come on you Gunners!

P/S : I do have to say this, thank you the machine that decides the fixture, for giving us Aston Villa, MU, Chelsea and Liverpool back-to-back-to-back-to-back....F**k you bloody machine.

-out-

Its The Day

2010-01-31T13:40:00.005+08:00

Well, the picture above says it all I guess, for the neutrals, its always a good game as for both set of fans, its more than just a game. The both coming in with decent form, although I have to say, MU does look the stronger at the moment but the is no 'sure' in football so we shall see. We outplayed they at the beginning of the season at their backyard but hit the self-destruct button and lost, so this match is not a rematch or revenge, but just to claim what is rightfully ours (if we play well). For me, may the best team win, FAIRLY (yes, I am talking about you ref...). As for the millions of MU fans, well, what can I say, its a two way thing. When they beat us, Arsenal sucks, when we beat them, Arsenal sucks too...But I would love it when they chant after they lost. Why? They just lost to a team that SUCKS...Idiots. I can go on and on about how stupid MU fans sounds, but oh well, not here I guess.

The game is at 12 a.m tonight/tomorrow morning. Just hope we'll get a good game and get the right results for us. =D

There is where they'll meet, the Grove.
The Emirates Stadium

Random post

2010-01-19T00:02:00.005+08:00

I had been digging through my play list and I found some songs produced a few years back and they still sound great to my ears. Well, one particular band I revisited is DragonForce, well they fall under the genre of music I listen to in which many people regard as 'noise', metal. They are a power metal band, where they lyrics are quite magical or more to a fantasy type of story. Speed is quite common among the power metal bands and DragonForce is by far the fastest among the rest. However, their live performance is just B-A-D, which is why most people refer them as a 'studio-band', although it has to be said that their more recent performances are much better. Studio or not, their songs are cool so credit to them...however, yes...most of their songs would sound the same in a sense that it starts of with a medium length intro, verse, chorus, verse, chorus, super long solo, chorus and outro...The is pretty much the arrangements of most of their songs, nonetheless, its still cool =).

When speaking of DragonForce, most people would know the song 'Through the Fire and Flames', cool song but that is not what I am going to share this time around. I am going to share this song, 'Valley of the Damned'. I like the feel of the song where it felt like a strong crowd kinda feel singing the song together..make sense? Just that with the solo of the previous song mentioned (lazy to type out...), the solo of this songs is not...on-par? All in all, still nice =).

Valley of the Damned

On a cold dark winter night hidden by the stormy light
A battle rages for the right for what will become
In the valley of the damned a warrior with sword in hand
Travels fast across the land for freedom he rides

And the sign from the master on high screams aloud and across hear the cry
For the kingdom of fire and ice and the power to be alive
Be strong ride on, carry on through the war
Come along carry on, living for ever more

On the wings of death by the hands of doom
By the darkest light from the darkest moon
Crossing silent seas over mountains high
For we stand as one tonight

On the black wind forever we ride on together
Destroying your evil with freedom our guide
When the master will storm us
He'll stand high before us
Our hearts filled with splendour
Our swords will shine over the light

In the valley of the damned
Days breaks with golden strand
Over pastures green it glows
To where night returns

In the shadows faces appear
Warriors wearing full metal gear
All join together one and all
Before the glorious light

Rise up, gather around
Come and hear what is said
Use your senses open your mind
Don't you ever forget

On the wings of life, by the hands of hope
By the brightest light from the brightest sun
Crossing silent seas over mountains high
To the valley of the damned

On the black wind forever we ride on together
Destroying your evil with freedom our guide
When the master will storm us
He'll stand high before us
Our hearts filled with splendour
Our swords will shine over the light

On the black wind forever we ride on together
Destroying your evil with freedom our guide
When the master will storm us
He'll stand high before us
Our hearts filled with splendour
Our swords will shine over the light

The black wind forever we ride on together
Destroying your evil with freedom our guide
When the master will storm us
He'll stand high before us
Our hearts filled with splendour
Our swords will shine over the light

The black...

*signing out*

My Wish List

2010-01-15T21:00:00.012+08:00

There is one item on my wish list, aside from getting a few pair of pants, I am looking at some shoes. Mainly futsal boots, what I am current using is Nike's Tiempo, the older version, nothing is wrong with it and I am pretty happy with the design and stuff but just feel like buying a new pair with the new designs so tempting...

Well, I got a few choices to consider, between the two main rivals, Nike and Adidas. Maybe I'll just write some on each brand. Nike, for all its technologies on the boot and its fancy design, the boot's durability questionable. Adidas on the other hand, durability wins hands down over Nike but the designs....err....hmm...quite alright only. Below are some of my considerations.

Let's start with Adidas.

First up, its the new Adidas Predator X. The design, compared to the pioneer design where it blew my mind away, is not as strong as its previous versions. Decent looking but price is a bit on the higher grounds for me.

*The black one

*The white one, which is better looking than the black ones.

The other is the Adidas F50i. It has a smooth look and feel to it, but for futsal purposes, only F5 is available, not much different in terms of design, so I am just going to put the F50i here.

*Blue is my choice, as there is also Black, White and now Green.

Next up, let's jump over to Nike's boots.

Firstly, let me talk about the boot which caught my interest for a while before losing it not long after, is the one Michelle calls it the McDonald's shoe. Introducing Nike's Total Control 360. The boot claimed to have improved technologies in enhancing the player's performance. I am no pro, so I do not think will make much difference for me. Besides, I am trying to get a pair for futsal, and the design for futsal is just bad. Unlike the other version, the one with black sole, with is suitable for artificial pitch (like my current Tiempo) which looks better but the sole deteriorate quite fast so its kinda of a turn off point for me.

*The Nike's Total Control 360

Moving on, I am a speedy guy if I may put it, Nike got a boot for my type of players. Adidas got its F series, Nike got its Mercurial series. This series of boots are light, have an elegant feel to it and the design is quite simple. However, its comes with shiny surface, and with the wear and tear involve, the 'wrinkles' on the boot would make the boot look really bad which is a major no-no because I do not change boot frequently. Moreover, again, the futsal version is not as cool as the football version...

*The Nike's Mecurial Vapor Superfly (5th series), the lastest colour is yellow.

*The Nike's Mecurial Vapor limited edition. I like this version more
as it has a smaller swoosh. =)

*Speaking of the Vapors, I like the 3rd series best

Lastly, its another pair of Nike. The Total 90 series which its previous design looked so 'web-by' that it turned me off straight away. Now, the Total 90 Laser 3 is out and the design rocks!!! BUT~~~~~~ The futsal version just SUCKS!!! AGAIN!!! Grrrr....Again, I am waiting for the black sole to come out, if it looks better then I would go for it. But again, Nike's durability....ARGH!!! (I am very picky, yes...I know)

*I just love it. It looks better in real life =D.

*The sad, cheap looking futsal version...What's with the little extra
green patch in front!!!

*The black sole I am talking about. At least look much better than the one above...

Goal

2010-01-14T23:53:00.002+08:00

Wednesday is my futsal day, with my knee giving me trouble, I still went XP. I love football, but since a football field is hard to come by plus there is the headache of getting two full team to play, futsal would be a more easier game to organize. I played some football back in school, defender by choice but I do enjoy venturing forward, maybe you can say that I am versatile or just ok in every position but standard is way below average.

Back in Kuching, I never played futsal, first experience is here in KL. I fell on my bottom just after I was introduced to the game...that was my memory of my first ever game. Along the way, I got a little better but still a lot of flaws in my game mainly due to my trauma which cause me to be paranoid of most things coming at me...yea, I am scared of the ball and a lot less aggressive than before (I think I ever wrote it in one of my previous post). I was a horrible keeper due to my fear but I do some decent stuff once in a while, most of the time is just hands down disappointing. Defending, I am still ok but my stamina usually fails me half way. Playing in an attacking role, I feel lost, get into the wrong position, misplaced passes or can't shoot properly...Horrible player huh? But I am still learning =).

Practise makes perfect but with the pace of the game being quite fast, decisions and techniques have to be spot on to make things happen. I do not know where did I got the instinct from but I scored a goal last night, one that I would regard very highly. Its a half volley from just outside the keeper's area, I sent the bouncing ball into the bottom right corner. I tried to recall what actually happened but I couldn't, as if that moment, it wasn't me controlling myself because knowing me, I could never do that. I can't even kick the ball properly for goodness sake!!

Laugh if you want that 20 grown men is chasing after one ball while two other are waiting between sticks. But with football able to united almost the whole world when the World Cup arrives (even those who do not watch football would tune in I believe), brings one into ecstasy in a moment and total despair the next. A tale of David vs. Goliath that can happen at any time at any given match. You just have to love it. I love football and last night was one to remember for me =).

When I was away

2010-01-09T12:33:00.023+08:00

I am baaaaaaaack!!!!! Inhaling the not-so-fresh-air, stuck in the hectic life-style of a big city which back in my hometown Kuching, I would not face. How I miss the atmosphere back there...but snap back to reality, I am here, in one piece and ready for my studies!! Hmm, just gonna share some events that took place back in my hometown..and B-T-W, in Kuching, WE DO NOT STAY ON TREES!!! Call yourself Malaysians...not that I am very proud myself with 3 Churches being torched (my best regards are with you all).

Ok, let me start by the visit of my grand parents, maternal side. They are in a village, which Astro AEC board casted on it program when I was back there. Its 17 mile from the main town, where I am at, and its called Siburan. I spent my Primary 6 year in that village, so I do have some friends that I know there and we met up during a futsal session back there where I busted my knee, still busted now...

*My parents, with my turning 82 this year Grandma

*That's me with my Grandma, a little blur

Ok, next up another trip to a temple this time, we went on Christmas day, and it took approximately 45 minutes to reach, now after you see the atmosphere and still thinks that people in Kuching still stays on tree, then you're forgiven a little as people there have houses too! The place is called Asa Jaya, by the way, going to a temple doesn't make me a Buddhist or some kind, its more like a Chinese culture.

*That's the jetty with some of the Dayaks there.

*That's the 'sampan' that will get us across the river

* A bit rundown it may seem but its well equipped with life jackets =)

*That's our destination

*Shots of the temple taken from the tower in previous photo

*Another view

Well, those are the places I visited. I did met up with some of my friends and went visiting during Christmas and caught up with some of my school mates who are all doing fine. Now, let's be more at 'home', I take some shots of my house as well =).

*Welcome to my crib ;)

*A little garden place outside, promote 'Go-Green'

*The back yard

*Another view of the back yard, again promoting 'Go-Green' =)

If there is one thing that I can take along with me to KL, my house would definitely be on top of that list because my room comes along with it =D.

*My bed =)

*My little cabinet besides my bed, and yes in Kuching, a table fan is enough to keep one cool

*My closet, now quite empty since I am over here

*Used to be a frequent user, but now no more, and the gas inside it leaked so its not even cold now.

Lastly, let me end with my filled my tummy.

Durian, we all know, and yes I consume them but have you ever seen one of this size?

*Yes, its only one seed. Nice!

Next, its curry! My dad's side is quite known for their curry when my Grandad was still around, in the humble town of Gerik, Perak, his curry was quite well known. Back in Kuching, although its not really his recipe, but it taste nice nonetheless. When curry is served as lunch, Kolo-styled noodle, bean sprouts plus curry will be the menu for dinner.

*The bean sprouts. In case any of you are wondering,
I picked off all the ends of each bean sprouts in there =D

*The noodle

*The Curry *drool*

*Mix them up and this is what you get. Bon Appetite!

So there you have it, a little from my time back in Kuching. Till here this time, signing out!

Good Bye 2009!

2009-12-12T00:08:00.002+08:00

Well, I am flying back to Kuching later, expected to land around 5 something. Do not think I'll have any connection to the Net unless I visit a cybercafe of something so yea, I bid an early farewell to 2009. Take care everyone!

SEE YOU NEXT YEAR!!!

My first 50th

2009-12-09T13:30:00.016+08:00

Yes, I just realized that this is my 50th tale. Did not plan for this because since I had been absent for some time, just wanna have a compilation to cover all those I wanted to write. So, here goes!

Firstly, I bid my first semester as a student of the Bachelor of Science (hons.) Business Management goodbye as I had completed it, wrote all the papers and the rest is out of my hands. Hope I can pass all of them so that can enter my second my semester peacefully. Good luck to all my classmates and not forgetting my friends from Psychology as well..in short, just to everyone XD! Since I am in my holidays now, I am going back to Kuching this Saturday, I ask for nothing else but a safe flight back home and same goes to those traveling back home. Will see you all next year yea! The journey through my first semester was a, I think its safe to put it as a fond one. Had a pretty rough start with demands and expectation but gradually began to manage it and things just went smoothly from there onwards. Met and made some friends along the way and they are all awesome, glab will be spending the next 3 years with them =D.

Speaking of going back to Kuching, well nothing much planned for it besides helping my parents out, meeting my friends, hang out, sleep on my own bed, home's comfort and pretty much eating the food back home and my mom's as well *drool*.

Well, during my absence, I turned 19 XD! Big boy already :p as Sue would put it. Did not have party or that sort of things because I do not plan for it, unless my friends are kind enough to do that for me. If not, I rather not celebrate it, it like celebrating one's one step closer to the dreaded word which begins with a D. I got quite a bit of new stuff, well mostly under my parents' budget as this time so a BIG thank you to both my parents!

First, its from Yip.

*Got this Arsenal bag which Michelle used to store her present as well

*This is what Yip gave me.

*The bag also contained this, from Michelle

*Opens up to this little message from Michelle

*The box contained this! My first ever, original jersey and its Arsenal's away kit 09/10.
Thanks Michelle!!!

Next, these are what I chose. My parents' money...hehe

*Two pairs of jeans from ROMP

*A pair of flip flops from Banana Peel

Next, from my friends in Psychology.

*From Natalie, a wrapped present and a bracelet from India!(which she was looking to give it away for some time. Nonetheless, thanks Nat)

*These are what she wrapped

*From Nadya, the left is for last year while the right one is this year...another for next year?

Lastly, perhaps the bomb among the other, in terms of price, from my dad. A HTC Touch 2 phone. Well, the story behind a change of phone is because my mom wants my Sony Ericsson K810i, so in exchange to that, they get me a new one. Thanks mom and dad!!

There you have it. A little of what has happened when I was not writing. A very belated birthday to those born on the 14th of November =D. Looking forward to 2010. To sum it all up, 2009 was a good year for me.

That brings the end of my 50th tale. All the best to those who are having exams. Happy holidays to those that completed their exams. Take care people. Signing off!

UPDATE

Came back after my one month off, and I got presents from Veron

*This is what she made, which my 'other half's' name on it

* Inside is a card and a small blue MANLY coloured sakura, with my initials on it. Nothing fancy but its the thoughts that matter =D. Thanks Veron

Besides that, she also prepared a little Christmas gift for me as well

*Nice artwork right?

*I got another Arsenal FC's accessories

Where do I belong?

2009-11-29T06:06:00.003+08:00

Good morning! Well, for some, which exclude me because I haven't sleep yet. Been trying to study, note, trying...but just could not absorb what I was reading so I stopped. Realized that I haven't been updating here for a while, got some posts pending but got no moon to write them..yet. So,here I am, writing this instead.

As the title would suggest, who the hell am I? After nineteen years, and 15 days being alive, I still could not answer that particular question. Why? here is why...

I'd always identified myself as the one who has quite a number of friends, but no best friends. Maybe its the way I segregate things though, I am not sure. But as time passes by, I realize I do have some friends who are, to me, more than just a F-R-I-E-N-D. Take for example, my not-so-little-but-still-younger-than-me sister, Sue May and her other half, the-never-to-be-messed-with Veron. They are two important people in my life, but the irony is, the way we met each other and the number of times that we actually see each other and what more to say hang out are so limited, I do have so-called 'Best Friends' after all =D. Note that I mentioned segregating things? I do have a friend, whom I grew up with since secondary school, Raymond. I would call him my close friend but never my best because we only got certain topics that will get us going all day long, either gaming or football. Maybe he is my best friend all these while just that I never realize...Yea, so that is one, I don't even know who the people around me are and may had even taken for granted some along the way.

Next, realized when I mentioned about my besties, the ratio of girl to guy is 2:1? Yea, I hang out with girls a lot more than guys. Well, one would normally see me, in a group, being one of the or the only guy in the particular group. The thing with me is, I don't talk much but hanging around with girls is that, they talk ALOT. Contradicting I know but I 'don't know' how to hang out with a guy group maybe? Hmm, maybe a clash or interest? Not saying that I share the exact same interest as girls do but guys talk about cars (I got no idea of), gadgets (I am still ok), girls (I prefer not to judge others) and other topic which aren't my cup of tea. Take for example music, the music I listen to ranges from slow ballads all the way to metal...Imagine that..and compare that to most of the guy friends I have around saying what I listen to is noise...I think that is a clear fullstop on that topic. So, where do I belong?

There is another thing I am still pondering about. I myself realize that I am a bit feminine for a guy but not to those extent of what some would call 'softies', for how I carry myself, sitting and standing posture. I do realize that, but hey, I'd been like that for who knows how long. I can't change that way I am that I have gotten so used to. However, after saying that, I know I am a guy, a normal one I would add. Just that I do not know how and why, I become like this. I am most of the time, caught right in the middle...

Hmm, everything that I write sounds like I myself is the problem here..Well, maybe so. Just wanna voice this out at least...Donno why I even write this in the first place.haha. Better go to sleep now. Btw, a shoutout to all my classmates. GOOD LUCK IN THE COMING EXAM!!!!

P/S - Its Arsenal vs Chelsea tonite at the Grove. The build up to this game, from Arsenal's point-of-view, if more or less like my past few days. Bad...Need a miracle tonight! Go Gunners!!!

2012

2009-11-12T18:04:00.002+08:00

I watched the movie just now =D!!! I went along with Feli, Nanda, Anty and Indri, to catch the 130 pm show at Pyramid. Like some of the movie that I watched this year that I liked, for example 'Up' and 'This Is It', this one will be ranked among those, but I would not say it is the best.

The movie, is by far the coolest movie to hit the silver screen, the effects were breathe taking while the story line, with a bit of twist here and there, was awesome as well. Go catch this one whenever you can as I would highly recommend it to most, if not everyone.hehe. Hope you'll enjoy the movie as much as I did!

Well, this movie shows that when nature get pissed, we got all but Hell to pay, and with the way we are running the world today, I think we're just inviting 2012 to come sooner. Same goes to after wathcing 'This Is It', a strong message to save our environment struck me. Well, I started doing my own little part in practising recycle whenever I could, well call it petty but its better than nothing right? Just food for thoughts.

Just commentary

2009-11-08T03:49:00.002+08:00

Since I do not really have much to write about, I'll just comment on the Wolves vs Arsenal game which just ended not long ago. Sue, sorry yea, bear with me =). The game ended 4-1, with Wolves's manager promising that they will come and attack us and exploit our weaknesses, came they did and exploited they did...

The game started off at a fast tempo, a little too fast for both teams but Wolves were knocking on the door on several occasions, mostly from set-pieces but they failed to capitalize, which is good news for me but it was ringing some alarm for Arsenal. But, after soaking up most of the pressure, Arsenal went one up, guess what, from a corner. Fabregas whipped in a corner, with Eduardo pressurizing the defender and who-knows-what the keeper was doing, the goal was nudged in off the defender who was under-pressure from Eduardo. 1-0 XD. The second was soon on the way, with Arsenal seeming to be more ruthless nowadays, which I hope this will continue, they pressed for the second goal. The ball was knock onto Ramsey and Arsenal broke. With only Eduardo supporting the youngster, he laid the ball off to Eduardo and with time on his side, his first time chip which seemed like a return pass to Ramsey was deflected off a defender that eventually beat his own keeper, making it a glorious chip by Eduardo, 2-0! Just before half time, Arsenal got the needed third goal, as an assurance and they got it off a slick move which was initiated by Fabregas who passed to Sagna and surged towards the opposition penalty area. Sagna then pass to van Persie who made a run towards the near post to lay it off Fabregas who continued his run to slot pass the keeper, 3-0!

The second half was more of a boring affair, with Arsenal playing safe while attacking occasionally, the fourth did arrive, from Andrey Arshavin! Wolves's keeper punched a corner and Arshavin reacted well to hit on a volley on the edge of the penalty area to beat the keeper. A goal of excellent technique. However, we did concede, it is like a custom nowadays that Arsenal must allow a goal to enter their net at least once in a game. It was from a corner which a Wolves's player, a free header....4-1 it ended...Ramsey was given a full 90 minutes, which he did well when the team attacked but committed a few school boy mistakes which is quite worrying but in a game against a 'smaller-team', I think we could allow him to learn. Nasri and Rosicky were given time to find their match fitness which is good to see them back. Van Persie could not continue his scoring streak but did had an assist. Vermaelan was ever solid and Gallas wasn't too shabby as well. Arshavin scored which is a good thing and Fabregas is still on form which is vital. But most notably is the presence of Song, when he came on, Arsenal looked more solid, but he will be away for the African Cup of Nations, so its an area that Wenger should thinking about. 4-1, we swept aside another 'smaller-club' and keeping pressure on the top 2 which is good. We have every chance to win it this year, Go GUNNERS!!!

Did I ever mentioned that I got infected by a virus which caused me to have fever and a heavy flu? If not, then now I'll write about it briefly, it happened before Genting and I just shaken off the flu completely like 3 days ago, but it seems like the virus is not completely out of my system yet, which caused me to have either headache or dizziness during the past week. It happened everyday, literally. So, I went to the doctor just now and got some more medication. Hope this time I'll fully recover from the virus. Take care people! Signing off...

This Is It

2009-11-06T00:54:00.002+08:00

So much for the title being "This Is It", what I wanna say now is that...that was it Michael, that was I-T!

Well, the human race is a funny race, because we only truly learn to appreciate what was or were there for us all along until it is gone, completely out of our world and into the next. Same goes for the King of Pop, the late Michael Jackson. When he was still alive, we called him a pedophile or called him all sort of names. But just as he left us, we, all of the sudden, started to like him again and the boy who claimed he was molested by Michael came out to confess that it never happened. So all these while we were accusing him for nothing and he went to court for nothing as well. That is the power of the media, they could make you an icon in an instant and they could also make you a public enemy in the next minute. As for Michael, all we can say now is that he was one of the victim that we can learn from...

As for me, to be truly honest with you, before he died, all I know about him was "Heal the World", some parts of his songs, a bit of this and that. That was all. But now, I know most of his songs and what he had done for the world in raising awareness and uniting people of different background. When he was still alive, I thought he lost it when he had that many number of times on the surgery table and bleaching his skin, that perhaps was his downfall to his illustrious career. I regret for not knowing him and appreciating for what he had done for us, and I am sad to say that it is because of his death that I started to admire him. Long liveD the king!

The movie was perhaps the one which took me on a roller coaster ride for my emotions, I teared up, I smiled and sang for most part of the movie. He managed to impact me in such way, what of those who were his fans since back then I wonder? I could only imagine, a man that could influence not just a few person, but the whole world by doing something that he enjoyed, performing. So instead of mourning for his death, why not we be thankful for what he had done and continue on his vision? That is the very least of what we could offer back to the King. Michael was here and he did conquered, leaving us with endless fond memories. Thank you sincerely Michael Jackson. May you bring joy in a better place. =)

Don't really have much to write, feeling for him is just beyond words. So, apologies for undermining his greatness. Peace!

I survived Genting!

2009-11-01T23:56:00.003+08:00

As I am writing this post, my head is spinning badly mainly due to the lack of sleep over the past few days...I just got back from Genting around 4 just now, spent two nights over there and had a pretty good time over there. This time, I think I can say that I went all out at the theme park, trying out almost every rides and anything that I can get my hands on. Tried the Space Drop TWICE!! The second time to accompany my beloved sister, MissAnomaly, Sue, of course, how can we forget Veron! She waited for us, carry 3 octopi in the cold while we get the drop of our lives. Warmed up with the Cyclone, experience the thrills of the Cork Screw, raced the Carts, flew like Superman at the Flying Coaster, got wet in Sungai Rajang and finally at night going through the mines. Those were the rides I went throught and I did NOT threw up albiet feeling a bit sick and I found out that I am actually not too shabby with a crossbow =D. Took quite a bit of photos over there, mostly being stupid...hehe. I ended Saturday night's outdoor adventure with a trip to the Emirates and went back a happy boy ^^.

Well, the moment we arrived at Genting on Friday, my first mission was to locate a spot where the Arsenal vs. Tottenham game will be showed. After a while, the target was spotted and it was at a bar, an open-air bar where the Gondolas cricled. I went to the game with Sue, who was willing to accompany me. Well, I do not drink so she drank instead and I ate. The game began and I was all hpyed up for the game. The game was tight until the 40th minute, around that time, the deadlock was broken. From a Sagna's cross, van Persie raced onto the cross to tap in the first of the match, his fifth straight goal in the Premier League. Just was I was calming down from the celebration and the screen just continuing onto the live play after the replay, the second went in! I celebrated again!!! Mind you, I got a minor sore throat when I went to Genting, the rides did not help me nurse my throat as well but I cheered my lungs out! Palacios lost the ball to van Persie after the kick off, Fabregas took it on, beat a man and avoided Palacios's tackle and nutmagged King before slotting his shot past Gomes with two on rushing defenders...pure class!!! Pace, agility, technique and composure, all displayed by the 22 year old. The goals were only seperated by 11 seconds, if count the real playing time and if the actual time was around 49 seconds. 2-0 into half time, I could not complain but I did managed to find somthing to complain though, there was a live band performing, they were not bad but their timing was just bad because I do not like to be disturbed especially during an Arsenal game. Well, second half resumed and the third went in through van Persie again and it was 3-0, that was how the game ended. But it was nice seeing how Wenger got frustrated when the team should be playing smart and not too offensive because he could not get the message through to his team. I think he finally learnt the lesson. A very good win over our bitterest rival, we made them ate their words and slap them back to reality!!! Go GUNNERS!!!!

Well, pictures of Genting will be up shortly in Facebook I hope because I do not have the pictures, so I think either Sue or Veron will be uploading it. So do check it out when they are out ^^. Well, there was a low in Genting as well, not gonna write about it. Just wanna say, I live on this world FOR my family as they are the ones who are closest to me and brought me up to be the guy I am today. As for my friends around me, I live WITH them as they are the ones who gets me through the day. If you do not like what I said, either sue me or STFU. Thanks.

My head is killing me so I'll stop here and get ready for bed. Take care =D

I'm down and almost out...

2009-10-24T20:51:00.003+08:00

This week is coming to an end, the week began quite fine for me but it all went downhill ever since. I am now ending this week, down with a heavy flu...my nose is running like crazy and it causes me to sneeze a lot...urgh.. Aside from that, thanks to the running nose, my throat is also affected. Those were what I battled the whole day but there is more as my joints are starting to sore and I am having diarrhea too. Just great...too great!!! Just hope I can shake all these off as soon as possible...so sickening! Only thing for me to look forward to now is the Arsenal game tomorrow, please at least grant me an Arsenal's victory. Take care people. Signing out

A combination of two days

2009-10-18T19:55:00.003+08:00

(this post was written on two separate days...on the 17th and the 18th)

Finally, the bloody interlull is over and done with, no more international football for now where potential injuries would happen, in Arsenal's case, it is almost certain at least one would come back injured, this time its Bendtner but the other big guns came back fine so not too bad this time. Well, later tonight, Birmingham City will visit the Grove, what happened two years ago is still fresh in my mind, first thing tht would come into my mind is the Eduardo's injury, not going to post the picture of that incident here because it is really disturbing. When the incident happened, I did not watched it live as it happened because I think my dad was watching some other programme before my turn, by the time I watched the game was already the second half. Eduardo would not be involved in this game due to an injury so does Martin Taylor, the one who broke his leg who is also out with injury. Secondly and thirdly, as these two cases would have a really strong connection which was the very, very cruel and wrong penalty call on Chichy's challenge. He got the ball cleanly but the referee awarded the penalty to Birmingham, it was the 90th minute and the game ended 2-2 and Gallas's outburst at the end of the game...from then on, that ever so promising season when all the way downhill, a real turning point indeed and by the end of the season, we lost both Flamini (for free) and Hleb...Well, this time around, let's just show that we've grown from that incident and keep pushing high up the table!!! GO GUNNERS!!!

Well, as for this post, I am writing in the college so I am going to publish it when I get back (as I cannot locate the college's WIFI) because I am here to work on the assignmnets given, it is crazy really, three group assignmnets and the due date is drawing nearer with every passing moment while at the same time, progress on the assignment is not really there...Ever since the mid-term, althought I am kind of used to the life as a university student but I am still very unaware of the exams date most of the time until the lecturer actually remind the class. So, still having problems with that.

Recently, I procrastinate a lot, seriously a lot. I just could not get myseld started on the things that I actually set out to do immediately. From daily chores to my course work. What is happening to me huh? Mid-age crisis? But I am way too young for that excluding the fact that more white hair is growing on my scalp which makes me look kinda old.....sigh~~~

Alright, write till here for now, can't wait for the return of the Premier League!!! Well, that I would never procrastinate =P.

(enter the 18th)

Well, the Arsenal won, I did not watched the game live as the bloody broadcasting crew of ESPN and StarSports will always put the Arsenal as the last choice among the other 'Big 4' as they are less television value so to speak, but last night ended with Chelsea and Liverpool losing while the MU game bored the living daylights out of me and Arsenal won with the most goals scored last night among all, a 3-1 victory and DIG THAT!!! Goals came from van Persie, Diaby and Arshavin, well out strikers are scoring regulary now so that is good news but Walcott got a nasty knock so hope that is no big deal. Not going to write much about the game because I did not managed to watch the match or the highlights at all so I could not possibly know what happened. But the Liverpool game was hilarious, they lost due to their own fan's doing, by punching a beach ball with a Liverpool crest on it that eventually deflected the ball into the back of the net. LOL!

The beginning of another week, all I could say is that at least some work were done on the assignments. Gotta keep that up! Nothing much to write about today as I spent my afternoon in bed...now I may not be bale to sleep at night...just great. Signing off guys, take care.

And the wheel keeps spinning

2009-10-10T21:15:00.013+08:00

Updates on the the previous post I'd written. I done some more research and I further cut down on my choices on the phone that I wanna get. Well, there are only two realistic options left for me, why did I used the word realistic? You'll see ;p.

Ok, starting out in the blue corner!....oh wait, cut that....The first contender would be *drum roll*...........*pop* Still the Sony Ericsson W995!!! Well, decided to stick to this rather than W902 mainly due to the fact that W995 feels nicer than W902. Too bad W902...

*that's the baby right there =)

Next, perhaps I would not had thought of it if not for my brother to enlighten me. It would be the HTC ToucH Diamond. Well, its quite a cool phone both exterior and interior just that I am worried about the battery life span which is quite known for not being very long lasting. I did not had a chance to hold the real thing just now as the shop ran out of stock of this model and they also couldn't provided me with an actual price on the phone...what great help huh...

*the white Diamond

*the black Diamond, I prefer this one

As for the unrealistic choices, it is none other than the Sony Ericsson's XPERIA X1 and X2. X1 is nice but X2 is just SWEET~~~! Problem is, X1 cost around 2K while X2 is not even out in the market yet.....so, better luck for me next time I guess...

The X1

The X2

Ain't the X2 just look HOT!!!! hehe, maybe I'll get it in the future...*drools*

Dilemma

2009-10-10T00:42:00.011+08:00

This, could be by far the worst holiday I'd ever been through and yea, its not over yet. A week of pure boredom and no football!!!! Well, not going too well in the relationship as well, she is stressed out while I am bored to death, not a very healthy combination...The only thing that went quite ok was the gathering with my CIMP friends (gotta come up with a new term as we are not in CIMP anymore...oh well) which was also an early celebration for Alyssa Ding's 19th Birthday!!!! Happy Belated Birthday Alyssa!!!! Then the usual futsal on Wednesday, we had barely 10 players so we had to last throughout the night which had several injuries which did not help. I even kicked an injured played on the ankle (the injured one some more), purely accidental, I never intended to hurt him and I felt like shit after that. Overall an "ok" night, my game is opening up and learning new things everytime, hope this carries on.

Anyway, back to the topic. I am in a dilemma......I am looking for a new phone as my mom's is dying and she wants mine. Well, mine is not really in a good condition so might need a little bit of service before handing over to her. Well, my parents are generous this time as I think they are going to sponsor my new phone but I think I'll chip in some as well. So, my options are now open, never really planned to get a new phone so I am kinda lost at the moment but I was able to pin down my choices into 3. I am not really a fan of Nokia but I am open for suggestions. My choices now are the HTC Touch 3G, Sony Ericsson W902 and Sony Ericsson W995. Below are my thoughts.

Alright, first up is the HTC Touch 3G, a 3G phone without a 3G function...nice eh? Well, its a smart phone to begin with, with the iPhone around these days, this can only be the minnow among the giants. Well, iPhone is beyond my wildest expectations and I am not really a fan of it as well. So, sticking to this, a 3.15MP camera with no autofocus is kinda turning me off. The only ups for me are that....its a smart phone? touch screen? a unique experience? internet access?

*the 4 colours of the HTC Touch 3G

*this is how big the phone is

Next up, the Sony Ericsson W902. This is one phone that I had been eyeing on for quite some times but the price ain't going down!!! Well, a candy-bar of a design, nothing fancy but the buttons on the side, not really a green light from me but the rest are quite ok for me. It can support up to 8GB of memory, supports 3G, a 5MP and autofocus enabled camera and lastly, its a Walkman series. I am a music lover so that would work for me. However, I can't connect to the internet with this and no GPS as well....nothing is perfect I guess.

*that's the phone, I like the looks of the phone

Lastly, the Sony Ericsson W995. Well, it is a pretty strong contender in my wish list as it has got most of what I want. Its a Walkman series, large memory space, 8.1MP with autofocus, and I could finally connect to the internet with this phone (if I go for it). However, yes, the drawbacks...the price is an issue. It is a slide phone, the durability of that slide is still a question as all this while I am using candy-bar. Lastly, at first glance, I did not like the 4 little buttons on the front but I am kinda ok with it now.

*that's the baby I was talking about

So, which one should I get? or are there anymore good ones out there with reasonable price? Help?

Post-match =D

2009-10-05T00:00:00.004+08:00

The smiley says it all does it? On the day which its impossible for Arsenal to lose, they did not. Its the day where fans, present and former players, under the tutelage of Mr. Arsene Wenger's 13th year in charge of the gunners. Before the game, I wished for a 7 goals rubbing on Blackburn, the game went one better, it produced 8 goals. It ended 6-2, a win nonetheless but the best Arsenal performance so far this season, in terms of attacking. A perfect present for our manager, more the same please.

The game actually did not start according to plan, Blackburn took the lead twice but on this day, there will only be one outcome, which is a home win. Goal-machine Thomas Vermaelen added another sublime strike to his name when he bulleted the first goal. Van Persie added a second and soon follow by the third by Arshavin. The next three goals came from Fabregas, Walcott and Bendtner respectively. The man-of-the-match wass Fabregas, who was involved in the first 5 goals as he was already substituted when the sixth went in. He contributed 4 assists and a goal. So those who doubt him, now just shut up!!!

A very good day for me indeed as I had my hair cut just that my sideburn are gone....Oh well, it'll grow back. Below is my picture after my hair cut :

*That's me =D, in my Arsenal jersey (fake one because I can't afford the original,
my birthday is coming soon though *hint*)*

Pre-match

2009-10-04T16:54:00.009+08:00

Since the Arsenal game is later, so would leave the review for later, since there is nothing to review about now.hehe

Well then, I just write something to spend a few of my minutes waiting for the game. I am going to get a hair cut, going for a shorter one this time around. Hope it turns out right. Actually, I was supposed to cut it last night but sadly, after driving all the way to SS2, the salon is not open!!! Well, its due to the Mid-Autumn Festival, at least that is the logic I see behind it. So, my current hair is still with me as we speak. May post the picture of my new hair cut here tonight, provided I do not look bad or silly with it on my head.hehe

Holiday is upon the SBL students, after a hectic week 7, where we had all our assignments due and mid-term papers to sit for, its finally time for us to catch our breathe a little for a week. Something unfortunately were to happen though, as my fellow Indonesian friends are packing their bags, preparing to go back to their home's comfort during this period of time, the fact that they actually got their passport to go back to their home meant the world to them as I witnessed, Felicia, my classmate, as one of those unfortunate ones who did not get their passport back. Yea, I went to the Internation Student Office (ISO) with her and Leni. She wasn't the only one that left heart broken, there was another guy there, who failed to get his passport back. So, this got me wondering instead, eventhough my Council's term is coming to an end, we actually did not played any part as the liaison between the students and the management of Sunway University College. Well, upon the thought of this, I began thinking what I could actually do under the name of the Council, discussed with Eugene and found out that this matter is quite common and we may even be dealing with the government. Quite a big issue when it comes to dealing with the government.

So, if this is quite a common issue, not just in Sunway itself, but other institutes as well, why is this still happening today? I had decided to give this case a go and see what comes out from it. Will need to do some extra research on this issue as well, but I am not giving up until I try. Quite frankly, it doesn't feel nice, seeing people from other countries coming to our country and being a victim of our inefficiency...When we want to go home, we could just easilly do so but for the international students here, going home, which is what every living soul holds the right to do, is such a big challenge...Cheer up yea Felicia! Promised I would help you to do something about this so I'll discuss this with my advisors some more then come up with the best solution to ease of your and other internationl students' headache in this issue.

Moving on, I would be going to Genting at the end of this month with Michelle, my two ever so lovely, high, not to mention hot as well ~~nemesis~~ besties in Veron and Sue while not forgetting the others like Yvonne, Yip, Alex and Shen Ee..very much looking forward to that, just that there is another proposed trip to Genting, this coming Tuesday!!! With my classmates, two Genting trips in a month...my wallet is going to scream~~~.Still working on this Tuesday, but I do not mind going twice as its with two different groups, two different experinces and double the fun!

Write until here for now, going to update tonight on the game. Take care!

One down!

2009-09-27T03:27:00.004+08:00

*ROAR*!!!! Finally, done with Business Computing Excel assignment, Monday is time to present our hard work and hope its rewarded with a good grade. Well, the happiness does not last long though, there are two more assignments to go, mainly Study Skills and FOB. Well, I have made some progress, hope to get them done with soon but having said that, I am happy again! Arsenal won!!!!

Well, there was a lot of talking from a particular player this time around, Robin van Persie. He talked the talk so could he walk the walk? Yes he can, because the scored the only goal which proved to be the winner over Fulham. His goals are hard to come by but when they do, they are something special. The game was kinda...boring for me because Arsenal weren't playing well, credit to Fulham for that and they really gave us everything they got. So, we were cancelling each other out for most part of the game.

The game also witness the return of Andrey Arshavin. I have to say, his second season ain't as great as his first. He is kinda quiet and not really sharp it seems. A little more time I guess. As for the tall Dane, Bendtner...he looked as seem he has a routine in the game, which is - driblling to the edge of the box, not releasing his teammate with a pass just to lose the ball cheaply or shoot wide. As for Eboue, if he could just, if not taken but tested the keeper with his chances, we would not be under so much pressure. Good thing is Rosicky is still fit and he provides the team with experience, a touch of class and assurance and good passes. Good job Tomas! The defence was quite solid but the young Italian keeper was the man-of-the-match. At a tender age of 21, Vito Mannone, made saves after saves after saves to ensure we go home with all 3 points. Kudos the next Buffon? *fingers crossed*

Well, a so-so day for me if I exclude the win and completing the Excel assignment. Going to bed now, but knowing Chelsea lost just put the icing on the cake XD.

Moving away from football reviews

2009-09-25T00:46:00.005+08:00

Well, yea, that's what I get from my friends reading, which I can't blame them because my posts are mostly on football reviews...So now, to add a bit of variety to my blog, I'll write about something else then.

Oh, before moving on, I am serving Nuffnang's ads!!! All thanks to Caren, *link provided at the side so do visit her site and click on the ads to make her happier ;)*. So, help me to click and check out the ads as well yea, so instead of making one person happy, now you'll be making two person happier!!! Thanks yea!

First time writing about my life in university here, can't say I love it but certainly can't say I hate it as well. Ironic eh? Maybe I had it too easy during my time in CIMP? Well, not saying that CIMP did not prepare me well for university, just that for me personally, the gap between the standard back in CIMP and university now is quite far apart. Having said that, CIMP prepared me well in some other expect and by far the most important expect for me would be the exposure of presentations. However, the quality of work and hours of lecturer are a bit short.

Now, I am only taking 5 subjects - namely English, Study Skills, Foundations of Business, Business Computing and Literature...

English, is just plain boring and the lecturer did not really help much is brightening up the class, so yea, gotta live with this sadly.

As for Study Skills, in which I initially thought would be the most boring of classes this semester actually turned out to be the one that I actually enjoyed. Sadly, its over now, only lasted for 4 and a half weeks. But, it did not just went quietly, it left us with assignments to be completed and an exam paper to sit for =.=.

Next up, FOB, not bad for me, but scoring is a problem. Like I said, the quality of work is high, so still struggling to come up with answer more than two pages and that's with my books and notes open right in front of me...

Furthermore, its Business Computing...This, is a KILLER!!! The ironic thing is that, just like study skills, I actually thought that this would be the easier subjects around but how wrong can I be? Our mid term exam would cover all 7 chapters, well, if that's not enough, covering all 7 chapters take up alot of time and what's worse is that the lecturer expect us to be well equipped with the current news and the past examples to support our answers. No doubt this would really train us but a little more help needed maybe? Is this what are installed for us in the next two years?

Lastly, literature. Well, firstly I do not really understand why in a business course we need to take literature? When writing reports or proposals I do not think that we need to include any writing techniques or any poems? I thought its just straight to the point and selling your strengths while covering your weaknesses? But, that's the fact, we have to sit for it. The lecturer herself is very good but her being new, she is struggling to keep the class in order...

Well, that's a bit of my struggles in university but I got a bunch of great classmates so its ain't so bad ;). Just learnt quite an important term in Bahasa Indonesia...yes, I am talking about you Leni, in Bahasa Indonesia, the word 'belanja' which in Malay would mean spend or treat someone to a meal but its not for them, it means shopping...So, be careful when you use this word next time yea. So, instead, say 'traktir'. Signing off~

From despair to delight

2009-09-20T01:38:00.005+08:00

All hail and a very big, warm welcome to 'Goal Machine', solid, and a no-nonsense type defender, the Belgian, Thomas VERMAELEN!!!!!!!!! In the Gunners' latest encounter, Wigan came to the Emirates for a visit and we managed to have a simple, straight forward 4-0 win over them. As you might have guessed, Vermaelen was the man of the match, scoring two goals and an ever presence in the heart of defence. Great buy Arsene Wenger!!! The first came from a corner, taken by van Persie and bulleted onto the roof of the net by Vermaelen, then the second, coming from the same source, mind you, he is a defender, he was able to curl his goal into the top corner. The third was kinda funny, with a little confusion in the celebration. Eduardo struck a goal bound shot only to be deflected off Eboue which further guided the ball from the reach of Kirkland's arm. The camera was fixed on Eduardo but it took quite some time for his team mate to come congratulate him. Lastly, the goal came from the captain himself, appeared to be struggling with some sort of injury but he made a good run and brilliantly picked out by Bendtner for the fourth. I think, with the team sweeping aside the so-called 'smaller teams' this season so far, we can have a shout as the problem over the years is that we failed to break teams down who only came to defend and worse, losing to them...So far so good, lets keep moving forward!!!

Based on the game and some previous games as well. I do not think that Persie is the best candidate for the central striker position. Firstly, he is not strong enough as a post up player and he is somewhat a little alone at times. I would prefer seeing either Bendtner or Eduardo up there as they provide physical presence and finishing up front respectively. Although I can see the logic putting Persie there is to be the link and build plays, however, we are missing his goals and he appears to be struggling as well. Let's hope this works.

Yesterday, was the Council's second welfare trip. We brought the kids from the "House of Joy" to the Deer and Bird Park. Nature wasn't on our side as it rained before the trip and towards the end of the trip. Tired but worth it nonetheless. Building up to this trip, I did not sleep, literally for over 24 hours....Ask me why? I can't answer you as well....now I feel like a zombie with burning eyes. Gonna sleep soon guys. So, gonna leave it here this time. Carling cup ties coming up, another opportunity for the young and second string players to play. Come on GUNNERS!!!!

Utterly Disgusted

2009-09-13T00:36:00.003+08:00

We lost, 4-2 away at the City of Manchester Stadium, home to the mega-rich Manchester City. A back to back lost, once again in which luck did not favor Arsenal a single bit.

Let's start with the beginning, a Micah Richards' header, which bounced of the post, a diving (very delayed) Almunia who unluckily headed the ball with the back of his head into his own net. 1-0 to Man City.

Arsenal fought back, it was in the second half. Robin van Persie finally scored, a right footed low drive which beat Shay Given. Good goal dude!

Man City got the vital second goal. Sagna lost out to Micah Richards who ran into the box to set up Craig Bellemy who score past Almunia. This happened despite Arsenal are pressing the air out of Man City. Soon, they would get their third, which is to whom I am dedicating the title of this post to. EMANUER MONEYBAYOR, yea, I am talking about you, you asshole, who headed the third and made the effort to run the whole stadium and slide in front of the Arsenal fans to celebrate. Let me tell you this you f**ker, there is one thing call Karma and mark my word you'll definately get what you deserves which I say now is that would not be a nice one. Not to forget you stepped on Persie's face, replay would show how bad was it...Karma my friend. Lastly Man City got the fourth from a counter attack, finished by Wrights Phillip.

Arsenal were to get a consolation, by the returning Tomas Rosicky. Good to see you back buddy. You did very well. Arsenal could made a grandstand finish even though they were down. If there were to finish off the chances they created at the ending stages of the game, it could even end up being 5 or 6 goals for the Arsenal, but the word is IF...

Like I mentioned, Rosicky is back. He did well and hope he build from this. Arshavin, big player missing in big matches, very common for Arsenal...We missed him on the field. Nasri, hope you come back soon. Walcott, prove that you're the next Henry when you're back. All in all, the performance just now, was not up to par with the performance they had a fortnight ago when going up against ManU. Blame ourselves for not really showing up. Let's pick ourselves up Gunners and Gooners alike. We can achieve this year. GO GUNNERS!!!

We lost, simple as that

2009-08-30T02:25:00.003+08:00

It ended 2-1, M.U won with the odd goal in their home ground, it hurts just for me to type it because, hands to heart M.U fans, Arsenal were the better team. The turning point of the game? Arsenal themselves. We went into the lead with a screamer into the top corner by Arshavin and we went into the second half leading by 1. The second half, M.U did not really pressed us like they really meant business, however, we gave away a penalty, correct call and taken by Rooney. 1-1, 2 points lost. Then, possibly the best own goal in the history of football itself, by the ever so 'GOOD' or this season could be his break-through season, Abou Diaby...His body posture when going to head the ball from a Giggs free kick, mind you, he was unchallenged, as his he was a M.U player in blue...2-1, 3 points lost. Drama at the end, Persie finally put the ball into the back of the net, after an intial efforts that were saved and hit the cross bar,however, yes, the much dreaded word here, the goal was ruled offside, not him, but the goal. Correct call so I can't complain. What made me even more sad is when the slow-mo replay, with Persie burrying his head with his head, Eduardo was behind him, supporting him, as a face full of agony as well. Gunners, you all did well, however, in the world of football, what matters ain't performance but results. Let's bounce back, as our players come back, we can put up a very strong challenge. Go GUNNERS!!!

UP!

2009-08-23T22:55:00.003+08:00

A Walt Disney's special and a production of those that brought us Wall-E (which I didn't watch) come this movie 'UP'. Initially I never planned to watch this movie and out of a sudden, my Dear asked me to watch it. So, I agreed which is one of the correct choice I made after coming out of the cinema in TGV, Sunway Pyramid. This movie does not have catchy scenes, hot girls, breathe taking effects or whatever elements that we are so used to see in movies nowadays. It is just a simple movie with a breathe taking plot. There are laughters, serious moments and also tears. All in all, a very VERY good movie, highly recommended for everyone!!! I'll rate it as a 5 out of 5!!! Just one of my many thoughts, I am not afraid of growing old anymore after the movie =D!

Sticking with up, Arsenal is back UP and on top of the table with a game in hand!!! A 4-1 performance against a troubled Pompey side, could had scored more but I am happy with the win. Celtic next and a big one, away to MU in the weekend. Not gonna write too in depth this time with football but gotta mention this, the fixtures are tough and players are kinda proned or close to getting injured, adding to the long list of already injured players, not healthy bearing in mind that MU is next, hope they can pull a rabbit out of the hat and give it their all. Go GUNNERS!!!

Not feeling well since yesterday, got a heavy head.....hope I recover swiftly and hope everyone else is in good health. Especially my Dear. Peace and take care people!

I'M BACK....and so are some other things

2009-08-16T02:41:00.005+08:00

WOHOO!!! I'm back and writing once again! Got requested to update, so here I am. Well, my life has been better since my previous post. Been wanting to update and share the joy but just too lazy =p.

First and foremost, I met a girl, our path crossed, we caught each other's eyes and here we are, entering our 2nd month together. Yea, I am in a relationship, thus far, everything is looking very good, we're getting more and more comfortable with each other and knowing each other more. All are good signs if you'd ask me, but I am no fool, making it work requires constant and on-going hard work and commitment and that is what I'm working towards. That special girl is Michelle! Hope we have a very very very long road ahead for both of us. Love you lots!!! Not gonna share too much about us, best kept private.hehe.

*our 1st picture*

Well, coming back from a very long break, two months by the way, classes are about to start soon. This time around, I am a university student, studying Bsc. (Hon) Business Management at Lancaster University, Sunway University College. Gotten my time table last week and it looks quite decent, neither too hectic nor too relaxed. So, I'm not complaining about it. Gotta start gathering all my motivation and drive back and try to achieve something. Well, I got my girl to help me this time around so I won't be alone down this road =D. So yea, looking forward to this. All the best to me and my fellow friends!

Finally, the Barclays Premier League is BACK!!!!!!!!!!!! WOHOOO!!!! Which means, my beloved Arsenal is back in top flight action! I just got back for their season opener, a trip away to Everton, not a easy game by any means. But guess what, having being writen off of any chance to win the title even before a ball has been kicked, they thumped Everton at their groud with an emphatic 6-1 score line. Dig that you critics! A very good game overall and I had not been so satisfied watching the Arsenal's games. Arsene Wenger set the bar very high for his team, guess I am starting to believe that this team is ready to deliver albeit being light weight. Allow me to share my thoughts on the game :-

New boy Thomas Vermaelen, had a very good game, being the no nonsence type of defender and scoring a powerful header. The front three attackers didn't not really did enough for me but brought other players into the mix which is also good. Arshavin was kinda quiet, Bendtner was ok, van Persie was pulling the strings up front. The captian Cesc Fabregas scored a brace, which is good. Denilson did well and Song shown major improvement playing in that holding role. So yea, with performance like this from the team, they can go somewhere this season. Guess the departure of Adebayor and Toure did not really hurted us. Now, addition players would only further improve the current squad which is a plus point as we lack depth in out squad, we got the money, so I'm hoping the manager would do something constructive with it. Not forgetting, the likes of Walcott, Nasri and Rosicky were unavailable, imagine with them in the side. Fingers crossed

Alrighty, after a long spell out, I can't really write long, so will stop here this time. Have a nice day people. Peace!

My Little Complilation

2009-06-14T01:57:00.001+08:00

*blowing and sweeping off the dust*
Ahh~, Its been quite some time since I last visited and post something here...Well, I am back! Quite a number of things happened while I was away, I graduated, I shifted, I went to the Karaoke for the time, I started work and I'd return to write =D!hehe...Not gonna write about what I mentioned earlier, I got something on my mind which I would like to share. So, here goes!

Currently listening to :- GLAY - Missing You (random...I know)

Well, I came across a word recently, which initiated my mind to think and do a little self-searching and also a bit of reference to my past. The word I came across is 'Success'. Well, from what I read is that success is based on one's destiny, whether are you born being talented or just another average Joe like me here. The path to success or failure is already pre-determined and there is no other way but to go with the flow. Well, I disagree because of a simple fact, that's not how I see it ;p.

Without a shadow of a doubt that some people are just born being talented. Well, what can I do? That's just not for me I guess? But having that privilidge does not necessary mean a ticket towards success, I believe through hard work, we can go somewhere and be a someone who actually can do or good in something.

Well, I have a talent, at least that is what I think. I learn and grab new things easilly. For example, introduce me to a new sports, within that period of time, I can actually start playing a proper game, although being sucky at it, but hey, I PLAYED a proper game. Besides, on my musical side, I can play the whole structure of the song after a few trials, for piano its more obvious compared to my guitar skills =p. So, being 'talented', why am I still an average Joe? Simple, because I am lazy, having the ability or talent (in this case) of being a fast learner, I lack the hardworking side for success, I just can't bring myself to further upgrade myself into becoming a someone good in something. So, how can success be pre-determined and we're just plainly following the flow?

Well, that was for a bit of self-searching and I came to realize that I hardly succeed in most of the things that I am involved, well maybe I did had my fair share of accomplishments but those are most than capable of being even better. So, blame myself for not working hard...hehe

Moving on, about my past, about success. I can further prove, besides hard work being the major key to it, one's state of mind is also very important. I'd been telling people to believe themselves in times of hardship or crisis...did that even more back when I was House Captain, trying to win the elusive Inter-House Cup back in High School...The most memorable times were my final two years, Form 4 and 5.

Back in Form 4, I was sort of in my prime, after being 2nd and 3rd in the previous two years respectively, I gained some recognition and was called up for the school team's tryout and training (I made my own luck as well since some of the other better runners transfered). I trained and work hard, maybe this is the only one that I really worked hard for...Ohya, adding to the fact that, I had a mild asthma when I was young, so my stamina was never good and that was my major weakness. I threw up a couple of time due to my incompetence, but I kept it together, pushed myself through. The moment of the inter-school track & field was approaching, it was CNY so I watched my diet, won't wanna gain extra weight before the event and my family and I went to Penang, I rememeber a lot of my family members had food poisoning due to some indian food that we all consumed, yes, WE...I also had it, it was during my time in Penang, that year being my cousin's Uni graduation and the time in Penang wasn't very enjoyable, this period of time just became even more unforgettable...I recovered in time, worked on my limited amount of fitness, getting ready for the event. Until...I got struck down by a very heavy flu, my nose was literally blocked 24/7...no need to elaborate further, painful to just recall it. So yea, having not being 100% fit, I got sick, adding fuel to the fire no? I got a respectable 3 in both my 100m and 200m heats, but it could had been much more better, because, I didn't make it to the finals and the guy ended up 2nd in my 200m heat, was the eventual 3rd place in the finals...need I say more?

Nonetheless, the school's Sports Day arrived, I was in, with a taste for redemption, making my debut in the Boy's A category, where the Form 4, 5 and 6 compete. The favourite was definately from another house while my own teammate was also more than capable of beating me. Like I cared, well that's me, even knowing how slim were my chance, I'll at least give it a try before saying its impossible, at least I tried. Guess what, I made it, I crossed the finishing line 1st in my 100m sprint, albeit by being just ahead by 0.02 second. I won, the joy was overwhelming, as my trademark was to win coming from behind, I did it again! Well, there was a bit of a let down, because I came up short, by 0.1 seconds to break the record...my time was 11.71 while the record was 11.6. Oh well...As for my 200m, it was much more comfortable being 1st, still beating the favourite. Since then, people did not see me the way they used to. I earned the respect I'd got in the field of track & field. Was I talented? Nope, I gained it through hard work and a positive mind.

So, in Form 5, you would guess that I would be an automatic choice for the school team? Sadly, would be believe it? NO!!! They didn't even bother to send...when we're made up for a bunch of last minute recruits, they send a team, when we actually have an established team, having a shout of being in the finals, they did not even bother. My dreams were shattered, my shape was better than it was in Form 4, hey, I jogged almost everyday since the Sports Day, and this is what I get? I lost hope and slacked, until I finally picked myself up, it was a bit too late with Sports Day, my final one approaching fast. So, I diverted into winning as overall champion, I focused on building up the whole team with seasoned atheletes overlooking the whole training process. Well, in the end, we lifted the cup. As for me, I got 2nd in 100m but maintained an unbeaten record in 200m, albeit only for 2 years.hehe...Ohya, I was in the relay team as well, we won the 4x100m for the 2nd year running, but the main story was the 4x400m. My house's Boy's A 4x400m team have never lost for 5 years straight, my year winning would make it 6th. I was pulled into the team as my vice-captain injured himself...I was made anchor (4th runner) as, well, my style is coming from behind...I was sort of like a last resort. Our 1st runner was made for this distance, but he was at a major disadvantage as he just won his 800m moments ago, so he was tired, he ended up 4th or 5th when he passed his baton, 2nd and 3rd runner managed to cut and maintain at 2nd place. Until its up to me....yea, I sound like a hero? Tell you this, it ain't fun. The one in front of me, a seasoned long distance runner and had a 50-60m lead...as for me, you already know about my stamina right? History repeated itself for the 6th time! We won, and I came from behind again.hehe. How did I do it? I blocked out my mind over my fear of running out gas halfway through while motivating myself by saying 'the 6th year running'. I did that until I finally caught up and overtook him at the finishing 100m stretch (my territory...keke). The moment I caught up, my team (up at the stance) help their breathe as they were cheering, when I overtook, the roar that came, I can still remember until today. The rest was just to hold the lead, I did that =D. Both my thighs, shins and calfs, were crying their hearts out and I was in pain, who cares anyway, we'd won!

So yea, was that pre-determined? Was that destiny? If so, then destiny can be altered so easilly, if I had not motivated myself, I would had lost, like in 100m, I wasn't even motivated knowing my own form at the moment. So yea, there is more to being successful. It takes more than one ingredient to reaching that ultimate goal. So, let's all work hard for it yea?

Hmm, I wanted to talk about my personality as well. Remember I mentioned about DISC (a damn accurate personality test) and I am a 'C' type person? Well, basically, a 'C' type person, is being a perfectionist, a person who pays a lot of attention to little details, a person normally in the background, one who relates to the past alot and one that is quite reluctant to changes...Well, those are some of the characteristics, in which I am seeing more clearly in myself. As you can see, the above are all my past, besides that I do alot of referring to my past in other cases as well. So, proven.

Being a perfectionist, it differs in my humble point-of-view, as I would like things to go my way, as how I planned it...kinda like a perfectionist. So, in a way, proven.

Paying attention to details, I think I can categorize myself as being obsessive with this, well, its just me so its definately proven. Besides, I am always more comfortable with the security of being early. For example, when I pack my bag for anything, albeit it being a school day, a trip or even an outing, I'd go the extend of 'double' checking my bag, time after time after time...Besides, if you ever have the chance to see how I manage my playlist...some would say I have too much free time. I can go to the extend of making sure, all spellings, capital letters and spacing of each word is how it should be...That's just me =p

Reluctant to changes, in the real life I am still ok, but when I am gaming, that's where you can see. I prefer an ordered and my style of organization, if you ever played Final Fantasy, you'll understand this. The main character must be the strongest character, if he/she died in battle and did not received any experience points, causing him/her to be behing, then I'll go the distance of making sure he/she gets back in front...Go wonder how I do it...hehe. So, proven.

Well, what I actually wanna write about here is that, I do not know whether understanding my own personality through the test was a good thing or a bad one. Cause, sometimes I find myself, living the way to suit what the definition says....yea, I am scaring myself when I actually realized it. Well, hope its not like that, although some of the things I am doing now had already started way before I took the test. So, hope I am still normal =p

Hehe, wrote a lot this time around, gotta stop here =D. Hope it did not bored you to death upon reading (if you get this far that is...hehe). Peace people! Signing off~

My little box of thought

2009-05-22T20:23:00.003+08:00

Had a pretty interesting day, given the fact that classes have ended and I'd got nothing to do. But, I had a pretty good time, going on an outing with Veron and her classmates - Yvonne, Michelle and Alex, not forgetting Yip (I think that's how his name is spelled)...my bad.

So, this is how my day unfold. I went back to college, to study, to just get out of my room, to just see some faces and just like the feeling of being back in college I guess. So, it started a bit bad I if i would put it, as I had to wait a long and painful 40 minutes just for the bus to start loading and eventually leave the station =.=...Wastes a lot of my time there. Then, as I was walking to college, i received a message from Veron so I slightly increased my pace, with a bad ankle and a not so comfortable shoulder, carrying a laptop, that's a bit hard, honestly. As I reached, I woke Veron up and she did not look happy (sensed something was up), so I cut the intro and just opened the door. Soon, I found out what happened then just played some songs that she liked to hopefully cool her down a bit...

Soon, she left for class which is also when my intensive study period begins, gonna really push for my management!!! Ultimate goal is to be the top scorer but I am currently third among my lecturer's classes,which haven't include another group of students yet, so yea, the obstacle is high, but I made my own bed when I slacked of by quite a bit. So, gonna work hard for it and hope things would just turn out to be right for me this time (yea, things aren't quite going my way since the start of this year).

I for one, am quite a restless person, I can't sit down for too long doing one thing (except gaming =p). So, occasionally I move about and some trips to the wash room are also inevitable, in one of the trips, I bumped into Kelly, I was still blur then, as I slept late and really wanted to take a nap (which I did...later). I heard someone calling me, this happens to me a lot, when I THINK someone is calling me but in fact, they aren't, but this time, Kelly did called out my name. I was actually surprised to see that she is somewhat dressed in semi-formal, given that her normal 'dress code' is just sporty or casual, that's my image of her at least...So, something new to go about. She looked more feminine, a bit contradicting to her usual self which will whack and talk crap. *hehe, don't come whacking me the next time you see me yea?* Just joking lar, truth is that, she is still an active and out-going type of girl, so seeing her clad in formal clothes...really an eye opener.

As to Nat, I saw Mr.Sarno just now in campus as well *evil grin*. =D

Ohya, Its also Eugene Birthday today, so Happy Birthday to the big shot! He received an iPhone from his wife, lucky man ;p. Nothing much happening in the SSD, besides the Scholarship Ceremony, which I am not taking part in, wanted to but I decided to give myself a break and concentrate on my finals next week. Well, Ronald was on duty, so the inevitable happened, I helped him out with his stuffs...again.hehe

Wei-Ni came over for a bit, gave me some company which I needed in the SLO, but she only stayed for a while until she is really hungry and gotta eat. So, I waited for Veron, it was kinda late so I texted her which didn't went through, me being me, I started to imagine stuffs out of the blues, thought that she might had left...hehe. That's just me ^^, which is also why I chose not to read or watch any horror or violent movies...my own imagination will kill me =p.

Soon after that, as I was helping out Ronald, Veron came and on we went, to Asia Cafe for lunch and some entertainment, along with Yvonne, Michelle and Alex. Bunch of lively people, fun and comfortable to be with. This is the second official time meeting them, first being Veron's birthday, so, talked a bit and I played a game of pool with Michelle, I lost though =p...hehe. After that, time to go home lu~~~

So, after all these, you might start to think why did I name this post the way I did? Well, its actually based on the conversation which we shared at AC. So, it initiated my mind and it went racing with thoughts, well, that's me too, I may not talk a lot but I think too much. We talked about relationship in general, we got our leading male and female character of course, but I am not gonna disclose it here, basic human rights.hehe

So yea, I started to think, what do I actually want in a girl. To start things off, I am a quiet person by nature, well its just my personal views, I think I would need someone, whom I can relate to, or maybe even initiate some of the topics, well at least my mom thinks the same too. However, based on what I heard just now, such girls are those who prefer someone that can talk as well...Hmm, conflict of interest maybe? Well, my first ex was those who can really talk. So, I think that its still very subjective and more of a case by case basis lor. But hey, the most important factor, to even initiate, the feeling should be there, not just feeling, the right feeling as well. As some would say, one can never have too many crushes, but the bottom line is still that a relationship takes two to make it complete. No point clapping with one hand.

So, having said that, we'd gotta work for what we want as well and also knowing the limits and boundaries that we should never cross. Hey, if things doesn't work out in the beginning, at least can still maintain as friends right? I guess, this would be the biggest obstacle to overcome, at least for me, which is the fear of losing a friend if things get awkward. Haiz, if we do nothing, nothing would happen also, but even if we do, might make the matter worse...What to do? Hmm, about this topic, I do not really have much of a view about it lor, most of the time I would just follow the flow, I take risks, I would venture for something or someone I really think its worth the risk, sometimes calculated while some, maybe not...I let go of my latest crush, a simple way of putting it, just that as time passes on, things would start to get clearer and I realized that might not be the best interest. So~, just leave it as that...

Think I wrote enough this time, gonna go listen and sing 'Drowning' again ^^. I just love this song, gonna try it when the time comes.hehe

Just some updates

2009-05-19T20:32:00.003+08:00

Phew~ The month of May, its just not only a month of my finals, but also a month of birthday celebrations...wallet suffered a bit but that matters not, its the thought that matters! So, once again, Happy Birthday to all those May babies, namely Nat, Veron, Elaine and Nicole!

Aside from that, M.U got crowned champions of the English Premier League for the third straight season...Well, congrats to them and work harder next season Gunners. Rumours had already been spreading that Arsene Wenger might leave Arsenal for Real Madrid....NNNNOOOOO!!!!!

Hmm, I donno why, but recently I had been listening to songs in which I listened back in the days. I took some Disney's songs from Wei-Ni. The last time I really watched the cartoons was when I was still young, so I did not understood the whole meaning of the story and of course, the songs. Now, bearing some battle scars along and hopefully a bit wiser =p, I listened to the lyrics and tried to understand it. I actually found it very meaningful, kids are really encouraged to watch and listen to such songs, can really broaden their minds (at least for me).

Besides, sticking with music, I have been listening back to boy bands once again =p...hehe...Clearly, my all time favourite being the Backstreet Boys =D! Then I would think followed by N'Sync since I do not really listen to any other boy bands...Well, been listening to "This I Promise You" from N'Sync, and still find it a touching song, although last time I just liked the whole complextion of the song, without really knowing the words, but know I do =D. I also polished up "Drowning" by the BSB, some that ever heard me singing the whole song would tell you that, I am very 'busy' when attempting this song...mainly cause, I can cover all 5 vocalist's part, although not ALL, but those more significant parts...keke. Now, planning a little trip to the kareoke, gonna pratice it and then show off...hopefully would be greeted by cheers then laughters =p.

Anyway, gotta leave my dear readers with this lyrics, hope you would enjoy it as much as I do =D

"This I Promise You"
N'Sync

When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surrounds you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
When standing here all alone

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Til' the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)each loving day (each loving day)
And know this feeling won't go away (no)
Til' the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I thought
When I hear you call
Without you in my life, baby
I just wouldn't be living at all

And I will take you in my arms (I will take you in my arms)
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Til' the day my life is through
This I promise you, babe

Just close your eyes each loving day (each loving day)
And know this feeling won't go away (no)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you

Veron's 20th, Elaine's 19th

2009-05-17T03:17:00.001+08:00

On the 16th May, it was Veronica's birthday while on the 17th May, its Elaine's birthday. A bit of a back to back celebration for my case since I am one of those who cares about such stuffs. So yea, my wallet suffered a bit but that does not matter a bit to me as every cents that I spent is worth every bit of it. So Veron, don't worry about it yea?hehe. This post is dedicated to you both

So, on the 15th of May, Sue and I actually had a plan to have an early celebration for the two of them, Sue made it happened so all credits to her! I managed to got the two of them a present each, with help from my two good friends or nemesis =p. So, only thing left to do is to make sure they show up. Indeed they do, although Veron already knew what's going to happen, Elaine doesn't at that time so we went on with the initial plan. We pulled it off, albeit it being a very small celebration, but its the heart that matters the most. So yea, hope you two enjoyed it.

*Veron and Elaine, on 15th of May

Hmm, this is my first time trying to write this, so yea, bear with me.hehe. I wanna try writing about the whole journey of know each of them thus far.

Firstly, Elaine. Hmm, took notice of her back in the Council 09's first camp, she was known as the girl with the plastic surgery face...So yea, don't really know much about her until the official forming of the Council, in which she ended up as the department's secretary. A very gentle and sentimental girl and often reacts kinda slow to jokes...especially the lame ones =D. Hmm, all in all, really don't really know much of her but its only the beginning, still got alot of chances as we're in the same department. Happy 19th Birthday! Good luck in your exams as well!!! All the best!

Next up, saving the best for the last, Veron. Where do I start? Where else besides the very memorable Junior Leaders? She was the first girl that I met back in Juniors. Back then, I was still very quiet, not out of my own shell yet and there she was, being Veron. So, I was finding my way around until suddenly, the slow pressure cooker (as Sue would normally put it), finally cooked the rice. I, out of the blues, can actually be myself in front of the Council, which I hope is a good thing as I just wanna be myself in front of people, but It takes time to get myself really open to poeple, a bit too long I must admit. Now, her and Sue just can't get me to stop talking, ironic eh?

Now, albeit a bit slow, I am starting to get to know more of her and knowing her better as well. As the common link is via the council, I normally get to meet her and Sue during Council's activities or just during some time in the SLO. People in general, would naturally be in good or bad mood at times, as for Veron, I am starting to get used to it and knowing how much I can do, which is providing a pair of ears whenever needed. People might find her hard to deal with, but I just think that she is very honest with her emotions. So, do not ever try to piss her off... She also sends me back home quite frequently as my place is just located nicely on the way back to her place, along the way I'd just listen to all her stories, whichever that makes her happy or sad or just any other stories that she wanna share. Besides, she also can pack quite a punch in singing. Ohya, not forgetting that she is actually quite easy to be satisfied, simple stuffs can make her go over the moon. AND, she gets high on sugar and she'll start to get hyper and red which is also when the surrounding would not be quiet anymore.hehe

To me, Veron is just like a 'Big Sister' to me, as proclaimed by herself, she got the 'Da Jie' (big sister) aura, which is quite true as she can be quite commanding, in a good way that is. I donno why, I can also relate most of the stuffs happening around me to both her and Sue. Both of them would just come into my mind first if I got anything new or another problem, although most of the time I'll get teased and bullied by them =.=. *shrugs* So, stay true to yourself! Stay happy, cheerful....many more down the line so in short, stay Veron!hehe.

Thanks again for the invitation to your birthday party. Enjoyed myself and I know you did as well which is good to hear. Once again, Happy Belated 20th Birthday! Love ya lotz =D

*giving her speech, with a gigantic 'mic'

*birthday girl, Veron and I in T.G.I Friday's

Hope I did not miss anything, will maybe just edit some once I recall anything...Its 3 in the morning, so bear with me...hehe

1-4!

2009-05-11T01:12:00.007+08:00

Well, just because you asked for it doesn't mean I'll give you the title you asked for Nat. Yea, Arsenal got trashed yet again at home...How to even dream of winning the league when we're conceding goals for fun against big teams. 4 against Liverpool, 3 against M.U and now another 4 against Chelsea. Not gonna comment much as the score line says it all, the old Arsenal with all the possession but no end product is back it seems.

Don't wanna talk about it anymore, got economics test coming up and yet to really study for it. Gonna read through again and fight! Good luck to the others who are sitting for this test as well.

Calling upon the best performance

2009-05-03T00:12:00.005+08:00

Well, another outing, another win. How I just hope the Arsenal would perform just like this since the beginning of the season. Overall, a good performance, given the fact that most of the players are made up of the reserves. Good job Gunners. Next up, Manchester United at the Emirates, Stadium. Well, we're a goal down but Man U had never won at our stadium before so we still got every chance of making the final!!! Which is why this title is called calling upon the best performance. May the best team wins the semi, but I would hope that we can pull through.

It was Natalie's birthday yesterday (2nd of May), celebrated her birthday for her in college then off we went to Sunway Pyramid. Had dinner there, crap a bit and laughed quite a bit as well. Just that we didn't managed to go to Amp Square, as the idea of going there has been up since the beginning of the trip, well we didn't go because not all agreed to go. When we did eventually, the rates shot up like crazy so we ended up not going. Well, will just go with the council then. Happy Birthday Natalie!

Ohya, yesterday, 2nd of May, was the council's first welfare trip! Organized by the Department of Special Task, headed by Wei-Ni with support from Nicole and Siew Lee. Good job girls!!! Although only 9 of us ended up going, but the trip was enjoyable and actually 9 of us, was just nice given that we had our problems on the way to the orphanage located in Puchong, will tell you why later.

Well, I arrived at college a few minutes before eight and Wei-Ni had just arrived as well. So, we walked to the SSD just to know that the sliding door is locked. So, I went to the security and asked them to kindly open the door for us. They did but who knows, they only allow me to go in and take the stuffs out...WTH!? We're leaving at 8.30 and you expect me to carry everything out and wait at the cafeteria? Why can't you just leave the bloody door open...Stupid. Moving on, people started to arrive as well, they were namely Jovan, Sarah, Brenda, Kelly, Azryn, Nicole and Siew Lee. When we were loading the stuffs onto Azyrn's car, the alarm of the CIMB atm machine rang like nobody's business, with two technicians there working...My eardrums were literally vibrating with the noise...

Ah, just to think that we can finally depart peacefully, another thing happened... Siew Lee's car's tyre got punctured...Oh..just great huh. So, Jovan and I went to work, changing the tyre on the spot, no choice what. First time ever changing a tyre and it was a success! Thanks to the tips by my dad all this while.hehe. So, Siew Lee said "it seemed that we're not destined to go there". Quite true considering the fact that, I had a long trip trying to find the place, they had another long trip just to find the spot again the day before and not this puncture tyre...BUT, we pulled through and on we went. Now, do you see why 9 people is just nice? Because, from the initial 3 cars driving, we only had 2 in the end with the rear packed with our stuffs for the orphanage...Blessing in disguise.

We had fun at the orphanage, played games and learnt origami along with the kids. The kids are quite nice, easy to get along. But all good things must come to an end. It was soon time to leave. We exhanged thanks and goodbyes. We left, with a smile on our faces, back to college, already looking forward for the next trip. Once again, good job girls!

Back to winning ways

2009-04-26T22:43:00.004+08:00

Yep, Arsenal won just now, a 2-0 win over Boro after the breathe taking but disappointing draw at Anfield, we're back among the 3 points club.hehe. Arshavin scoring all 4 goals in that match, received a standing ovation wherever he went around the pitch. Well, I would too. Well, today he din't score any but after the 4 goals, who would blame him? But, he looked jaded or maybe even lazy towards the end as he just did not run much...hmm, injured? Well, not much to write about, just that happy with the results. Keep building a good and strong foundation to beat MU!!! Go Gunners!

Well, the 'Amazing G-Race 2009' has come to an end, another chapter written and closed. Alot happened, some good ones, quite a number of bad ones. Gonna write about in another post, not really in the mood to write about it yet, digesting what happened before I let it all out. Well, hope this can act as a good lesson to not only me, but also my team. Well, I accept all the critics as I think we deserved it. Oh well, we all have low times, I felt down, now still trying to pick myself up. I'll be back and fight for another day. Feeling a bit demotivated, but I wont quit, I'll be putting down a lot of good times ahead if I do. So, still digesting...

We're Out

2009-04-19T02:17:00.005+08:00

Yes, Arsenal lost to Chelsea at the semi-finals on the FA cup. A draw would be fair based on the performance of both teams. However, Chelsea created their chances and took them when it mattered. So, Arsenal could only have themselves to blame.

From what I see is that, its almost like de javu, two years ago in the Carling Cup finals, Walcott scored first but Chelsea came out winners. The exact score, 2-1. That's just coincidence I guess. But one very important factor was the starting 11 selection. Why on earth did both Nasri and Arshavin left on the bench!? and why replace both van Persie and Adebayor out before the game end? Mr.Wenger, please go back and look yourself in the mirror, how do you expect to win with both key offensive players sitting on the bench at the start of the game.

You know what, in every Arsenal's game, I'll have this feeling when the team is either ending up not winning, as in a draw or even a defeat. Unless a lucky break pops up like penalty. It was like that as well, even though after Walcott scored the opener. Guess, this time sadly, I am proven right again. Well, the defence was very nervy with a very nervous goalkeeper, Fabianski. The attack wasn't really into it as well. Only Walcott was the main threat but his crossing let the team down. All in all, as i mentioned, we only got ourselves to blame. Congratulations Chelsea...

Clarification...

2009-04-15T22:57:00.002+08:00

Hmm, getting a lot of attention due to the previous post that I had published. Guess that's just human nature. Hey come on, its not like I'm going to do something about it, its just my personal opinion or expression or whatever you wanna call it. Plus, in a way, its kinda forbidden to venture forward...which is one of my main fears of having such thing happening, because I had this experience before as well, back in NS =.=. Just my luck huh? As for those who already know without me telling, kindly, I am begging you, to please leave her alone, wanna tease me or what, I don't mind but please do not simply spread around or start picking on her. You know who you are...

Anyway, nothing much happened lately, I missed the game between Wigan and Arsenal, where the young Gunners came from behind to win 1-4. I missed the match simply because there was no live coverage or even delay...WTF!? Its the Champions League next, at home, hosting Villareal, although we have one away goal on our side, but judging from what happened at the bridge, anything can happen in the world of football. So, GO GUNNERS!!!

Lastly, before I go, I really need to say this, my internet connection is almost like non-existence, can come online but can't do anything, super slow wei!!! Can't even log into my MSN, not even loading the Facebook's home page!? AND, to add fuel into the fire some more, I need to do research for my ISU (in short, big project)!!! ARGH, bloody connection which I do not think would recover at all since the contract is coming due on June. So, I guess I'll have to live through the next two months like this. =.=

Its happening again!?

2009-04-11T21:40:00.003+08:00

My mind is playing games with me again. I'd gone through it twice and its still coming back! Why can't I just live my life as how I had been living during the first 16 years of my life?......yes, I think am attracted to someone again...Every time this happens, everything will be on the line, including friendship. Am I willing to put it all to the test once more? Am I even qualified to be in a relationship? More importantly, am I even worth for the girl? Me being me, she can definitely find a much better guy compared to me....Oh well, I guess I'll just keep my thoughts to myself. Can't help it, just really need to let it out............Just let time do its job I presume *shrugs*

About Me

2009-04-11T14:47:00.003+08:00

Its another weekend, a period of time where I normally would be cut off from my friends or anything happening around out there unless I am in college or in MSN. Yea, sad case, I do not really go out, mainly cause I can't find people to go out with or I am just plain lazy because need to take bus. So, here I am, writing here with my electronic buddy as my company.haha =D

Some asked me why my blog is full of words and no pictures. Well, I do not really like taking solo pictures or a.k.a camwhore. So, unless I got 'candid'ed, then its not likely for me to upload any picture of me here. Even if got pictures, It'll be of very limited number and not all got me inside...I donno why, I just feel a bit weird in front of the camera at times, while at times I am ok with it. *shrugs*

Hmm, I had been backtracking through my life recently, going through all the memories I have. The past always play games with my mind, whether its making me happy, sad or at times making me feel like an idiot =D.

I had been thinking of my life back in National Service. I had no regrets whatsoever going there, except for the part of having my hair shaved off T.T. Well, it was during that period of my life where I discover some part of myself better. I took up many challenges and explore new grounds which I never thought I could even do. I went for a spot among the 'Rank Holders', even though I had no past experience in this field at all. Plus, being who I am, my level of BM isn't great and my usual talk will also lag at times, I still went for it, with the intention of learning in my mind. I went through many lows during that period, being the laughing stock and stuffs by the whole camp. I broke down, yes, I am not afraid to admit that, but I believe that made me stronger and ignited my desire to succeed. In the end, I did, I fullfilled my own expectation, being the 'Ketua Kompany' of Bravo, which I have to say, was where I met some great people and spent a memorable time. Well, I left camp early, got my own reasons and I missed the shooting range, which is some of the disappointment back in camp I guess. But, I broke down again during my farewell speech to my company, such wonderfull people they are.

This learning curve will forever hold an important spot in my heart. I even had some funny moments as well. I was actually mistaken for being a Malay by another fellow Chinese, mainly due to the fact that, I represented my company as an emcee, conducted in BM. This is ironic as I donno whether to be happy or sad...haha. Besides, I learnt some commands in marching and of cause the actual march as well. I even discover that I could shout louder that I actually think I could, albeit I generate my voice from my throat rather than my diaphragm. Above all, I actually learnt to smile back in the days in NS. =D

*a picture does indeed speaks a thousand words, taken during the company photo session. This is not the actual one, its was taken by one of the trainer, a candid shot.*

* the picture of the Rank Holders, not the actual one as well. Great people.*

Now, back to the main topic. My past. My friends play a major role in my life as well, who doesn't? Well, its now entering the final phase of my time in CIMP. Made a few wonderful friends here as well but its soon coming to an end, not the friendship, being in CIMP together. Most probably, I'll be seeing them in Uni as well, since we're going to the same Uni but how frequent we can meet is still another mystery.

Next, definately I would write about my time being in Juniors and Council! The time i had and going to have here, I would not trade it for anything else in this world we are living in. I treasure the moments, albeit high or low, the friendship and the togetherness under one roof where we can look out for each other. I just love being in such organization or student body. I can't imagine my college life now is if I have not went and enquire about the Junior Leadership Programme back in July last year. I guess that was my calling, for no reasons, after the orientation, I went straight to SSD to ask about the programme. As a result, here I am today! I thank Jason and Jack for giving me a chance to be part of the Juniors. I thank the board of advisors for having me back.

*the formal shot. The beginning of something great!*

*this is more like us =D!*

*Last but certainly not least, the beginning of all great things in college. During our big project, Freshie Nite 09', RetroTechno.*

Yea, you might say that I sometimes live in the past. But I don't think so, I take my past as reference and I will continue to live the way I had been all this while.hehe

Time for some random cases about me.
Firstly, people say I am quiet. Well, I am at times. However, I mainly deal with people, with the way they deal with me. If they are crazy, I can be crazy, if their are those gentle type, I'll be gentle with them as well. If they prefer playing rough, I would either back off to go head on. So yea, I am quiet misunderstood at times and I don't think I am a hypocrite for being like this. I am just merely dealing with people with different approach.

Next, I really CANNOT dance. I can just move along with the beat. Some of my friends seen me during RetroTechno, I was just moving along with the beat, NOT dancing =.=

I sing too^^! But only for myself, because I suck in it :p. The washroom was my stage back in my home. =D.

Anyway, I guess thats all this time, if I missed out anything, will include it in my next post^^. Till then, take care everyone!

Commitment? Stupidity? Selflessness?

2009-04-07T19:56:00.004+08:00

Yea, that's me... Working my ass off 90% of the time...Well, am I to blame to take on board all these? I just can't bring myself to not care and wait for the stuffs that are needed to be done, get done. More so when things are behind the schedule set before hand! ARRGGHH!

Patience is virtue, take this as a test Tat Yang. Things will surely get better!

Tired

2009-04-07T00:29:00.004+08:00

After working out in the gym last Sunday, I am still feeling the effects now, my whole body aching thus restricting some of my usual movement. Ouch man, but with pain proves that I worked my body out a little. Gotta work out some more, been out of the business for far too long. Hope this time I can hang on to it much longer! hehe.

Well, what better way to relax and chill, listening to some truly classic songs? I am totally in love with some classic songs, they are indeed, as I typed a few times, CLASSIC!!! Nice! Well, I would like to share the lyrics I found online of the songs I'd been listening to lately. Hope you all would also enjoy the songs as much as I do. Peace!

ABBA
Dancing Queen

You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen

Friday night and the lights are low
Looking out for the place to go
Where they play the right music, getting in the swing
You come in to look for a king
Anybody could be that guy
Night is young and the musics high
With a bit of rock music, everything is fine
Youre in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance...

You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen

Youre a teaser, you turn em on
Leave them burning and then youre gone
Looking out for another, anyone will do
Youre in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance...

You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen

*feel like moving along the beat when I listen to this =D*

Air Supply
All Out of Love
(graham russell, clive davis)

Im lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesnt really know, doesnt really know

(chorus)
Im all out of love, Im so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
Im all out of love, what am I without you
I cant be too late to say I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
Im reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I cant hold on?
Theres no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or Ill be gone, Ill be gone

(chorus)
Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
(repeat chorus)

*just CLASSIC!*

Bee Gees
Too Much Heaven

Chorus:
Nobody gets too much heaven no more
Its much harder to come by
Im waiting in line
Nobody gets too much love anymore
Its as high as a mountain
And harder to climb

Oh you and me girl
Got a lot of love in store
And it flows through you
And it flows through me
And I love you so much more
Then my life..i can see beyond forever
Evrything we are will never die
Lovings such a beautiful thing
Oh you make my world.. a summer day
Are you just a dream to fade away

Chorus..

You and me girl got a highway to the sky
We can turn away from the night and day
And the tears we had to pay(u hade to cry)
Youre my life..
I can see a new tomorrow
Evrything we are will never die
Lovings such a beautiful thing
When you are to me, the light above
Made for all to see our presious love

Chorus..

Love is such a beautiful thing
You make my world a summer day
Are you just a dream to fade away

Chorus..

Nobody gets too much love anymore
Its as wide as a river and harder to cross

Chorus..(repeat and fade)

*took me some time to like this song, but it was more than worth it!*

My humble view on matters

2009-04-05T18:55:00.004+08:00

Hmm, been wanting to write, but got nothing to write =.=. Oh well, so i just thought of writing about the matters surrounding us from my humble point of view, so please don't take things seriously or get offended ok? Different people got different perspective right?

Alright, to start thing off, how about with a profession. I would like to point out that those being the streets sweeper, rubbish collector, janitor or even those construction workers. These are the jobs that my mom used to tell me that are for those who did not want to study when they were young, in getting me to study when I was young. Well, yea, back in the days, I did not look up to them and sometimes even laughed at them. My sincere apologies for that, as now I realized how much of a difference they can make.

Just imagine, if they are no street sweepers around, how would our street in town will turn out to be like?

If there are no rubbish collectors around, where would our waste products end up at? By the streets? In our front/back yard?

If there are no construction workers, working under the hot sun even though it may be our public holidays, where are we going to get our shelter?

Now, don't tell me that, in the future these profession would also require high qualification? Even so, how many of us would actually consider doing such work everyday? Well, honestly, I don't so which is why I am grateful for the fact that we got such people around us. They are also human, so why not give them the respect that they deserve? Just a simple 'Thanks' when they come and collect our plates or just a simple smile when we see them. Show them we appreciate them, instead of discriminating them. Just the other day, the cleaning lady in college came and collect the used plates, I just said 'Thanks' and she smiled back. So yea, these little things can brighten up a person's day. Make saying 'Thanks' a habit, you wont lose anything in doing so.

Besides, I would also like to point out the way girls talk at times. In general, girls are more sensitive to stuffs when guys are not, which is why guys usually get an ear full from their girl friend for not understanding her. Well, here is my view:

Firstly, I just do not understand when girls talk, in a way that 'No' means 'Yes' and vice versa. Its like...come on, why can't you just tell me what you want or what you don't want? Instead of beating around the bushes and in the end I get an ear full for not knowing what you want...

Secondly, girls always like to say, 'We're girls, you wont understand'...Instead of saying that, why don't you enlighten me instead of saying I won't understand. I want to understand so I won't repeat the same mistakes, but no, she would just either cry or just refuse to talk...What a wonderful world huh....Maybe the explanation that guys 'XY' and girls 'XX' does make sense. A guy's 'Y', got less one 'leg'(whatever you call it) compared to 'X'. *shrugs*

Next, like I mentioned, girls would just refuse to talk whenever they are angry and expect the guy to try to cheer them up or find a solution. HOW IN THE WORLD IS THAT POSSIBLE WHEN IN WHATEVER I DO I DON'T GET ANY FEEDBACKS? Think about it!

*Note : I write based on experience*

Hmm, ran out of ideas suddenly, so I'll just stop here this time. Peace!

Back with a BANG!

2009-04-05T00:23:00.005+08:00

Another win for the Arsenal! Oh yea, revenge is sweet. A 2-0 win over Manchester City, not a bad result but definitely could be better but nonetheless, a win is still a win. Overall, a solid team performance but its more like a bitter sweet week for the Arsenal, the return of big players on the attacking front, Fabregas, Adebayor and Walcott boosted our attack however, we lost van Persie, Diaby and Eduardo during the international break...Well, at least they still won with the lost of these players. With the introduction of Adebayor back into the squad, more quality was certainly injected up front if compared to Bendtner, mainly cause Adebayor got better first touch! Fabregas did ok, maybe need a little more time to be passing through the eye of a needle and as for Walcott, gotta be more careful, cant be running into other players and getting hurt. Well, enough of writing about them, Villareal is next. COME ON GUNNERS!!!

Besides, I am back too^^! Back here to write...hehe. Had been busy of late, and when I feel like writing, nothing could be generated from my brain, guess I am running out of my brain juice O.o...Oh well, been busy planning for 'The Amazing G-Race', work is still in progress, could had been much more nearer to the finishing line but due to my poor planning and leadership, we're still not quite close yet. What were you thinking Tat Yang!? But I am very fortunate to have a group of wonderful and very supportive people as my group members. What more could I ask for? I felt that I let them down, let myself down as well for failing to lead them, we could had covered more ground with the quality that they shown through meetings. So yea, you looking at the cause, right here...*sigh* Get your acts together Tat Yang!!! *I am lost, in need of direction to lead me on so that I wont be putting the effort and hard work of others to waste*

Well, something weird is happening to me recently, as for a coward like me who is a very anti-horror/violent themed movies/books/materials, had been reading the synopsis of the 'Saw' series O.o...what in the world is getting into me!

Well, yesterday, went back to college, with the generous(insurance, so next time can ask her again :P) Kelly Ho giving me a ride there. Thanks! Well, the program went well, but could be alot better if the crowd was more into the whole thing, but cant expect much also, unless its a council thing.hehe. Got some pictures taken, mostly by Jeremy but I'd got some too^^. *wont be uploaded this time, as the pictures' resolution is too huge and takes forever to be uploaded, will certainly upload the next time. Stay tune*

Well, just wanna end with another lyrics. This one by Nevermore, Final Product, its about the media, see whether you agree or not. Chaoz

Final Product

The media loves the latest tragic suicide
They exploit it, then package it and profit from the people who die
Look at the world, look at the hell, look at the hate that we've made
Look at the final product, a world in slow decay
I'm told that all your seeds are black
I've learned the question in unanswered and opaque

We're witnessing a famine of the innocent
Did they die for religion or the government?
Because if your god won't do, their god will starve you
Look at the world, look at the hell, look at the hate that we've made
Look at the final product, a world in slow decay
I'm told that all your seeds are black
I've learned the question is unanswered and opaque

There are those that believe the world is ending again
That impending Armageddon is inevitable and waiting

The last survivor barely breathing
Should I run or will I fall? How have I survived at all?

I've told that all your seas are black
I've learned the question is unanswered and opaque

We live in a time of revolution
We swim the silent seas of sanity gone

Hair Cut

2009-03-30T00:18:00.004+08:00

Just had a hair cut yesterday, yes, yesterday as it is Monday morning now =D. hehe, its lame I know. Well, after every hair cut that I had, most of the time, I'll like it a little or just do not really like it. Only on rare occasion, I'll like my new hair cut. As for this time, I am really speechless about it, not knowing whether to like it or not, maybe takes time to get used to it...I got my front hair cut, which kinda make me looks like an idiot or an innocent kid....Oh well, you'll be the judge.

My parents are around, until this Wednesday. Hope they enjoy their stay in my room.hehe. My mom helped me to clean up a bit, now my room looks more presentable ^^. Thanks mom! Well, everything got its pros and cons, with my parents around, I'll be under parental control again, so can't sleep too late or simply go out. Well, at least until Wednesday ;)

Not much to write about recently, unless I fill up my blog with council stuffs all the way, wont want that as well. But, this must be here. Club and Society Recruiment Week went well, thanks for your effort and hard work! Really appreciate it!!

One down, more to come

2009-03-23T22:21:00.004+08:00

Sat for my Economics test today. Can't say I did well, but I managed to finish the whole thing with 15 minutes to spare while some couldn't not finish it. So, keeping my fingers crossed...

Tomorrow though, is the OSSLT mock test, which starts in the morning and everything will end at 3 for me. Hopefully earlier, gotta go help out at the booth!

My physical state now is terrible, my whole body is aching and now my right eyes is beginning to get swollen...=.=! Sneezing, its still going on...ARRGGHH!! Get well soon!

Tomorrow is finally the event. Hope it goes well. I am sure it will...Nothing much to write dy...AARRGGHHH!!!

Busy week coming up

2009-03-22T21:15:00.005+08:00

sheeehh....of all the days, I am having my economics test tomorrow and OSSLT on Tuesday. Been struggling to get myself to really study, no motivation at all!!! and when I finally settled down, I realized I am sick, ggggrreeaaattt...struck by a fever and my nose is running again..joints hurting a bit. Argh, hate being sick.

Besides my economics test tomorrow, its also the Club and Society Recruitment Week this week. Now, I just hope I can call up my remaining strength to see it through, its the first event and I am already in such conditions, hope this wont happen again for the future events to come.

Good luck to all in the economics test tomorrow, but I think I would really need it. All the best!

Quindruple?

2009-03-22T03:41:00.004+08:00

Quindruple you say? I say not so fast Manchester Unite, based on the last two results alone, there is still miles to cover before you lay your hands on the titles still up for grabs. Another lost for Man Utd which made it two in a row! YES!!! haha. To make things better, Chelsea were also beaten. Now, its down to Liverpool to catch Man Utd.

To make things even sweeter. Arsenal won!!! *woot*. Fortifying their stance on 4th spot with a 3-1 win away to Newcastle United. All in all, a good team performance, show mental strength after Martins level things up straight after the opener. Come on Gunners!

Nasri, Bendtner and Diaby - Thanks for the goals!

van Persie - Didn't had his scoring shoes on but created two of the three goals. Kudos!

Things are looking brighter for Arsenal, just 8 more games to go, focus!

Updating

2009-03-21T21:39:00.014+08:00

Wow, just cause I didn't update for quite some while, been hearing some of my friends who asked me to update my blog...hehe, my blog so laku meh?

Well, something regarding about the council then. Hmm, Club and Society Recruitment Week is just around the corner, preparations are being made but more can and still need to be done. Some degree of tension is definitely building up! Bring it on I say..hehe. However, our first ever event haven't really started yet and some had already said its too much, hope they can change that mind set and march towards success!!hehe

Hmm, I got nothing to write about lately, so I just post up some pictures from the warga project^^. Enjoy...

*the english team in action, can spot me?hehe

*the BM team

*the english team minus Ronald

*the BM team

*with Ms.Lee

*EVERYBODY!

*Posers...

*Ding Yan pushing my head...=.=

For more pictures on Project Warga, can visit Regina's, Sharon's and Veron's blog too^^. Links provided to the left. Ohya, in Facebook too^^.

Last but not least. Happy 18th Birthday to Zulfan Ellyson!!!

A Chapter Closed

2009-03-15T19:34:00.005+08:00

This morning, was the final showcase for the Project Warga that I had wrote about in the previous post. The presentations during the finals were pretty good. For Sunway University College, the host, both teams were in however only the English team won while the BM team got second place. We couldn't get a double kill. Oh well, at least for the BM team, they lost to a really worthy champion, that I have to admit. Having sad that, the BM could have won in any other given day! A chapter closed...

Oh well, since the project is over, the Club and Society Recruitment Week is just around the corner. Headed by the Director of Sports, our good friend Ronald, I believe the council will start with a blast with this first assignment. With the end of Project Warga, my semester will kick start again, gonna enjoy the remaining time left in CIMP while giving my all to the COUNCIL!!! Can't wait to embark on this journey.

The end of something is the beginning of another for me I hope...hehe

Silence~~~

2009-03-15T02:23:00.005+08:00

Hmm, its weird, after a Manchester United game that their proud fans are so quiet about it, not boasting about their achievements. Why I wonder...Well, the solution is easy, they were TRASHED! at their own theater. Boast some more, now I shall see what say you all. Its not wrong to be celebrating but there is a limit to it, the media, I believe is to blame to in a way over rating the Man Utd team. I have to admit, they are good. Now look what you have done for yourself my dear friends who are Man Utd fan, you filled yourself so full of hot air that you raise so high up into the sky, now the hot air is gone, expect a long way fall to the ground. That must hurt right?

Anyway, I shall keep my comments to myself for now, wont want tonnes of Man Utd fan flooding into the comment box. More so being an Arsenal fan, where I donno why Man Utd fans just like to insult that Arsenal sucks, well ain't that slapping yourself too? If we suck so much, with you losing to us, what does that make of you? Think about it ok?

Anyway (again), hehe, another fine outing for the Gunners! Things are looking brighter at this moment of time, with players coming back into the squad soon. Good timing but would prefer you guys to never been out in the first place. We beat Blackburn 4-0 at the Emirates. Not a bad results but could certainly be better if Bendtner had taken some of his chances. Oh well, a good game all in all but I would really like to shout this out loud - ARSHAVIN HAS ARRIVE!!!

My personal view :-
Walcott - Might had been shaken from the initial tackle, get well soon yea? Can't afford to lose you again.

Bendtner - .........just take your chances next time.

Eboue - A late substitute but scored two goals...Hmm, I donno what to take from this, but thanks.

Arshavin - Welcome to Arsenal FC!

FINALS!!!

2009-03-14T15:27:00.004+08:00

Before I start with my post, would like to share some interesting facts. Did you realize that yesterday was a Friday and its 13th? Well, this two combined are never a good omen, but I just take it as it is, as I don't really buy into all these myths. According to an article I read yesterday, there are actually three Friday the 13th throughout 2009, one was back in January or February, cant remember, the second was yesterday while the third is somewhere around in November I believe. Hehe, just another food for thought.

Anyway, in the Warga Project, both Sunway University College's teams had make it into the finals!!! YAY!!! Having done that, the competition is just beginning, go SUNWAY!!! Which ever team that win, all for one, one for all right? We're united as one. hehe...

Forever Love

2009-03-12T18:46:00.004+08:00

Let me guess, by just reading the title, I believe most of you would think of a Lee Hom's song right? Sadly, I am not here to write about that or writing anything about love for myself. Its none other then the legendary X Japan's ballad.

I would have to say that this wonderful song almost pass me by me as I paid no attention to it all this while. I don't know why, maybe it just didn't strike me hard enough for me to fall for it last time. As time moved on, my affection towards anything has grown, I start to feel more, gain more and experience more. Just that other day, i don't know why and how this song started to play. Maybe its fate for me to listen to the song. I let it play, listening to it, being affected by it until tears almost started to flow down my cheek. Its that touching. It may not be for any other people. However, knowing some history of the band and what they have been through. It struck me pretty hard. Enough said, I'll leave with the lyrics here. Hope if you all ever come across this song in the future, do not hesitate, give it a try^^.

Forever Love

mou hitori de arukenai
toki no kaze ga tsuyosugite
AH... kizu tsuku koto nante
nareta hazu dakedo ima wa

AH... kono mama dakishimete
nureta mama no kokoro wo
kawari tsuzukeru kono toki ni
kawaranai ai ga aru nara

WILL YOU HOLD MY HEART
namida... uketomete
mou... kowaresou na ALL MY HEART

FOREVER LOVE, FOREVER DREAM
afureru omoi dake ga
hageshiku setsunaku jikan wo umetsukusu
OH! TELL ME WHY
ALL I SEE IS BLUE IN MY HEART

WILL YOU STAY WITH ME
kaze ga sugisaru made
mata... afuredasu ALL MY TEARS

* FOREVER LOVE, FOREVER DREAM
kono mama soba ni ite
yoake ni, furueru, kokoro wo dakishimete

OH! STAY WITH ME

AH... subete ga owareba ii
owari no nai kono yoru ni
AH... ushinau mono nante
nanimo nai anata dake

* repeat

AH... WILL YOU STAY WITH ME
kaze ga sugisari made
mou dare yori mo soba ni

FOREVER LOVE, FOREVER DREAM
kore ijou arukenai
OH! TELL ME WHY, OH! TELL ME TRUE
oshiete ikiru imi wo

FOREVER LOVE, FOREVER DREAM
afureru namida no naka
kagayaku kisetsu ga eien ni kawaru made

FOREVER LOVE...

Forever Love

(translation)

I'll never walk alone again, the winds of time are to strong.
Ah, it's that what you hurts, which you'll have to live with...
Ah, this tight embrace, and this burning, unchanged heart.
In this ever changing time, love will never change.

Will you hold my heart? Stop flowing tears.
Again, all of my heart is broken....

Forever love, forever dream
Only flowing emotions,bury this intense,
trying, meaningless times.
Oh tell me why ... all I see is blue in my heart.

Will you stay with me? Wait until after the wind passes,
all my tears are still flowing...

Forever love, forever dream Stay with me like this.
Hold my trembling heart in the dawn.
Oh stay with me...

Ah, everything good seems to be ending,
in this unending night.
Ah, what else would you lose if nothing at all matters.

Forever love, forever dream, stay with me like this.
Hold my trembling heart in the dawn.

Oh will you stay with me... Until the wind passes,
stay with me again.

Forever love, forever dream, I'll never walk this path.
Oh tell me why, tell me true, teach me how to live.
Forever love, forever dream, within flowing tears
Bright seasons will forever change again and again ....
forever love...

Happenings

2009-03-12T15:15:00.004+08:00

Its Thursday afternoon, halfway through my semester break, halfway through my rotting period as well. At least I'll have something to do during the weekends, so things aren't all that bad.hehe

Well, wanna talk about last night. I finally made it to futsal with Ronald and Ken. Had some trouble finding it at first as I went to the old field first before finding the intended destination. My bad :p. Anyway, I thoroughly enjoyed myself last night. Having not involved in sports for quite some while, my stamina was at an all time low. Nonetheless, I had fun, I think I did well as I had been doing all the defensive work all this while, I just stayed at the back most of the time. Gonna work on my fitness some more and be back in the game next week for some more actions. Can't wait!

Besides, my beloved Arsenal had made it into the Champions League, albeit through penalties. Well, considering how young is the team, to have that mental strength is tough. So yea, you guys did well. Continue the march towards the final! I believe our chances are looking up as the returning players are getting back to their usual level and the other injured players are coming back soon. Come on Gunners!

Tuesday's Review

2009-03-10T21:30:00.004+08:00

Well, nothing much really happened today. Went to watch 'Watchmen' with my friends, namely, Aki, Nadya, Ern Yi, Alyssa and Natalie. Not a bad movie although I wasn't expecting what I saw....Should have done more research before I watch another movie...*phew*. All in all, the movie is not bad but to all that plan to watch it, make sure you know what you're getting into first yea? Don't end up like me...hehe :p

Besides, I also went to college to work on the Warga Project, which is going to be presented this weekend. Come support yea^^! However, things didn't well all too well for me. I slammed my fingers on the bloody ( its bloody cause if left cuts on my fingers so I guess will be some blood? ) Student Leaders' Room...sheeeh...What a way to start the day huh? Besides, I lost my bottle!!! How could that happend!? Damn pissed at myself, don't wanna talk about it anymore...haiz

Signing out...chaoz

Its Monday...

2009-03-09T13:42:00.004+08:00

Yea...As the title suggest, its Monday. Which also means that my CIMP semester break is had officially started. *sigh* This is one holiday which I do not look forward to. I don't know why and I also don't know how I lost interest towards holidays, while back in primary and secondary school years, I could thought of anything just not to go to school :p...sorry mom.

Hmm, yea, one of the reasons why I don't like holidays nowadays is that, I have literally, nothing to do...just sit in front of my laptop the whole day, rotting... Back in my hometown, Kuching, at least moving around is easier compared to how it is here and more importantly, I have more friends there who can travel around too^^. The situation now here is that, I have to wait for a few bloody bus who at times, arrive super early or if not super late (hey, more than an hour I was waiting for that bloody bus ok?). So yea, just the transportation can kill my mood of going out at times.

Besides, I don't know why, whenever I tried to ask my friends out, Its either I chose the wrong timing all the time or they just simply can't or don't wanna make it. Something wrong with me maybe? So, I give up in planning for an outings with my friends, for now at least, I will still plan if I really feel like having an outing with my friends, as for now, I'll only go out if people ask me to, tired also everytime have to change my schedule cause of one or two living souls then end up canceling the whole trip =.=...

Hmm, I have been updating quite frequently over the past three days since I started this new blog. Hope I can keep this up! Guess I found myself a new 'friend', I can come here when I am lonely, sad, happy or however I am feeling at that very moment, my blog will listen to me and show how I am feeling by allowing me to post my writing on it. Thank you bloggie^^.

Guess I'll sign out with a verse this time. Its actually a part of the lyrics of the song by Michael Jackson - Heal the World. "Stop existing and start living"

Tagged

2009-03-09T00:00:00.004+08:00

Well, actually, i got tagged in Facebook, and i always reply to this kinda stuffs (only when I feel like it). Besides, I did them before so I'll just post it here, still its a reply right? ;)

Firstly,
~Just Cause.. tagged by Veron and Sue

1. Put your iTunes/Winamp/Media Player on shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
5. Tag at least 10 friends
6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because fun pointlessness spreads like a virus.

If someone says "Is this okay?" you say?
Kotaro Oshio - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence ( =.= )

How would you describe yourself?
Ayumi Hamasaki - Hope and Pain ( true in some sense lor )

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Nevermore - The Heart Collector ( wow, to that extreme arr? )

How do you feel today?
Nevermore - The Sacrifice ( I am still alive *phew* )

What is your life’s purpose?
Tamaki Nami - New World ( no comment )

What is your motto?
Tamaki Nami - Results ( Do I really emphasize on results??? )

What do your friends think of you?
Dream Theater - The Big Medley ( no comment )

What do you think of your parents?
Chris Daughtry - All These Lives ( ??? )

What do you think about very often?
John Petrucci - Glasgow Kiss ( I never even been there )

What is 2 + 2?
Vanessa Amorosi - Absolutely Everybody ( Oh yeah~ )

What do you think of your best friend?
Guns' and Roses - Sweet Child of Mine ( Hmm, I only want my parents! )

What do you think of the person you like?
GLAY - Ikite Tsuyosa ( donno what this means )

What is your life story?
Mami Kawada - Another Planet ( I don't exist on Earth? *gasp* )

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Do as Infinity - Tooku Made ( donno what this means too )

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
GLAY - Tomadoi ( donno what this means again... )

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Luna Sea - IN SILENCE ( I don't dance to begin with... )

What will they play at your funeral?
Mago de Oz - Satania ( a song about the internet? I died of overdose of the net? )

What is your hobby/interest?
Backstreet Boys - Get Down ( sounds wrong in a way )

What is your biggest fear?
Scar Symmetry - Slaves of the Subliminal ( being a slave is bad enough )

What is your biggest secret?
Final Fantasy VII Advent Children (soundtrack) - Beyond the Wasteland ( go there and search if interested =D )

What do you think of your friends?
Final Fantasy X (soundtrack) - Hassin ( take-off/launch? )

What will you post this as?
Ayumi Hamasaki - Not Yet ( makes no sense )

Next, tagged by Sue
Rules

It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

Have Fun!!

1. What is your name:
Tat Yang

2. A four Letter Word:
*TOOT*

3. A boy's Name:
Teh Tat Yang =D

4. A girl's Name:
Tanya

5. An occupation:
Trash Collector

6. A color:
Teal

7. Something you wear:
T-Shirt

8. A food:
Tangerine

9. Something found in the bathroom:
Toilet seat

10. A place:
Toilet

11. A reason for being late:
Traffic Jam

12. Something you shout:
*TOOT*!!!

13. A movie title:
Three Little Piglets =D

14. Something you drink:
Tea

15. A musical group:
The Pussycat Dolls

16. An animal:
Tiger

Not gonna tag anyone, but if anyone wanna try this out, feel free to do so =D. Have fun.

Come on GUNNERS!!!

2009-03-08T23:36:00.006+08:00

FINALLY!!! *huge sigh of relief*. My beloved Arsenal FC, finally you are showing some threat up front. About time!!! Although some may argue that its only a Championship side, Burnley, but still, I think we found the way to put the game to bed. Great performance (for me at least). ONWARDS!!! TO WEMBLEY!!!

Well, some key factors are vital in the 3-0 win over Burnley just now. I would like to voice my opinion :-

Vela - If you can produce finished like that, you got a bright future with Arsenal. Be more composed!

Eduardo - The survivor, the captain of the day. Even though you were out of action for so long with such a horrible injury from a nightmare tackle. You're back with goals!! Get fit soon Edu.

Walcott - More attacking flare and pace comes from one of my favourite player. Good to have you back!!

Arshavin - Although look a little lost in the first half, when Walcott came on, you produced some magic. Hope to see more of the same. Welcome to Arsenal!

Eboue - Well, one of the top in the critics' book. Sometimes for me too actually. Well, you did well and was awarded with a goal. Please produce more of the same!!!

and finally...my man-of-the-match

Song - You were solid and defence and created two goals!!! For a CDM, that is excellent!!! We are all counting on you, at least I am putting my faith on you, to act as the reliable shield in front of our back four. Keep it up!!!

Come on Arsenal, time to really roll up your sleeves and push it. The Premier League maybe gone but we're still in the FA Cup and Champions League! Go Gunners!

Lost Passion

2009-03-08T12:05:00.004+08:00

Hello all, a new blog, a new beginning. Hope this blog will last and follow me on my journey to the future! haha

Yea, entering the second half of my CIMP second semester, this semester ain't as enjoyable as the first. Oh well, I am enjoying my management class though but that's the class I enjoy =(. Haiz, many things happened since the new year, mostly bad. BUT, I think I am starting to turn the corner, with the Sunway Student Council starting to operate soon, I can have more things to look forward to ^^.

I wonder how, and I wonder why, all of the sudden, I am starting to talk more with my friends in the council! *woot*, finally and about time too Tat Yang...Well, at least I am working on it, my previous Head (Jack Shen) told me that, he wanna see a change in me in which I replied saying 'I'll try' but he said 'Make It Happen'. Oh yeah, its happening now!

Hmm, since the title is about lost passion and I'd mentioned the Council. It was really disturbing when i recalled a period where I was thinking of quiting Junior Leaders. What were you thinking Tat Yang!? Besides, it also took me long enough to decide whether or not to rejoin the Council. Today, I can stand here and say that I am proud to be one of the Councils! This is what I like to do and where my passion lies. Besides, the other lost passion is my passion for music, I have not touch my guitar for a long time now, its either I am lazy or....just lazy. Just have to take it slow I presume, but its gonna happen!

Hmm, think this is enough for my first post. Gonna leave with a lyric from a band, Angra, which kinda sings how I am feeling now. Entitled, 'Rebirth'

Rebirth

Cooling breeze from a summer day
Hearing echoes from your heart
Learning how to recompose the words
Let time just fly

Joyfull sea-gulls roaming on the shore
Not a single note would sound
Raise my head after I dry my face
Let time just fly

Recalling, retreating
Returning, retreaving
A small talk your missing
More clever but older now

A leader, a learner
A lawful beginner
A lodger of lunacy
So lucid in a jungle
A helper, a sinner
A scarecroow's agonyzing smile

Oh! Minutes go round and round
Inside my head
Oh! My chest will now explode
Falling into pieces
Rain breaks on the ground-blood!

One minute forever
A sinner regreting
My vulgar misery ends

(And I) ride the winds of a brand new day
High where mountain's stand
Found my hope and pride again
Rebirth of a man

Time to fly...
source : www.darklyrics.com

Irony

2009-03-08T02:27:00.004+08:00

Hmm, i guess one of the reasons that I happened to be quiet among people I don't not know is that I am not random enough. Donno lah, but all I know is that this little bad habit of mine got to go! hehe... This heavy shell has been with me for long enough... Isn't it ironic, for someone who can't speak out with a small group of strangers but can stand in front of 400 or more people being an emcee, not just in English but also BM which I suck in. Irony 1

Its early hours of Sunday, and I am not sleeping yet, mainly because I sleep 'early' during weekends. Plus, my brother requested that I wake him up at 3 if I happen to be awake...so, how can I sleep? Do I always put others ahead of myself? My past two relationships also like this, I don't wanna blame anyone but yea, I was on the receiving end. Maybe I am, ultimately, to be blamed? I did all I could to make things go right but I failed on both occasions, maybe being in a relationship just ain't for me? Guess I'll just keep an open mind^^. Irony 2

My passion can really drive me nuts and times, often leading me to scoldings from my parents. I work my ass of, especially when organizing events. Even back in my schooling days, I was a prefect who was in a team that organized the annual Teacher's Day celebration. I was the program manager and the emcee on the day itself. I did try reject having to cover two major roles, however, I failed so ended up filling up two slots. I don't mind but it appeared to be too much. The day before the actual event, it was supposed to be a final rehearsal where all the performers are supposed to come. Only one group showed up, things did not went the way I planned them to be. Being a C type ( from DISC ), I demand things to go according to plan, more so with my own schedule as I have my own problems, especially when I get nervous or in any situation that I never found myself in. Moreover, that year, was the year where the Prefectorial Board got a lot of criticism from many sources as our beloved and well-respected advisors left. I really wanted the event to be a blast. My mind went racing, staring at the fear of the event going haywire straight in the eye, I broke down ( yes, i cry ). When my parents came to fetch, they could tell that I cried, instead of comforting me, I got lectured, my dad said "You asked for it" or somewhere along those lines.

Same thing happened in College too. Back in the wonderful Juniors' days, the biggest night in Sunway University College ( haha, exaggerating ) RetroTechno. The event ended late, plus needed to clean up. I came out of college very late and my parents and my brother were waiting for me for quite a while. As soon as the car pull off with me inside, more lectures. I know they are worried, but hey, this is what I enjoy doing, one of the main reasons why I am thinking of furthering my studies in Sunway. There is no need to stop me from joining the Student Council, sorry mom and dad, I am in. I love what I am doing, so I hope you can understand and show me some support in my decision. Working so hard but people just take for granted or pull me down...*pat myself on the back* Irony 3

So yea, some traits of my life thus far. Being misunderstood for someone who is arrogant because I don't talk much ( my bad ). People take me for granted at times ( starting to get used to it.. ). BUT HEY! I am happy^^, looking forward for tomorrow to come. Still ever ready for another person to walk into my life ( if any )... So yea, its ironic too, I am happy with all these that I lived through cause I believe I learnt and experienced something that someone might never even encounter. You only live once, so live life to the fullest!!!

Teh's Tales

Getting a hang of things

Persona

Life is...

What are words to me?

One of those moments..

I miss...

The end of April

I have my moments as well

Life just have to go on...

Just for fun

Its November

Practice Practice

梁靜茹 - 没有如果

*screaming out at the top of my lungs*

Arsenal again

The tale of the three dances

My 70th

Selamat Ari Gawai

gLee

Give her a break

Looking Ahead

All I wanna say is.....Thank You

Follow up on the previous post

For Ramsey!

Being random

What did the elder chimney say to the younger chimney?

You're too young to smoke!

Shitty feeling

Where do we go from here?

Lack motivation

We're heading to the Bridge

We Lost

Its The Day

Random post

My Wish List

Goal

When I was away

Good Bye 2009!

My first 50th

Where do I belong?

2012

Just commentary

This Is It

I survived Genting!

I'm down and almost out...

A combination of two days

And the wheel keeps spinning

Dilemma

Post-match =D

Pre-match

One down!

Moving away from football reviews

From despair to delight

Utterly Disgusted

We lost, simple as that

UP!

I'M BACK....and so are some other things

My Little Complilation

My little box of thought

Just some updates

Veron's 20th, Elaine's 19th

1-4!

Calling upon the best performance

Back to winning ways

We're Out

Clarification...

Its happening again!?

About Me

Commitment? Stupidity? Selflessness?

Tired

My humble view on matters

Back with a BANG!

Hair Cut

One down, more to come

Busy week coming up

Quindruple?

Updating

A Chapter Closed

Silence~~~

screaming out at the top of my lungs